Still You

Still You 11

Just when she closed her the door of her room. She broke down and cry. The tears that she has been keeping for 11 years, after Armand left her in the middle of the school with all pairs of eyes looking at her, boring some burning stares to her skin. It was pretty embarrassing. It was their Graduation day. He just said goodbye without any explanation. She now remember looking at the same pain in his eyes. She keeps on asking herself. What happened? Her head is starting to hurt.

She remembered promising to her brother she won’t cry over anything. That she would be stronger than anybody. She would keep the thought of crying away. She tried to be happy, but when ever she is not with her brother she cried hard the pain from Armand and the disappointing comments form her father. She always keeps it from anybody specially her bother, but it seems her brother knew her more than herself. He always knows when she cried. She got herself with so many troubles. She proved to everybody that she is not what they think she was. She got into some fights that made her father more fuming mad at her. She rebelled from her father; in fact she rebelled against everybody. But she did great with her grades. She was capable of something’s not just mischief. Her brother keeps on telling her to stop her foolishness, until one day she got into a fight with some one who is part of a bad gang. She was walking with her brother. Since she got into so many troubles, her brother always fetch her after her class. She is a freshman by then. She wanted her brother to know that she could drive. So he agreed to let her. She always wanted to show him that. On their way to the car some gang members which were mostly men blocked there way. They got into a fight, but got out after a while. On that day she drove them home. She drove like crazy. Going to higher speeds just to get away from the men following them. She is some kind of a reckless driver that is. But that doesn’t end there. Her brother’s car was destroyed by the boys they just encounter. The brake and the string wheel got crazy in the middle of the road, just a little later after they got out of the school premises. She looked at her brother in panic then a truck hit their car, particularly her side of the car.

She remembered her brother smiling at her and holding her hand so tightly to calm her down. They are still in the middle of the road when a huge transporter was coming towards the car he saw it behind her back. She was supposed to be the one who got killed, but her brother moved to get her out of the car. She got out but it was already too late to save him when the transporter crashed the car again. The car was dragged to the corner with her brother inside until it bumped in the tree; she lost consciousness after the shock she saw. She was unconscious for 3 weeks, when she woke up she lost her brother forever

. He was in the critical condition, he was brought to the hospital but after 3 days he didn’t survive, he died.

When she regains her consciousness she kept on asking about her only brother but no body dared to tell her. Her parents never went to the hospital after the death of her brother. She wondered why no body told her about her brother. When she asked where he was they just stoop down and not answer. They were avoiding the question. Before her brother’s burial she got out the hospital just in time. They were in the funeral. She saw a coffin. At first she didn’t think it was her brother. She just thought that they were visiting somebody who just died. She was in a wheel chair being pushed by her personal nurse. When she got near it, she found out it was her brother. She didn’t cry, but she felt the pain in her heart. It was her who caused his death, if it was not for her, he would not lose him. If she didn’t get herself into trouble, her brother should have still been here with her, comforting her. Making her laugh as hard as she could, she will never feel so empty. It was her fault, she knew it. Her father was right about it. If it was not for her, he should have been alive. Her father’s favorite child would have been with him. It was the first time she cried after 10 years of keeping it. She poured all her pain. From the day she lost her only best friend, her rescuer, her only brother. The day that she lost him was also the day that she forgot how to cry and laugh at the top of her lungs. She always laughs with her friends but never the way she did 10 years ago. That day was the day before his birthday. He would have inherited the company already at the age of 23. But he died before that, because of her. She remembered that it was the day that her brother died. As she remembered it now she cried harder. Until she slept soaking her pillow with her tears. She even forgot to lock her house, nor her own room. She was alone in the house, she don’t have any one to talk to. There is no need to do so. No one is home to comfort her now. No one to talk too. She felt alone even more. With the knowledge of her father's disgust. Her brother's death and Armand's anguish. She thought it would be better for her to die. I guess everybody will be happy with me dead.