Chasing Time

I am always having this dream... I am sitting on a chair under a really huge tree while leaves are starting to fall. I know I am dreaming because the place is so bright. I realize I am holding something in my right hand and when I looked at it, it was a white handkerchief. There were initials embroidered on it, A.L. & M.L. I'm trying to figure out what those initials are meant to. But just like that, everything is gone and the scenery has changed in my dream. I wasn't sitting on the chair under the tree anymore. I am now standing in the middle of a huge unknown road. The bright surrounding I once had became dark and foggy. It seems that my dream is turning into a nightmare! Not again! I am breathing heavily while walking on this endless road. I am started to think that I have died while sleeping and this is not a dream anymore! Oh no! I don't want to die early! I need to wake up! Wake up! As I struggle trying to wake up my self in my dream I saw in a distance blinking red light on the foggy road. Is that the end of the road? There is one way to figure it out. I walked towards the blinking red light and when I got there, I saw that there's a car that has been flipped down. It seems like there's been an accident on that part of the road. "Hello? Is there anyone here?" I kneeled down to see if someone is inside when a bloody hand grabbed my wrist tightly and shouted "Help me! Please! Save us!" To my shock, I shove the bloody hand and back out. I am about to stand up when the hand grabbed my ankle and crawl towards me while facing the ground. I wanted to shout but I can't find my voice! "Please help me!" As she tilts her head up to look up at me, I am stunned into what I see... She is .. me? WHAT THE HECK?! I rise up in my bed screaming hysterically. "Cassandra!" my Mom's head pop out in the wooden floor of my attic room. I almost jumped out of my bed in terror! She's wearing her facial mask at that moment. "Mom! You scared me!" I said to her while holding my chest. "You are the one that scared me, screaming in the middle of the night! And why you are still sleeping in the attic?" I don't want to sleep in my bed. That is why I am sleeping in the attic room above my room. "I just feel comfortable sleeping here." "Are you still having a nightmare?" my Mom climbed up into the attic and sit down beside me. "It is just the same nightmare I told you before, but this time, it is more horrifying!" I told her. I saw a glimpse of sadness in her expression but I don't know what for? "Did you have a headache?" she pats my hair when she asked me that. "No," I answered. "I am fine." "Okay, I will get back to sleep. Just call me if you need something, Okay?" "Yes, Mommy. Sorry, I disturbed your sleep again." "It's okay. I love you." she kissed my forehead and climbed down the attic to my room. I sigh as I lay down to my bed. What the heck that nightmare is all about? I closed my eye hoping to have a nice dream but then I felt an unusual ache in my heart that I can't explain. It is like the pain of losing something you can't even understand. What happened to me?