Knock at my window

Pink led lights and flowers on my wall. I tried putting up my art on my wall but i lost most my things in the moving process. My dad was really trying to move in a rush and i didn’t really question it but with all the secrets everybody keeps around me I don’t even question anything anymore. Tomorrow’s the first day of hell but I really hope it goes good. especially since it’s my junior year. After what happened last year I really don’t want to go to school this year or even make friends. I really wanna join the swim team this year though it’s the only thing that makes me feel good. Texting her number again hoping she’ll reply I end up falling asleep. Waking up to the birds chirping and a really beautiful sunrise was kind of nice. ugh here we go again. I put on the outfit i had ready from last night and do my makeup i actually feel good today. I get on the bus and it’s honestly really weird how a group of kids just stand there waiting for a yellow limo or that’s at least how i think of it in my mind. It sometimes feels so awkward especially when you don’t know anyone. The halls are loud and lockers especially when people slam them. Everything is always so loud on my mind and I wonder what it sounds like to everybody else. I step in the class room not knowing anyone and it feels so weird. I wonder who else is new I wonder where everyone goes and a million things go through my mind. “XERA is Xera here?” “oh here” I raise my hand and put it down so quickly and seeing everyone’s eyes just terrified me. but they look away just as quickly. the day went by so quickly especially since it was just learning names today was pretty uneventful. I go to the bathroom to see a mirror and someone ask me if i smoke but i’ve only done it once before so she hands me a cart and everything slows and i go back to my locker before the bell rings for us to head out to the busses and i see a note. “Xera, i like your name and your voice i wanna get to know you but idk how to come up to you so for now i’ll send you notes” there was a kiss in the corner and i kinda smiled and put it at the top of my locker. “ding ding” OH THE BELL I GOTTA GET HOME! my locker SLAMS “oh s**t that’s loud” i get on the but and go home and i just remember unlocking my door and falling asleep. I wake up to the sound of perfume spraying and the smell of my rose scented perfume. “what the hell” i get up but nothing so i just take a shower to go back to sleep and everything goes dark then to my dreams.