My First Love

"Have you ever fall in love?" I asked her, the suddenly she look me straight in the eyes with a glimpse of tears in it, she smile, and that smile that reminds me of my first love. 5 years ago I woke from my sleep, and decided to get myself ready because this was my first day in college, actually I'm not excited at all cause I'm an introvert and that really sucks, meeting new people was not really my thing, and I don't know how to survive every single day until I graduated. ~ in school ~ *Student chatting every where Geez okay Kyle let's be patient you can survive this whole year, I tried to calm myself while walking on the corridor until I get in my classroom, I go straight to the vacant seat at the back hoping that no one will seat beside me. "Hi, is this seat still available?" 'Fudge' I exclaimed to myself silently, " yes " I answered smiling to the person who wanted seat beside me, " Hi I'm Gel " the person beside spoke, and I smile at her not because she pretty, no! yes she's pretty. " Ahmm I'm Kyle, nice to meet you" I answered giving her my sweetest smile geeeez. As days goes by me and Gel became good friends, she a type of person who's caring and loving I can say, and every day have pass, I'm falling for her, when I'm with her I discover lot of things about myself more, she's kind and very understanding person, this is the first time I felt this kind of emotion with someone. " Kyle, do you hate goodbyes?" she ask suddenly, " Ahmm I'm not sure, but why sudden aks?", " I hate goodbyes, I hate when people leave, it's okay for me if someone leave me in sudden, at least I know that there still hope, it means it's not the end. " Our graduation day come, I decided that I will confess my feelings for her on our special day. I just want to tell her I appreciate every effort she does and she's important for me. Until the moment of our graduation come,she didn't attend on our ceremony. I tried to send her messages and call her but she didn't reply. I decided to go to their house but her brother told me that Gel decided to lived with her parents in Japan, I can't believe she will left without goodbye, and yes I remember she hate goodbyes. As years pass by I continue to live my life, still no contact with Gel, she doesn't have any social media accounts to be in touch with her. I work hard and sometimes it take my own health at risk, until the saddest point of my life come, I was diagnosed with stage 3 leukemia, but this doesn't stop me on living my life. I decided to travel abroad except Japan cause I don't want to meet Gel in an instance there, and yes I spend the rest of my life living with my dreams. - Present - I bought dozen of sunflowers Kyle's favorite flowers, I drive until I come where Kyle is, I search for her name " Kylene Cruz, ow there you are " I put the sunflowers on her grave and sit for a moment reminiscing her last moment with me. Flashbacks "Have you ever fall in love?" I asked her, the suddenly she look me straight in the eyes with a glimpse of tears in it, she smile, and that smile that reminds me of my first love. I'm glad I still have a chance to talk with her even in this last moment, she get back to lean on my shoulder, I can see in her face that she really want to rest, but I still keep holding her hands. The things that I really wanted to do way back in college, I hug her all of the sudden, the embrace I wanted her to feel if I'm given a chance to say goodbye on her, the day on our graduation I told my parents that I'm in love with Kyle, and they not allowed it, they decided to bring me in Japan to be far from Kyle, I love Kyle but I love my parents as well, that's why I choose to be with them. But even though years have pass heart never forget, it took me five years to have enough courage to tell my parents that my love for Kyle was still in my heart. " I'm sorry if I'm late" I said to her and she try to smiles holding her tears, " I'm sorry if I don't try to find you " she answered, in that moment my tears betrayed me. " You still hate goodbyes?" Kyle ask, " Yes " I answered with a c***k voice, " I'm glad to meet a person like you Angelica " she said with a grip on my hand, and suddenly that's strong grip loose slowly, and that's made me hug her tightly, knowing that she rest forever.