Strange Love and Protection.
692 Words
So my life as Ahda is at a breaking point. I lost my job 6 months ago and cant find a new one. As a result we lost everything. We had to move in with my grandma which isn't bad but still makes me feel like i have completely failed at adult hood. Pregnancy hormones do not help. when i have this dream...
Im living at home with my mom and little grandma. Idk if i have kids in this dream but there are a lot of them running around, perhaps i am the oldest? I do know this house is old, the back door that leads to the kitchen is broken and quick fixed with plywood. we still have to use it because the living room has been turned into a bedroom for the kids with 6 beds lining the walls. i have my own room and mom and grama share a room. so im cooking for the kids when we receive news of bear attacks. but the bear never hurts anyone and always gets away, leaving no tracks once it gets into the woods. I turn back to my cooking. I am the only 1 in the kitchen and my back is to the door. i hear footsteps but dont pay any mind. Then i hear a growl and paws scratch at the door. I freeze with my back against the Stove. there are men trying to keep the bear out, but a paw breaks threw and for some reason i know i need to touch it, walking up arm held out i lay my hand across the bears paw. The bear calms and moves back. Its silent as they all stare at me. then there's a knock on the door. I open the door to find a taller Native American man standing there with long dark braids streaked with grey running down both sides of his head. he tells the men in my house he seen the bear take off into the woods towards the creek. They run trying to capture it. I am still standing there admiring his handsome. I am completely infatuated with him, and i dont know why. But its as if i have known him for lifetimes. I wonder how my family can be so dumb, i know he is the bear. He never says as much but i can feel it. He invites me to smoke. its weed but there's some other herbs in it as well. i said yes. He tells me it will open my mind and sharpen my awareness. my grandma walks out onto the porch. she doesn't like him i can tell by her suspicious face, I suspect she knows he is the bear. she would never tell tho, simply because she is wise. He can also sense her feelings and my feelings are that he has respect for her. so we stand up. he turns to me taking off one of his own necklaces and placing it on me. Hes looking straight into my eyes I can not look away. Hes blessing my forehead with holy water shaping a pentacle. I look at the clock. i know im going to be late for the tea party....
suddenly im at the tea party im guessing im sometime in the early 1920s because of how im dressed. im at the buffet table looking to grab some tiny cakes. When everyone starts talking about how to kill the bear! I know better than to say anything but i cant help myself. i scream out "no!" shes just trying to protect her cubs i insist. The men all look at me. one of them says " dumb woman do u think we can not distinguish between male and female?" " No sir i only thought..." " now we see why women should not think." Ouch! I can not argue anymore or i will be burned as a witch.
Then i hear the native man speaking into my mind, and i get a vision of the bear running. " Do not fear daughter for i am long gone. Then I am jolted awake by kye screaming bloody murder...
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