The Widower's Secret

Four Days before... Andrew Why do you always have to be such a b***h? I yell at Elizabeth. She yells back, Why do you always have to be so f*****g rude and sarcastic? I am so tired of this! I can't do this anymore! She yells at me. When you come back, don't come here. I am so over this! I refuse to let my kids see this anymore. Your parents fought and beat on each other in front of you boys all the time, and I refuse to live like them! What the hell are you talking about? I've never hit you! I yell back, knowing what she is referring too. I just want to make her mad.  I have loved her since I was 19, but on my last conference six months ago, I screwed up! I went out with some of the guys at the convention, and got a little too drunk. A couple of women came up to me and asked if I wanted to have a three some. I had never had one before and always dreamed about it. Joking around with Elizabeth about it for years. We went back to my hotel room and of course I didn't have condoms, but I hadn't needed them since our youngest was born 9 years ago and Elizabeth had a tubal and my wife was not with me. The next thing I know, a month later I'm getting a call from one of the girls, swearing that I got her pregnant, and if I didn't pay her child support, she was going to sue me. I begged her for a paternity test, and told her my lawyer would be in contact. My biggest fear is that Elizabeth would find out, or my kids. How was I going to explain, that after 18 years of marriage, 20 years together, I stepped out? My life was falling apart, so I kept picking fights, hoping she would kick me out. Elizabeth He is leaving again? He just left six months ago. It's not very common that his conferences are in the same location this close to each other. Usually if they are this close they are in different locations. This seems very odd to me. He has been constantly picking fights with me. I overheard a conversation with him on the phone a couple weeks ago. Our lawyer, even accidently called my phone one time, not to mention large amounts from the Business account being transferred out monthly for the last five months. I know he is cheating on me. I just can't prove it. One time I even tried to look at his phone when he was in the shower. Nothing! Not to mention we haven't has s*x in months, which is not exactly common for us. We usually have s*x multiple times a week.  When I tell him not to come back, I swear I saw a tear roll down his cheek, this isn't normal either. Usually when I tell him not to come home, he laughs and says, "it's my house too!" I feel like I have been punched in the gut. The last thing I do is take off my ring and stick it on top of the suitcase he is packing. I look at him, with tears in my eyes, and tell him, I'm done! Then I walk to each room to check on our three kids. Elaine is 17 and a Senior in High School, Matthew is 14 and a Freshman, and Skylar is 9 and in the fourth grade. They were all asleep, thank god! I grabbed a blanket and went to sleep on the couch.