♡CONSTANT LOVE♡

LESEDE pov 7

I have been busy with my business lately, I have been getting orders everywhere from platters to sweet stuff. It took me a lot to get me where I am today and I love what I do. At first all I wanted to do was to make sure that Jon's carreer was on track and that he was happy. I thought after going out with so many women he will finally notice me but I was wrong. Dont get me wrong I still love him deeply but I will never get my hopes up where his concern. I can't give myself to someone I don't. He proved it to me when he told everyone my secrets and gave up on his family for Lisa. I know you have to fight for love but I believe that love is supposed to bring people together not break break them up especially family. I watched him date, helped him with girls and even helped with his career. I thought our friendship meant something to him as much as it did to me but I was wrong. I will always his back no matter what.

I've been sitting with a client in a coffee shop about a reading party of twenty-five poeple, apparently a bride, groom and their bridesmaids and groomsmen wanting to know their future. " The bride is into anything chocolate, the fewer the meat dishes the better she loves fish and lots of wine please". I was taking notes and whe I saw Jonathan walking in but he didn't see me because I was sitting in a corner. "Your ora has changed from last time I saw you. Can I see your hands". I did as my client did even though I hate for her to get personal and reading my palm is as personal as it can be. "I see you have been hurt, but things are clearing up and cupid's arrow is pounting right at you. Just clear your mind, heart and soul of your past pain and give love a chance. Sometimes fate plays a trick on us buf eventually we get what was destined for us. Trust your heart and just know forgiving someone doesn't mean you should forget but don't hold it over their head. Your have built your wall up so high that you didn't just lock out the pain but you also locked it in. Love is coming to your door breack down your walls so you can see it coming and not miss it". I was crying by the time she finished. Thank you was all I could say. She left and I was sitting there thinking about what she said when I was getting ready to leave I heard a commotion and turned to see Lisa with the guy she has been two timing Jon with and Jon was sitting taking their blabbering which sounded like she wasn't sorry for being cought at all. I was going to leave because it had nothing to do with me but I couldn't let him be hurt knowing how much he loved/ loves her. I went the and bailed him out as if he was waiting for me. When we left the coffee shop I checked if they could still see us and when I saw we were clear I said my goodbye left him there. I forgave him I'm just not ready to trust him again, it took a while for me to be ok without him I can't afford to fall apart again.