Come Back Home

Jennie's POV I am staring out my window almost five on the afternoon, wearing my comfortable pajamas and oversized shirt. I'm so bored as hell in my suite and then I remember that Lisa texted me to go to her birthday tonight. It's been 1 month since I arrived here, I'm still adjusting on the other words,  it's been 5 straight years since I've been here so... I decided to look out on the veranda, it's the sunset. How I hate this scene. I do look miserable before but thanks to my friends in New Zealand that helped me to regain my confidence again and thought me how to be strong. For those years I stayed there, except for pain, hatred, and anger, I feel like I'm missing him too. I heard a lot of news about him and he seems miserable too. I know that there is a hate in my heart but I do care for him as a human being at least. I breath out and looks as the sun goes down. The beach in front of me reflected the light. It's so beautiful, the sounds of the waves that seems like echoing in my ears, the birds chirping outside my window and how my heart sounds. It is peaceful. *** "Jennie, I'm sorry." I am shocked seeing him here, it's not that I really don't know that he's here. It's expected since he's a friend of Lisa. I couldn't blame anybody for inviting him here because after all, I also thought about this happening. I heard them gasped, to remove the tension, I just smiled sweetly at him as if nothing happened and ran to Lisa. I am not prepared to talk or even face him after a long years, but I know for sure I didn't felt anything after seeing him again. Thank heavens. "Happy Birthday sweetie!" I greeted her energetically. She gave me a sorry look "For what?" I asked and I greet everyone who's smiling at me, even though there is a lot of unfamiliar faces.  "Sorry, I didn't know that he'll come. " I giggled formally and just shook my head. "It's nothing, really, and anyway your party sucks. It's so pinkish." I teased. You should look around and count how many pink stuffs were here, her response was to wack my arms. "You never change. But hey! You've got your shape you're so sexy and even got more pretty." I just smiled for the compliment. A lot of people told me that but I really don't want accepting compliments, not that I hate it but because it's embarrassing. "Where are they?" I asked. I'm talking about Jisoo and Rose.  "They're just around there, enjoy my party." I smiled as I saw her walking away to entertain other guest. I smiled from a far, she is always this friendly ever since before. How I wish I am friendly too. "Jennie!" I looked around and saw Jisoo and Rosie. "Oh my god! Are you really Jennie? You got slimmer and sexier." Jisoo teased and we hugged each other. How I missed this girls so much, we've been friends for a long time so it's easy to understand each other and I'm happy that they understand why I had to leave. "You seems so fine Jennie, you're so pretty." Rosie complimented, she's glamorous in her white tank top paired with a shorts and her blonde hair was braided, she even put flowers tucked in her ears. "You guys never changed." I teased to Jisoo who is wearing a yellow hawaiian dress and her black hair is tied in a messy bun but she's really pretty. "Eh I got slimmer! Right Rose?" Jisoo whined. " I don't want to lie, the Lord told me that---" We shuushhed  Rosie's words. It's all about the worship again.This church girl never change, it's not like I don't like it, it is actually a good sign that she's been a good girl after all this years. "Anyways I saw Taehyung approached you." Jisoo opened the topic and raised her brows to me, seems like she's about to tease me about it.  A guy holding a tray was about to pass but I stopped him and got a blue drink and give it to Jisoo and Rose , I got a purple one. I took a sip before looking back at them. "I know that your alcohol tolerance now got high." Jisoo rolled her eyes playfully. "Why? Can't you drink the hardest one?" I challenged her but she Rosie just laughed with Jisoo. "Not really. I don't want to go home.... rolling." I am talking to them when my phone vibrated, I looked at it and saw my older brother calling so i have to excuse myself. "Excuse me." Since I am in a club inside the resort, I have to get out and find some signal to answer this f*****g disturbing call. I walked around and finally I found a better signal.  f**k, my foot hurts. "Yes Hello?" I answered. I just realized that I am in a dark side of the beach, I suddenly felt conscious because I'm alone. "You need to---" The line suddenly becomes silent making me understand no thing about what he is saying making me pissed in just a split seconds. "What the f**k are you saying? I can't understand Yoongi!" I shouted. I stand on a flat form to improve the signal. "Is it okay now?" I just mouthed yeah. "My little sister, I am just asking if you're fine? Are you okay?" I groaned hearing how his tone is just teasing me. "You just called because of that?!  You're so dead. Do you know how far I walked just to answer your nonsense call? Argh!" I kicked the sand in my frustration. I heard him laugh so hard. "What do you want I am here in Venice." " I don't care. I can buy what I want, bye." I rolled my eyes as if he can see it. "Okay bye sis!" He ended up the call. Yoongi is so hard to understand, in front of his friends he's acting cool and doesn't care but it's the opposite of him. The typical annoying big brother is what he is, what a fake. I felt someone behind me so I slowly turned, I am scared! D U H. "Taehyung?!"  Tall guy standing at your back and saw him at the moment you turn around. Who wouldn't be shocked by that?  "Hi. It's been a long time." Yeah right. It's been so long. "I know. So what are you doing here?" I tried to be casual. I don't want to be awkward with him. I can't even look straight in his eyes, it's full of sadness. I moved on didn't I? "I'm just walking around in our favorite place." I gawked hearing his words. Our favorite place? "Not anymore Tae.." I saw him smile. "I mean Taehyung." I let out an awkward laugh. "So how are you?" He asked and sat on a flat form. "I'm fine seriously." I answered, standing still. "Good to you. I'm just thinking how can you be this casual as if nothing happened?" I laughed sarcastically on his words. "Mind if I seat here? I mean no malicious something?" He nodded so I did my thing. "I'm like this for almost 4 years, I go to clubs, have fun and live my life. I'm thinking of forgetting everything that happened in the past, as much as I wanted to forget you too, I can't since you belong on the circle of friends so how about you?" I stopped and continue my words. "I heard you're fine " I lied. I saw the sadness in his eyes so I looked away and focused on the dark sea in front of us. I wanted to be upset to the sea because it's listening maybe on my loud heartbeat. "Yes, I'm fine in those year that you left, I'm living my life too, go to clubs, have fun and moved on. I do the same thing you did." He lied. "Okay.." I heard him breath out and stands up. I am just looking at him, confused. "Can we start again?" I looked away and I saw his eyes glimmer. He's crying. He offered his hands for me. If I accept it. It means I'm ready to forget all of the shits that he have done to me. I'm not that stupid to forget everything in New Zealand, I don't want to forget the hardships I got through in New Zealand. I can't just let go of that 5 years for his offer. "I'm fine, I can stand up alone." I stood up ignoring him. "I'm going back inside, let's just forget about this little talk. Enjoy Lisa's party." I said casually after tucking my hair behind my ears. "Why can't you listen to me at least once?! How can your heart be this hard?" I ignored him and continue my walk back at the party. Yes Taehyung, my heart is like a stone now, No emotions and feelings included. And no more you.