♡CONSTANT LOVE♡

JONATHAN Pov 3

I don't know when I fell asleep yesterday. I kept thinking of everything that happened from the ending of mine and Lesede's friendship to me ending up in hospital. When she left yesterday I thought of how scared she was of me, the way she looked at me and trying to explain the reasons for her presence in my ward. I felt a stabbing in my heart knowing I had put that fear in her after everything we've been through together over the year. How do I rebuild the trust and friendship I through away for the love that was one sided. Maybe if I call her and ask for forgiveness. But how when I still can't get her to even look in my eyes without seeing or remembering what I did and said to her in anger. Gad was Lisa even pregnant was it even mine, these are the things that never crossed my mind at that time. Did Lesede know something I didn't about Lisa because the man I saw Lisa with the other night was at the party that night but I thought he came with someone esle. How do I solve these problems without talking to Lisa, she owes me atlist some explanation. My phone rang and I looked for it but luckly it was in one of the drawers.

"Hello Jonathan Andrews" thats how I've always answered my phone. "Hi Mr Andrews, we spoke the other day about the purchase house there are some papers we neglected to sign before we finalize everything". Damn how did I became so stupid at to not see how Lisa was playing me all this time. "I'm sorry for the inconvenience on my part but I with have to withdraw from the deal because of the unforseen problems hope you will understand". I said hoping the were other people who wanted the house. "No problem Mr Andrews hope the problem will be solved soon, have a nice day". We ended the call and I went to the bathroom found a new toiletries and a clean towel. When I got out I thanked the nurse for the stuff but she told me Lesede brought them with yesterday. Gad the guilt came back again how did I through Lesede away for Lisa. I need to come up with a plan to get Lesede back even if I have to kneel for her to come back to me.

I dozed off for few hours before I heard a commotion at the door and saw my family enter. My mom came and gave me a hug "atlist she didn't kill, I can still see those beautiful hazel eyes of yours and this time they have love and guilt instead of anger like before". She said before letting go of me. I felt even guiltier after her statement and I couldn't look her in the eyes. Dad didn't say anything and left everything to the other members of the family. I can't look him in the eyes either after what I said before I broke away from my family. Mom rubbed my feet, fed me and talked about all the things that happened over the two years. "Where's Lesede, shouldn't she be here by now". Mom asked looking at my cousin who just shrugged her shoulders. Dad looked at me for an explanation but I gave no, I was to ashamed to say anything. But trust my cousin to do so on my behalf. "They no longer speak uncle, he chose Lisa over her. I mean he slapped and cursed out of his party two years ago infront of everyone. She didn't want you all to know since you friends with her parents. The only reason she comes to the house is because she knew you all don't speak and me ofcouse". "What?". My mom was so mad that she left the room but not before telling me she wad disappointed in me. Dad left to without even a glance at my direction telling others he'll be in the car. They left one by one and I was left with my grandparents.

"You know I've made a lot of mistake before I finally married your grangma, you have to open your eyes to whats in front of you to know exactly what you are missing. That girl loves and has always did. She followed you everywhere even move out here for you. The love that you have been looking for all this time was always right infront of you. Go get her son, you've hurt her so it is not going to be easy to get her back but I know you will because she loves you still. She came here to see you didn't she? Eve after everything that has happened, but first heal your heart and close the chapter you in so you can heal her and just marry her already no stalling after you have her back". Grandma winks at me and kisses my forehead. "There are no cowards in the Andrews family please don't be one, oh you have six months to do everything. Its our anniversary on November 10th and you going to propose to her on that day no excuses. Damn this boy how long do I have to wait for my greatgrandson". I was left alone in the ward thinking of what grandpa said. Was I that blind to her love for me all this time, and it came to me she left her diary at my place and never came back for it when she move out. I found it behind the trashbin in her room. Would it be wrong to read it without her permission, but she threw it away and am sure she has a new one. Aaarg I dont know what to do anymore but I know I want her back in my life whether as a friend of girlfriend.