Discovering Me

Special Moments

After cleaning the kitchen back up, I walked to the clinic and dropped off the leftover potion that was put in jars. I wrote down the instructions and dosage and it was put in the refrigerator for future use.

From the clinic we went back to the packhouse to spend the evening with Luna Nita and Beta Kareema. We had dinner in the dining room of the Packhouse and then spent the rest of the time in Luna Nitra’s lounge area on the Alpha floor. We had a few drinks, laughed, and talked. It was a pleasant evening.

I was a bit tipsy by the end of the evening and decided to make my way down to Keenan’s floor. After the surprise from earlier in the day, I didn’t want to rush in and slowly let myself in, not knowing what to expect.

Keenan wasn’t back there yet and the suite was quiet. Since it was such a long day, I decided to shower and change into a tank top and pajama shorts. I was just finishing when I heard Keenan coming through the door.

“Hey, how did things go?” I asked, coming out of my room when I heard him come in.

“I think I need a drink. Things are more crazy here than I knew. Would you like to have a drink with me?” He asked, pouring two glasses of tequila.

“Um. I’ve been drinking today already. Do you have any juice or something I can put in here? I know I won’t be sober if I drink that straight.” I asked, and he walks to the refrigerator and pours some pineapple juice into the cup and hands it to me. He drinks his first cup of tequila straight down without anything and pours himself another. While I just sip on mine, I still feel the drinks from earlier.

“Were you about to go to bed? I see you’re already in your pajamas?” He asked, looking at what I had on.

“Well, I didn’t think there was anywhere else for me to do tonight. I was just going to get comfortable and watch TV until you came back. But if you want to talk about anything, I’m up and ready to listen.” I stated, seeing he really looked distressed.

“Not really feeling like talking. But I could use the company. Come, let's sit on the couch. Maybe watching something on TV will be enough to distract me and calm my nerves.” He says, walking to the couch and turning the TV on.

He flips through a few channels until he stops on a channel with cartoons. Usually he loves watching this cartoon, but today I can tell something is really wrong. He’s not even laughing at the funny parts. I knew he didn't want to talk so I decided to just give him a hug.

He tensed up at first but eventually relaxed. I thought maybe he just needed a little cuddling to make him feel better. So, I picked my drink up and leaned on him, watching TV. He sat with his arm wrapped around me and I could feel him relax some.

We sat like that watching TV and he poured more liquor into both our cups. I started a little more than tipsy and I could tell so did her because, I slowly, I felt his hand start to drift from rubbing on my shoulder, then my back, lower back, and eventually he was palming my ass. Normally, I would stop this, but with all the drinks in my system and thinking about our interaction early, it arouses me.

I started thinking about what he said and some of the thoughts I secretly had about him.I put my hand on his rock-hard stomach, lazily caressing each of the muscles. His oh so nicely toned body. His firm abdomen. His powerful shoulders. His nicely chiseled chin. His beautiful hazel eyes. Oh lord, he’s been watching me. He slides my hand to his bulge out and I am so curious so I run my hand up and down his length.

“Lexi, I already warned you not to start anything.” he says in a raspy voice.

I looked up at his face, poked out my bottom lip and replied, “What are you talking about? I wasn’t starting anything.” Looking down at how his hand was cupping my behind. “But it looks like you’re the one with a handful and a hard on.”

I’m not certain this flirtiness came from the drinks or my arousal, but it was enough for him to take action. He lifts me up so I’m straddling his lap. One hand around my waist, the other on the base of my neck, he pulls me into a kiss. A slow sensual kiss and using his hand around my waist, he causes me to slowly rock against his hardened manhood. He uses the hand that was on my neck. He rubs my shoulder and eventually he's cupping my breast and thumb rubbing my buds.

Moving his mouth and kissing my neck, he says, “Little temptress, you are a handful. Do you know how intoxicating the scent of your arousal is? I can’t help but want to soothe your desires. But would that be appropriate? I told you I would be there for whatever you need. Is this what you need right now, my little shortcake?”

"Yes" I moaned out.

Rubbing his hands up my inner thigh, he slips a finger inside the bottom of my shorts to feel my throbbing core. “Lexi, I can feel how wet you are through your panties. I’m sure you can feel how ready I am right now.” He says, rubbing his hardness on my bundle of nerves. “I’m just not sure you’re ready for all of this yet.”

“I’m not stopping you am I?” I asked him in a flirty manner.

“No but I can tell you’ve never been touched in that way before,” he said, his hand still rubbing his manhood against my now throbbing core.

“I’m inexperienced, you say?” I asked.

“I would say so” he says, and the pleasure I’m feeling right now is causing me to want to move to that next level.

“Well, aren’t you supposed to be my mentor? Why don’t you teach me so I won’t be inexperienced anymore?” I said between moans. I begin wrapping my less around his hips and rocking with his motion.

“If that’s really what you want to do. I definitely don’t want to deny you.” He says now, slowly stroking my core. “Before you answer I just want you to know that you are way more than a fling to me. I would love nothing more than to court you properly and make you mine, but that wouldn’t be fair to you. You deserve a chance to be with your mate. You know I plan on being with my mate once I find her.Your first time should be with someone special, not someone that you don’t intend on being with. ” He said, forcing me to make eye contact with him.

“Keenan.” I can’t believe I’m going to do this. “Keenan, you are someone special to me.” I said, kissing his neck. “We’re both consenting adults.” now slowly rocking myself on top of him.

“But, Lexi..” He starts but I interrupt him by kissing his lips.

“You’ll always be someone special to me. Mate or not, I want to do this.” I said and sensually kissed him again.

He lifts me up and carries me into his room, placing me gently on the bed. Pulling from the kiss, he removed my top and began kissing my neck down to my n****e. He looked into my eyes before pulling my shorts and underwear and rubbing his finger up and down my slit as he removed his pants. He slowly lines himself up again, rubbing my nerves. He looks me in the eyes again, silently asking for permission. I nodded, granting him access, and he slowly lowered himself inside of me. I would be lying if I said it didn’t hurt. I took a deep breath to bear with it.

“Are you okay? Can you breathe for me?” he asked and I nodded, exhaling. “Okay, that was just the tip. I’m going to move a little further inside now. I’ll be gentle. ” he said as he slowly moved in and out until I felt completely filled up. Eventually the pain was replaced with pleasure and that pleasure eventually led to build up in my core, which turned into a euphoric feeling like I'd never felt before. “f***k, Lexi!” Keenan said as I felt him pull himself out of me and released his seed up under me. “Are you okay?” He asked, placing gentle kisses on my cheek.

“Yes.I’m fine.” I answered, still riding that high. I can’t help but moan as he continues to grind me on his hardened manhood.

The next morning, I woke up confused to a foreign alarm going off. I looked around and saw I was not in my room. I’m not in the room I was staying in either. I’m lying in Keenan’s arms with nothing on and a bit sore.

The intoxicated memories come back. That was my first, second, third and forth time. I bite my bottom lip thinking about everything we did. I don't know where I got that boldness.

“Are you okay?” he asks, moving my hair so he can see my face. I’m sure I look like a feral wolf with my big hair all over the place. I didn’t tie it back or put on a bonnet to keep it from going everywhere.

“Yes, I’m okay. I just can’t believe all that happened last night,” I answered.

“Sorry about that. The drinks kicked in and then, when the scent of your arousal hit me. I couldn’t hold back. I hope you're not regretting what happened.” he says, rubbing his hand down my side, lifting my leg over his. “Are you okay? Are you sore? Do you need me to get someone to help you? Should we postpone a day or so? We're supposed to be at the hotel by the convention center tonight. If it’s too much, we can wait a day.” He asks, looking concerned.

“I don't regret anything. I am a little sore but I think I can manage. I just don't know how this day after thing works. I should probably shower so we can get going.” I got up and grabbed the blanket to cover me. That caused me to look down and notice the spot on the bed as I got up. “There's blood. Is that from my hymen? Sorry about that.” I started looking for my clothes but they were all over, so I grabbed his shirt on the bed and put it on.

“Don’t worry about that. I’ll have someone clean it. I just want to make sure you’re okay. We have a 3 hour drive today. Are you sure you’re okay to go?” He asked.

“Yes, I'll shower and get dressed. I think I can be ready in less than an hour.” I replied, knowing I have a duty to be there on time.

“Okay. I’ll have someone bring breakfast and snacks for the drive. I'm going to shower also and once you’re ready, we can say bye to my family and go if you’re still feeling okay.” He says and I nod and walk to my room to shower and change.

“Hey, Wolfie-girl. Are you okay?” I asked, in a sing-song way, walking back to my room. Sierra had been exceptionally quiet since my first drink last night.

“Yes, just busy healing you. If you haven’t noticed,” She answered with an attitude.

“Awe pooh, are you mad at me or something?” I asked. She’s never used that tone with me before.

“Guess, you could say, or something. Mad? Kinda. Disappointed? I’m still deciding. You have been denying your attraction towards Keenan for a while now. Last night, we were intoxicated and when you drink too much it causes you to just push me aside and to not think of the consequences of the things you do. You just made that decision to give up something so sacred without consulting me. I’m not saying I didn’t enjoy the whole experience, but think of the potential consequences. If we meet our mate tomorrow, would he understand? Would we be okay if he meets his mate tomorrow?” She asked.

“I’m sorry. You are right. I guess I was horned up but I should have talked to you about it before doing it since we do share a body. I support him finding his mate and think he feels the same way. I promise to talk to him about it and see where we stand. Will you forgive me?” I asked.

“You know I will forgive you. You should know you’ve woken up something…”

“What’s that?” I inquired.

“Desire. He is very yummy and some of the things he did. Girl! We should do that again. Just not until I’m done healing us.” She says lustfully.

“Girl! Yaaas!! He was so gentle but it was hurting so badly at first. I almost asked him to stop but it started feeling so good. Now look at us wanting to do it again, even with the soreness.” I said, laughing before closing the link to shower.

I put on a halter crop top and some comfy joggers and repacked my bag, putting it back in the clothes that were freshly washed and brought back by one of the packhouse omega’s. Once I finished, I was entranced by the smell of bacon. I quickly grabbed my bags and I walked into the main room. There, I was greeted by Keenan and Alpha Zain, who had a brown paper bag in his hand standing in the living room.

“Good Morning Alpha. Hello Keenan. Is that bacon I smell?” I asked, sniffing the air to locate the source.

“Good Morning Lexi. Yes, I brought you two breakfast burritos and a snack for the road. My brother was saying you two would be leaving soon.” He said, laughing and looking at his brother. "Guess you're right about her eyes lighting up when you say 'bacon'." They must have been talking about my love of bacon before I walked in.

"I think bacon will help me to help you heal. Can you ask if he added extra bacon?" Sierra asked.

"Extra bacon would be nice. You have work to do, I am still pretty sore", I said to Sierra, and I started walking towards the door with my bags.

“Someone will grab those for you Lexi. You shouldn’t over exert yourself,” Keenan said, walking from the kitchen so he could grab my bags out of my hands and set them down. “We do need to get going, so we’ll eat the food in the car. Are you sure you’re feeling okay?”

“Oh goddess he’s so concerned it’s cute. Let him know I’m almost done healing us. We just need extra bacon,” Sierra says.

“What’s wrong with her? Are you not feeling well? Do you want to go to the clinic? Do you need more ingredients for a potion or something?” Alpha Zain inquires. He walks up to me putting the back of his hand on my forehead like he's trying to check my temperature.

“Can we say embarrassment? He’s going to take you to the clinic because you lost your v card.” Sierra quirps.

“I’m fine. Just a little sore. My wolf said I should be fine shortly. She's just asking for extra bacon.” I say now, feeling embarrassed by his concern. I walked away to go over and grabbed one of the cups of coffee Keenan was making. I took a sip, closed my eyes and smiled because he did it perfectly for me. Opening my eyes, I noticed the brothers were having a mindlink conversation of their own.

“Oh. Keenan already told me to have extra bacon put on the burittos. I'm really intrigued by him not wanting to comment on what's going on with you two. For me, your waddle walk is enough to say it all. I’m honestly not surprised though. What took you so long?” he says, hitting his brother.

“Bro! Can you just grab her bag? We need to get going.” Keenan says, now noticing how his brother was piecing things together.

I couldn’t get out of there quickly. I walked out and headed to the elevator as I heard the brothers' banter going on behind me.

“So does this mean you’ve changed your mind about accepting a chosen mate? I think this is a good match up even though the goddess didn't do it herself.” Alpha Zain asked as we stepped into the elevator.

“No” both Keenan and I said in unison.

“Okay. Just wondering. I mean I like this here.” He gestures between the two of us. Thank goodness it was a short ride and the elevator doors opened and we were greeted by the rest of Keenan’s family.

"I hope you didn’t think you’d be able to sneak off without saying goodbye” Mrs. Patal says, wrapping her son in a hug.

“No, of course not, mother. We don’t have much time, but I was going to stop by your home before leaving.” Keenan says, kissing his mother on the cheek.

“It’s a good thing we decided to come here then. We’ll see you in a few weeks, son. I’m so proud of all the work you have been doing. I know you’re going to come back as a great asset to this pack.” Mr Patal says, hugging his son, then turns to hug me. “Lexi, please don’t be a stranger.” He then whispers so only I hear. “I’m glad to see you and my son are getting closer, my dear. Strong bloodlines is what is going to keep our race safe. My superior sense of smell is telling me you two have become closer than what you were yesterday. I couldn't be happier, my dear.”

If I didn’t think I could become more embarrassed I have just been proven wrong.