Scarred obsession

Chapter 9: Scars

.......3 days later..........

I was finishing working on one of our SUV's when Jonah walked in the shop, he had been in meetings all day with Hudson and Stella. I looked over at my mate who sat down in one of the chairs near the office, he looked annoyed. I walked into the back room and peeled off the navy jumpsuit and grey shirt before pulling on a regular black tee and jean shorts. I walked to the back of the room and cleaned my hands with some Gojo, a special soap that gets off oil and other fluids. I quickly brushed my hair before pulling on my hat and making my way out to Jonah, he was talking to Corey, a wolf who always had a thing for him.

"So do you wanna hang out later?" She said seductively. 

"No." He said flatly. I walked over and stood beside him, Corey ignored my presence, as per usual.

"Hey Cor." I said taking Jonah's hand. Her grey eyes flashed in anger before she fixed herself. She stood at her full height, 5 ft 8, her bleach blonde hair was loosely hanging down her back. Her scraps of clothing showed off her brick like body, her size A breasts were only covered by her shirt so you could see her n*****s standing at attention.

"Reya, how have you been?" She asked with fake sweetness. 

"I can't complain. I mean I found my mate." I said with enthusiasm. 

"That's great Reya! I'm so happy for you." Her fake excitement made me want to gag.

"I'm sure you'll find your mate soon too!" I said with a smile, she flashed me a very non-convincing fake one.

"Not that I don't love girl chat, but I want to go home, and start our movie marathon." Jonah said forcing his hand from mine, then wrapping it around my shoulder.

"Wait, Jonah is your mate?" Corey said in confusion.

"Yeah. He's purrfect." I purred making him chuckle.

"Come on kitten, lets go." Jonah picked me up in his arms and carried me bridal style to the bike, we put on our helmets and climbed on. I wrapped my arms around him tightly and purred as the engine roared to life, Jonah took off and I enjoyed the five minute drive home. We pulled up to the house and climbed off the bike, I took Jo's helmet and walked in the house as he covered the perfect machine. I set the helmets on their shelf in our entry way and kicked off my shoes. I made my way to the bedroom and grabbed some clothes, then I took a quick shower, washing away the days sweat. When I was done I pulled on my underwear and one of Jonah's monster shirts and went down to the kitchen. 

The day after the small bbq, Jo and I moved my stuff over to our home and I got settled. Now his house looked like Our house. I gave him the souvenirs from Seattle, he growled at the puppy sticker and threw it in the trash, then I gave him the key-chain and he purred, surprising himself. I laughed and called him Kitten for the rest of the night. The few days after that we just a lot of meetings Jonah had to attend as Hudson was introduced as the new Alpha. Jonah and I hadn't completed the mate bond, and it was getting harder and harder to restrain myself. I knew we needed to, but he hadn't yet seen my scars, and I was terrified of what he would say when he saw them for the first time.

I was lost in thought making popcorn as Jo came up behind me. He kissed my cheek softly, then went to the living room and put in the first movie. We were having a Fast and Furious marathon, for the next few days. When I was younger I had a crush on Paul Walker (RIP) :(  , thanks to these movies. I liked the way he looked at the cars. When the popcorn was done I put it in a bowl and carried it out to the couch where Jonah was waiting for me. He was laying with his back on the arm rest, his head was resting on the back cushion, one leg was hanging off the side while the other rested on the couch. I plopped down between his thighs, my back was facing the couch back, I curled into his chest and he lifted his falling leg onto the couch. 

"Are you comfy?" I asked him.

"I'm always comfortable when I have you kitten." He said sweetly kissing my temple. One of his hands rested on my leg, the other was rubbing circles on my back. 

"Hey kitten." Jo said quietly. I looked up at him.

"Hmm?"

"Do you mind if I take my shirt off, I'm kinda hot." He said taking his hand from my back and rubbing the back of his neck shyly. In response I leaned forward and tugged the bottom hem of his shirt. He pulled it off and I curled back up into his muscular chest, his chest and abdomen were perfect, his skin was pale and had a few tattoos on it, other than that he was unmarked. I ran my hand over the one of the wolf. His body shivered under my light touch and I smirked. My hand moved closer to my body, to his ribs and I traced the words he had there. 

"Through pain I shall be strong, through fear I will be brave, through the unrelenting storm I shall fight for the light. I am a warrior and I shall live as one. I will love fiercely and I will protect those who I love. I will die for my pack, my family, my mate." 

On impulse I kissed the word mate, Jonah tensed a bit but relaxed after a second, his hand went back to rubbing my back. I sighed and reached up to the side of Jo's neck where the angel wing from his arm tattoo reached. I felt him grow beneath my body and I felt myself get wet, I became embarrassed at the new sensation and my heart rate increased.

"Don't be embarrassed Kitten, it's a natural thing that happens." Jonah sighed into my head. I took a few deep breaths to calm myself, using his scent.

(Show him. Show him our marks.)

What?!

(He will see them eventually. I want him to see them.)

Venus, what if he is repulsed by them?

(He will be repulsed by the monster who made them, not at our body. Show him!)

Venus. I....I'm scared. 

(I know, which is why you need to show him. Let him take the fear, let him heal parts of us that are broken.)

Some of it cant be healed, Ve

(No some of it can't. But some of it can which is more important.) Venus cut the link before I could respond. I sighed and looked up at my mate who was focused on the screen. I took a few deep breaths, i felt him look down at me in confusion. I met his eyes and gave him a small smile, not hesitating any longer I pulled the shirt from my body. I looked down at the scars that covered my abdomen and lower chest, Jonah took in a sharp breath and growled lowly. 

"Now you see it all." I whispered still looking down. His fingers lifted my chin, he made my eyes meet his.

"Now I get to love it all." He whispered back. He leaned down and crashed his lips to mine. One hand went to my neck the other spun my body, so my bare chest was flush against his. I let out a moan as his finger twirled in my hair. After making out for a bit, Jonah layed me down on the couch. My legs were around his hips and my back was on the seat cushions. He stood up and turned off the TV and flipped on the light, I started reaching for my shirt, but Jo came back and pushed me back down on the cushions. He crawled between my thighs and kissed my lips lightly before he moved his gaze to my scarred torso. I closed my eyes, I didn't want to see the pity that would no-doubt cross his face. I felt his large hand gently trace a few of the marks and I opened my eyes and looked up at him. By this time he was hovering over the largest scar, I felt his soft lips place a butterfly kiss on it. I felt a tear roll down my face, of all the things he could have done, I was expecting this the least. I felt the couch move as Jonah put a hand by my right ear. I felt his lips catch my tear, I put my arms around his neck and let more of them fall.

His arms wrapped around me and his hand went to my back, he felt the scars there and growled again. I put my face in the nape of his neck and waited for the tears to stop spilling from my eyes. When they did I pulled myself back and looked into his captivating blue eyes.

"How did I get so lucky to have you as my mate?" I asked seriously.

"I think that would be because the moon-goddess knows how to choose mates." He said. "Or maybe she lets us choose." He mumbled as he kissed my forehead.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"I think if a wolf feels strongly enough for another, she lets them be mates. I have been crazy about you for a long time Reya. Do remember the day I shifted for the first time?" 

"Kind of, you came to our house and woke us all up with your yipping." I said smiling at the memory.

"I went there for you, when you guys came outside to see me, all I wanted to do was take you for a run. But you looked exhausted and pissed at the same time. Do you remember what you said to me?"

"Stavo dormendo testa di cazzo. (I was sleeping d**k head)" I replied.

"I went home and looked up what it meant after I went for my first run with Maddox. I remember laughing so hard I cried, if your parents knew what you had said, I'm pretty sure you would have been grounded." He chuckled. "Back to my point, I knew that day that I wanted to be with you forever. As more than friends, I have driven myself insane praying to the moon-goddess for you to be mine. The day I came home, Maddox was going ballistic in my head, then I saw your back-side as you ran into the woods, it was at that moment I knew my prayers were answered Kitten."

"Sarei perso senza di te." I said looking into his eyes.

"What does it mean?" Jonah asked softly.

"I would be lost without you." I said back. His lips crashed into mine and he held me tightly. He pulled his lips from mine and he gave me an embarrassed smile.

"If you ever meet any of the guys I trained with they are gonna tell you stories Kitten. I don't want you to be too surprised so I think I should tell you." 

"Go on..." I said slowly.

"Like I said I have been crazy about you for a long time, and that did not change while I was training. There were days when all someone would say was the word ray and I would perk up and start talking about you. One day in the middle of a sparring match a new wolf was being introduced. They said she was a spitfire with a bad attitude and that she went by Ray. I got so excited, because I thought it was you, then a tall woman with dark skin walked into the sparring circle and I snarled in disappointment. From that day on, everyone started calling you my obsession."

"I'm your scarred obsession."

"You are my perfect soul mate and deepest obsession, who happens to have a few marks to prove how strong you are." He said, he put his lips on mine and bit my bottom lip, I sighed and he slipped his tongue in my mouth, he pulled me into him so hard I thought I might stop breathing. He loosened his grip and pulled his lips from mine once again. This time he stood up and pulled me up to my feet.

"I want to see it all."