chapter 9
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If you were to look at me what would you see? it is a simple question and I know the answer to it you would see a girl that looks really happy has a great group of friend's is popular on the soccer team have all A's and having a perfect life. I am or have most of that I just lack two things and that is being happy I wish I was don't get me wrong but I am not and having a perfect life if you know me my life is far from perfect I just act like it is. Do I have people that "love" me sure and do I "love" some people yes well I am on the topic of love I want to ask a question. have you ever had that one person who could do anything and make you smile or generally happy and you know that you love them as a friend and if they do something and leave your life and try to come back you will let that person back in without a second thought and you do this over and over again because you think you cant live without them? Want to know who that is for me well they are my Ex-best friends they are part of the mean girls and the funny thing is they left the "mean girls" in middle school and they are back with them.
Family
me and my brother my have a love hate relationship the thing is most people forget that we are twins but when we were like 7 or 8 me and my brother were insuperable and that last all the way until 7th grade why did we stop being that close well it was because I was distancing myself from all of my family. well obviously we tried to get close again we but it was hard because I was not in the right mind set and I am still not in the right mind set but that's not the point. so this is as close as we are probable ever going to be again but it is what ever. Do I miss how close we were yeah but I will have to get used to it
my mom came in "Alex what are you doing I have been calling you for 10 minutes" my mom said I took out my headset
"Sorry mom I was listening to music but what do you want" I said
"I just wanted to let you know that all the boys went home Zack and Xavier are the only ones left" my mom said
"thanks but mom I would think that Zack and Xavier would still be here" I said
"you know what I mean" my mom said
"I know I was just messing with you" I said laughing
"are you sure" my mom said starting to laugh
"yeah I am positive" I said between laughs my mom all of a sudden stopped laughing and looked serious
"I need to talk to you about something serious" my mom said looking me in the eyes I started to sit up when I was up all the way "yeah mom what is it"
"I noticed that something has been off with you lately" my mom said
I looked at my mom confused "what do you mean mom" I said
"I don't know I just feel like something is different with you like you are not your usual self" my mom said
"I still am confused mom" I said
"It is kind of like how you were off a couple of years ago" my mom said
"Mom I was 'off' a couple of years ago because of what happened with Liv" I said
"well yeah but I want you to know that you can always talk to me" my mom said
"ok mom I will remember that for when I am sad" I said well looking her in the eyes
"ok that means a lot how about you come done stairs and have something to eat you are getting to thin" my mom said
I looked at my mom with a confused face "what do you mean to thin mom" I said
"you just look thinner then you used too" my mom said
"well mom sorry to break it to you but it is called a working out" I said
"when have you worked out" my mom asked me
"well for your information I work out for soccer and I work out at pack training which isn't pack training for some reason" I told my mom
my mom looked at me confused for a split second and then went back to normal "well I shall leave so you can get ready" my mom said and got up and left my room and closed the door ingot up went to my closet and grabbed black leggings and a oversized sweatshirt and undergarments and changed I grabbed the ring and put it on and the necklace when I had that on I went to one of the other drawers and got out a pair of socks that are somehow matching and I don't know how when I was done putting the socks on I started to head out of my closet only to run into something like a wall but last time I checked there was no wall where the door was supposed to be I was waiting for the impact of my fall but it never came I opened my eyes to be met by Xavier's eyes
"You know you can let go of my right" I told him he just looked at me like I was wired
"I rather not" he said and pulled me closer to him when he did the I lost my balance and feel on him I thought he would fall down but he just stayed in the same spot which made me confused and I think he sensed that
"you do know that you are not that heave right" Xavier said I looked at him confused
"How much do you weigh?" he asked
"100 pounds" I said not that confident I don't normally tell people how much I weigh and I don't know why I don't Xavier its like I trust him so much but I don't really know why its not like I remember him from my childhood
"see I told you, you don't weigh much" he said moving my head up to look him in the eyes
"my mom want me down stairs right now so you need to let go so we can go down the stairs you or you can go to your room" I told him he just sighed and was about to let go of me but then stopped and leaned down and kissed me and I kissed him back he asked for entrance which I denied at first but soon gave him access we fought for dominance he won but I didn't give up with out a fight one of his hands are on my cheek and the other still on my waist we separated to ketch are breaths
"that was amazing" Xavier whispered near my ear which made me shiver all I could do was nod he let me go completely now and I missed his warmth immediately and I went to the mirror to see if my lips were swollen but luckily they weren't I then grabbed my Chapstick and put it on my lips and turned around
"you know I didn't know you closet was this big and neat" Xavier said
"you know this isn't the full thing I could show you the rest either later or another day" I said my parents gave me the biggest closest out of Zack and me they also added on to it so it is actual the biggest in the house. we then left my closet I went to my night stand and grabbed my phone and I headed down the stairs Xavier waited a minute and then followed
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