Her life as she never thought it

Foreword It took me an 8 year to finish this book. Each chapter was very hard to write and sometimes made me cry as I was writing. This is one of the most difficult things I have had to do in my life. But God told me to write this book, especially for you reading it right now. I was thinking about you when I wrote each chapter and knew it would be an inspiration after the hurt and pain that you are be going through or went through. God has an amazing way of working through us to help others and to make their load a little lighter. NO MATTER THE SKIN COLOR. We all have struggles in life and this story tells it all. I hope you find the inspiration you need, and it will fill you with hope for the future, because nothing is so unbearable that we have to end it all. There is a healed life waiting for you. I love you, not because I can, but because I want to. If you choose love, it stays with you forever. & God loved us first,And He commands us to love one another just as we love ourselves and Him. I LOVE YOU. This book is for anyone who has experienced r**e, molestation, physical and emotional a***e and anger issues.A little girl’s life, unexpectedly complex yet blessed.She started her life with confusion and heartache. She found God and then her life swirled in the wrong direction.She believed she was cool during her youth, but later experienced the weight of depression, almost losing her life.Before attaining the prize, she underwent significant suffering. Many individuals received her help with their personal life struggles. She was such an inspiration to others she was told.As she grew up, she bloomed into a beautiful young woman. As she found God again. God turned her life around with a Lots of miracles following her new life. She found her purpose. As she grew up, she bloomed into a beautiful young woman.As she found God again. God turned her life around with aLots of miracles following her new life. She found her purpose CHAPTER 1 The beginning Based on a true story about a little girl who grew up living a life most people dread.Long ago there was a man named David and His wife Tamara, who was pregnant. David told Tamara if this was not a girl, he will leave her. And so it was, a little beautiful baby girl. God called her Isabella. Because God calls us all by name. When Isabella was 3 months old, her parents got married. One day, David was busy in the garage servicing their vehicle. David came into the house and had a fight with Tamara. After the fight, he returned to the garage. As he opened the garage door, he heard a gunshot behind him; he froze for a moment, then twisted around to grab the g*n from Tamar’s hand. Nobody was aware, but Tamara endured molestation as a child and had her own issues to deal with. I think the trauma was so bad that Tamara did not know what to do or how to deal with it. Like most of us, we act out in ways we later regret. But there is a root to every problem we face. It is difficult in that moment, but light is REALLY at the end of each dark tunnel.When Isabella was 3 years old, Tamara invited a stranger into their home. Tamara took Isabella, and her 6-month-old brother Eric locked them in their room and gave them a packet of wine gums. Tamara and the strange man then went to the main bedroom. Isabella can remember the way this guy looked, long dark curly hair on his shoulders and dark brown eyes. He drove a yellow car. This had to be very traumatic to remember for a 3-year-old girl. Isabella also had ADHD as a young girl. It felt to Isabella that her mother wanted to kill her, and she was not far from wrong. Maybe Tamara did it not intentionally, but maybe it was. No-one would really know. Isabella never had wine gums again since that day. Isabella later found out that her mommy and daddy were still married, and this was not her daddy her mommy was with. ADHD as a young girl. This is actually funny now that I am writing about it. They all went as a family to go visit friends, and the second time round, the people would close their doors and curtains if they saw the family outside. At age 5, Isabella and her mommy, Tamara, were walking to a friend’s house to drop Isabella off, where she thought her mommy knew there were no parents. They played outside in the front yard with Megan and John. John asked Isabella to come with him to the house. He took her to a room and made her sit on the bed. He pushed her down and tried to take her pants down. She screamed and the cleaning lady came in and took her out of the room. When Isabella went to preschool, she went with a friend Cathy, who is friends with her till this day. Cathy was also breast fed by Isabella’s mother. Her mother did not have breast milk, so Bella’s mother helped. Isabella started acting out with Tamara and one morning she did not want to get dressed. Tamara left the room and this thing in a black bag came into the room. Isabella got such a fright that she climbed up the cupboards and nearly fell down. The black bag saw fear on Isabella’s face and the black bag started becoming Tamara. When her mommy got angry with her, she would trough her around and hit her out of frustration, not discipline. Tamara found God, and at the age of 7, Tamara helped Isabella to give her life to God. She also received a baby sister, Laura, that same year. Isabella learned so much from her mommy about how to live her life with authority over the devil. She would, when a colouring pencils brake, said in Jesus’ name if you brake one more time when I sharpen you, I will throw you away, and the pencil point did not brake again. Isabella woke up one night seeing red eyes on her brick wall. She ran to her parent’s room, and she got into bed with them. When she woke up to go to the bathroom, which is across from her room, her parents were having s*x at her study table, with the door open. She was so angry. Why are they invading her space and doing that in her room? Isabella, age 10 and her parents, went to church. She would ask her mommy the bible and she would read it while the sermon was ongoing. This one Sunday, Isabella had the bible in her hand reading. Isabella stood up and went to the front of the church and said she had to read this to the church. Malachi 2:16 -For the Lord, the God of Israel, says he hates divorce and cruel men. Therefore, control your passions—let there be no divorcing of your wives. After the service a man and woman came to her parents and said that they would not believe what they prayed for as a couple last night, they prayed for God to tell them if they should fight for their marriage or get divorced, and then your got their answer through their daughter being obedient to God’s voice. Isabella carried on serving God with all her heart. One Sunday, there was a request in church for baptism in water and Isabella could not wait to go when she got baptized. They prayed for her, and the Holy Spirit came over her. The pastor said to her that her speaking in tongues will come. She must just remember that these words will not be forgotten. As days went on, words came to her head, but then she forgot them, then again words came and so on. Not long after her encounter with the Holy Spirit, these words came into her mind, and she could not forget them. And from that day on she spoke in tongs that God gave her as His gift. Isabella also practiced piano at this same church and loved it. Until the current teacher at school started hitting her over the fingers when she got a note wrong, and Isabella left playing piano. Primary School One sunny morning, Isabella and Stacy, they were good friends from school, were walking around in their town, up hills, and downhills. It started raining. Isabella prayed to God that he must send someone to pick them up. Few seconds later she realized that she does not want anyone to pick them up, and she asked God to send someone she knew. As she finished her prayer, it started hailing, and at that same moment, a lady her mother knew stopped next to them and took them home. Her faith was built from that day. She trusted God with all her heart.