Born to be a wolf.

I just dont want to go on.

He looked so small and fragile lying in that white bed with tubes going everywhere. “Daddy?” I cried quietly, he looks over at me and smiles weakly. “Hey there’s my butterfly, I'm so sorry sweetheart.” I openly cried as I got up on the bed with him and snuggled against his chest, I laid there for hours while he quietly sang to me. But as the night came so did my hunger to meat. “When did that happen?” he asked with a laugh. “What can I say camp has changed me. There is something that I want to tell you but its going to sound crazy but you know me dad and I wouldn’t ever lie to you so I need you to believe me.” “Selena, you know I always do believe you.” I took a deep breath and braced myself to tell him everything. I was crying again by the end but I needed him to know, to still love me. “Whether you turn or not I will always love you Selena, you are my greatest creation and I can leave this world knowing that you’re going to be fine no matter what life throws at you. Just remember where you came from and know I am always and forever with you my butterfly.” I fell asleep in his arms just like when I was a child but he never woke up, he had died sometime during the night with a smile on his lips and me in his arms. I felt shattered, like nothing else mattered anymore. I had a funeral set for 3 days time then returned to camp. I blocked everything out until I got back to camp; Louise was waiting when I returned. “Selena you didn’t need to come back.” She said lovingly. “I couldn’t stay in a city where he is being mourned by everyone at least here if I can’t handle it then I can hide away in my cabin but he wanted me here and really this is the best place for me right now.” “Well your cabin hasn’t been touch and everyone is already at today’s active so stay in and relax, dinner at 6 if you want to join.” She said as she turned to leave. “Louise, thank you. Thank you for caring and giving me space without all the questions. Just thank you.” She came back and cupped my cheek softly. “I am always here if you need me ok, it’s my job yes but your one of my favourites and I know I shouldn’t have any but I do. Rest sweetheart, tomorrow will be better I promise.” Then she left again, as I was nearing my cabin I saw Abel and Elijah sitting together outside their cabin but I didn’t even look up at them, I just went inside and closed the door. I just my headset on and climbed into bed, crying silently into my pillow and wishing tomorrow night wouldn’t come. I don’t know how but I felt him before he came thru my window, it was Abel and he was worried about me I could smell it in the air. “Selena? Are you ok?” “Why are you here?” I whispered. “Elijah has been sent up the mountain to drop off the lunches with a counsellor so it’s just us here.” “Lock the window and close the curtains please.” I asked as I lifted the blanket behind me for him to jump in which he did, it wasn’t s****l at all he just held me while I cried. He didn’t ask any questions, he was just silent the entire time. “My dad died.” I whispered after a while. “I'm really sorry Selena, I lost my dad 5 years ago now but that lose.” He said but never finished. “He was my whole world, we did everything together and right now I need him, more than ever.” “Because you’re a wolf?” I froze on the spot; I knew Elijah’s whole family were hunters. “Selena, I was bitten 3 years ago and I haven’t turned since the 8th full moon. There is hope, I can help you.” “I’ve slept with your brother, he cares for me.” I said honestly but Abel already knew. “How? There’s no way that he told you.” I said nervously. “I know my brother very well, he has a tell when he likes a girl and he was laying it on thick with you so it wasn’t hard to piece together. He was the boyfriend you spoke of the first time we really met?” “Well you already know the answer to that so there’s no point in denying it, is there? I won’t hurt your brother ok, that’s not who I am.” “I don’t want to hurt him either but I won’t deny what I want just to make him happy. I will fight for you Selena, there is a place near here that I can add a new set of chains if you want. That way you won’t escape, and hurt anyone.” “Yes please, is it going to hurt?” I said softly but I already knew the answer but I needed to know how honest he would be with me. “The pain is like nothing you have or will ever feel, it starts in your head then quickly spreads thru out your entire body. I thought I would die from the pain at first but the next night it’s a little easier.” Well like Elijah he was honest with me, maybe a little more than I would have liked but at least now I knew the truth and what to expect. We stayed curled up in my bed until Abel heard the quad bike coming back; he got up and straightened himself up before kissing my cheek and leaving. I relocked my window and climbed back into bed and thought about everything happened and how this summer camp had changed my life forever. I came out for dinner and saw all the girls trying to get Abels and Elijah’s attention so I got a plate of food and went back to my cabin, I didn’t need to see their little attempts and honestly it annoyed me but I wasn’t sure for which brother I was annoyed about. I watched the sun come and go from the sky, the pull I felt the pull of the full moon isn’t something I can’t describe.