HIS SHASTA(flower)

At first, I thought managing college and work will be a walk in the grassland that's how all the movies and books made it all look simple and fun but reality hit hard. Being a waitress brings in an income for my expenses but a girl needs a breather. I am just thankful that I managed throughout my first and second years even though it sometimes felt depressing and giving up was my only chance to escape but I had to keep working hard. He was one of the reasons that made everything that seemed difficult simple. The sweet problem was that I once told him how I felt about him. Bruno my first crush for me was the most beautiful man I have ever laid my eyes on. He is not tall or body built and he prefers slim and curvaceous girls which I am not all that and I think he likes me. This is because he once told me how special he feels having me around. Calling or texting is not what he likes doing because he is always busy but I make sure he is okay every day and if I feel like I am missing him I text even though I get late replies from him. Many people think we are dating because of our closeness. we once kissed which was short and sweet, the kiss still tastes fresh in my memories but he told me it was a mistake he was not thinking straight because of all the exams and personal problems he was going through, ever since that day I am not that confident about us dating but because I am over-thinking most of the time I told myself to be patient with him. we have been to his house with some friends a lot of times and most of the parties are held at his place. His parents are hardly home because of business trips and he got lonely alone. Parents are most important to everyone's life but what if they don't want to be part of your life, I mean my dad had a choice to leave or stay but he choose to leave and he never even once looked back. Let's not even start with my mom. Oh, not a mom but the woman who gave birth to me and decided to leave me on my grandmother's doorstep because of the love she had for her new boyfriend. she used to come once or twice when I was in high school and the last time I saw her was at my Granny's funeral, life has never been the same since her past. But I know she is proud of how I turned and that's what is mainly keeping me from falling into depression At first working in a fast-food restaurant was hell on earth as some customers were not that friendly even though I tried my best to do my best. I remember I got paid half my salary because I had to pay all the orders they said I got wrong I felt like not doing back to work but Katie Tone is not a quitter