Second Chance

Chapter 11

Just like any other chemo day I dreaded going. I was alone today since everyone had prior engagements to attend. To top things off after Jodi picks me up, we are going dress shopping, not the best day to go but It was the only time she was able to do it. I was already not feeling well I had a headache, and I was overly tired. 

At the hospital, there weren’t many patients here today, so it was fairly quiet, in which I didn’t mind. My next check-up was coming up soon, and I was becoming a nervous wreck over it. I’m praying there is some progress instead of being at another standstill. 

Time was ticking, and I was spacing out. The headache I had was growing by the minute, so I’m hoping Jodi has some medicine I can take that will maybe help with it.  All I needed to do was get through these next few hours, so I can go home and sleep. I wasn't going to ruin this day for Jodi since it was one step closer to her wedding day.  I know this day means a lot to her, and I wasn't about to disappoint her with rescheduling. I’m sure she would understand, but I’m not letting this headache stand in the way.

Once my appointment was over, I was relieved I was one step closer to home and sleep.  Luckily Jodi has a dress already picked out I just needed to go try it on and make sure everything would fit.  

As soon as in spotted Jodi's car, I hopped in and straight away asked her, "please tell me you have pain meds on you?" 

"Yeah, there should be some of your prescriptions in my bag there in the back seat. Are you feeling okay? Are you sick? We can reschedule if you're not feeling up to doing it today. They're just going to take your measurements and then have you try the style of dress on.”

With a weak smile, I said, "I have a migraine and didn't have anything to take on me. We don't need to reschedule since I'm sure we'll be done within half an hour."

"Are you sure? I understand if you can't do today since you just had treatment."

"No, I'll be fine once the medicine kicks in."

"Okay, just let me know if you want to leave at any time."

"I will." With that, the rest of the car ride was silent, with just soft music playing in the background. I was waiting patiently for the medicine to kick in, but it seemed my migraine wanted to get worse. It felt like my head was going to burst open from all the pressure.

The rest of the journey went by quick, and we were now pulling up to the boutique. Taking my time to get into the store appeared to even be a struggle without getting dizzy. All I wanted to do was make it through this without passing out and giving someone a heart attack.

I tuned out the conversation between Jodi and the sales lady and just waited for when I needed to put the dress on. Not even five minutes later, I was holding myself up against the dressing room wall trying to put the dress on. It was harder than I was expecting it to be. Maybe I should have rescheduled today and just went home to sleep it off. 

When I came out of the dressing room, the lady began her work, measuring me with the tape measure all the way around. Thankfully, she knew what she was doing and was quick with her work. Although, by the look on her face, I was positive she was iffy about my weight, considering I was super tiny. There was only so much they could take off the dress without destroying the design or the dress looking baggy.

Like I had thought, we were done in half an hour and was on our way home. The migraine I had, hasn't let up and I still felt slightly dizzy, but I'm sure sleep would fix that. If I didn't get any sleep soon, I was positive I'd be leaning over my toilet sooner rather than later.

We didn't live far from the boutique, so it was only a matter of minutes before we were at the house. No one else was home, so I didn't have to check in with anyone. I just went straight to my room and was asleep within minutes.

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Sun was the first thing I noticed when I opened my eyes. It was either the next morning, or I only slept for a couple of hours. My migraine was still there, and I had a feeling a trip to the hospital was about to come.

That meant more IVs with lots of fluids and a few days of staying in a dull room. I was not ready for another stay, but I also didn't want to scare my family again. They've been through a lot already with me. Slowly sitting up, I made sure to stay sitting for a few before finally getting out of bed and heading to the bathroom. 

Making my way downstairs, I heard laughter coming from the kitchen, which meant someone was home and eating. Arriving in the kitchen, I noticed Seth setting at the table with Hope while my father was cooking something. 

"Hey sweetie, Jodi said you had a migraine. How are you feeling?"

"I feel like crap honestly. I think we may be making a trip to the hospital for fluids. My medicine isn't kicking in. How long was I asleep for?" 

" I'm assuming you slept for 3 hours. I'm finishing up dinner if you want to try and get food in and some water. We can see how you feel afterward and go from there."

"Thanks, dad."

Dinner was pleasant, with Seth at the table, he had plenty of jokes that we were all cracking up too. My migraine didn't get worse but didn't get any better with time. Once everything was cleaned up, I headed upstairs and took a much-needed shower before making my way to dad so he could take me. 

Arriving at the hospital, they right away decided to keep me overnight with fluids considering my vitals were a little to low for there liking. I knew this was coming, but I still wasn't prepared to stay. Dad couldn't stay long since he needed to get Seth home, and Hope to bed, as well as he needed to get some sleep for work in the morning. Leaving me all alone in this dull room, I stared at the wall, waiting to fall back to sleep, but it seemed harder than intended. My brain was running wild tonight, mostly with the thought being when will this all be over.