You're My Star

HEY I am Drishya, Lemme introduce my self  I am somebody who doesn't get attached too easily. It takes me more than just a few dates to start opening up to someone and letting them in. I've always struggled with trusting people. I weigh the pros and cons a little too much before sharing a part of myself to them. So, once I let someone in, I go through hell if it ever comes to letting them go. I feel abandoned even when I am the one who let them go because as much as they were toxic for me, my heart would keep reminding me of the momentary comfort and the feeling of being safe they make me feel everytime they held me. This is the reason why I have a fear of falling in love with someone. Everytime when I see people so in love I question to myself, how and why do people fall in love. My life was boring yet interesting, a basic average kid who was somehow satisfied with his grades. I turned 17 this year, every friend of mine had a social media account and here I was not having one. Since my childhood I never liked socialising with people neither did I like my parents posting my pictures without my consent but I did not want to hurt them by saying to remove all of my pictures they've posted. So, here's a benefit of not having a social media account: I could not see pictures of mine being posted through my parents account and this way it didn't hurt both of us. A friend of mine always suggested that I own a social media account, but I never felt like having one.