Scarred obsession

Chapter 8: Acceptance

I was crying silently on his chest after his confession. He didn't reject me, he still wanted me.

(He loves us anyway.) Venus yipped.

"Are you sure Jonah. I want you to have everything." I said after a bit.

"I'm 100% sure kitten. I could never want anyone else." I closed my eyes as the tears dried up. I felt my stomach rumble, seeing as I hadn't eaten in a few days. "Will you please eat?" I yawned and nodded. I felt my body get lifted and Jonah carried me to the food he had brought me. I looked at my options and grabbed the apple. I ate the apple quickly, then I grabbed the mint cliff bar. I became full halfway through the bar. I handed it to Jonah, who finished it. I let the sound of his heartbeat and the calming scent put me to sleep.

.............Jonah POV.................

My kitten has gone through so much s**t, and now she had to deal with the pain of losing the children she wanted. I knew there were options, but I also knew she wanted the whole experience. After I had found her, I had Hudson bring us some of her favorite foods, he wanted to stay, I told him it would be better to only have to deal with one overbearing male. He left when she had begun to stir, I was starting to lose my hope when she said she wouldn't love me or anyone like me. Then she sobbed and I knew she was lying, she was trying to push me away.

My kitten fell asleep on my my chest after I finally got her to eat. I held her close for a while before I carried her from the cave, her breath ticked my neck as I walked her to my newly finished home. The exterior of it was like a log cabin, the inside however was nothing of the sort. As soon as you entered the front door you were in a small entry way. I kicked off my shoes carefully and turned to the left finding the stairs, I walked up and walked into the master bedroom. The master bed and bath were the only two rooms that made up the second floor. I set Reya in the large bed on the left side and covered her with red and black plaid comforter. I sighed and went to my dark wooden dresser, it was up to my waist and had four small drawers lining the top and four larger drawers on the bottom. I pulled out a random pair of trunks and went into the bathroom. I took a quick shower before Hudson came over to check on Reya, I walked back into the bedroom and put on a random shirt and pair of shorts. Just in case she woke up I put a shirt and shorts on the foot of the bed and closed the door on my way out. I made my way down the stairs and took a right entering the kitchen. I pulled some chicken from the drawer and slathered bbq sauce all over it. Then I took it out on the back porch and placed it on the grill. I heard Hudson and his mate Stella talking on the way to the front door, so i made my way through the kitchen and past the living room before opening the front door. 

"How is she Jonah?" Hudson asked as he walked in.

"She's sleeping." I said as I closed the door behind them. Hudson and Stella took off their shoes and followed me to the back deck.

"What happened?" Hudson asked as soon as we were clear of the kitchen.

"Only Rey can tell you." 

"I told you about Ryan." He growled. 

"Because Queen Tempest asked, not me."

"Can you give us a hint?" Stella asked.

"No." I turned my attention to the grill and the chicken I was cooking as they tried to get it out of me. "Stop." I snarled at them. "Rey will tell you when she is ready, you will not know before then." I heard Hudson huff, but he knew I was right. 

...........Reya POV...............

I woke up in a very comfortable bed, it smelled like Jonah. I rubbed my eyes and sat up, my eyes found an alarm clock on the other side of the bed. Apparently it was 5:16pm I looked around and saw a shirt and pair of shorts at the foot of the bed. I also saw a glorious looking bathroom on the right side of the room, I grabbed the clothes and walked in, there was a dark emperador marble sink counter top with a large mirror with a dark wooden frame. At the end sat the toilet and the toilet paper holder, the floor was brazilian walnut just like the bedroom, the shower was fantastic, instead of a shower head the water fell from the top, like the rain. The sides of the shower looked like stone, which gave it a natural kind of feel, the bathtub was behind the shower, there was a large glass window looking at the trees. The bathtub was in the floor, so no-one had to climb over the side to get it. I purred at my mates bathroom. I eventually took a shower using whatever Jonah had and dried off using a dark grey towel I had found in the long cabinet near the bathtub. 

I put on the clothes and realized I would need underwear. I walked over to the mirror and saw how pale I looked, my eyes were still red and puffy from crying, and my brown waves were now, brown snarls. It took me twenty minutes to brush out my whole head, I found a spare toothbrush and brushed my teeth before walking back into the bedroom in Jonah's very large shirt. The black fabric brushed my knees, I spotted a dressed and put on a pair of Jo's briefs then opened the bedroom door. I found myself looking down at stairs, I walked down them slowly listening for any noise when I heard the familiar voices of Jo and Hudson. I couldn't make out what they were saying though, I followed the voices taking a right off the stairs and landing in the kitchen, I walked through it and saw the two guys and Stella. I walked out onto the deck and was instantly engulfed in Hudson's embrace.

"Are you okay?" he asked as I hugged him back.

"Honestly no" I replied.

"How can I help?"

"There is no help Hudson, I just need time." I sighed and let go of him. Stella walked over and took his arm, her red curls were bouncing on her pale freckled skin. Her pale brown eyes were kind as she smiled at me she was taller than me, 5 ft 5, her skin was flawless and her stomach had no scars, she could have pups. I looked at the ground as tears threatened to spill. 

I hadn't noticed Jonah come up behind me, he spun my tiny body to face him and he pulled me flush against his massiveness. I layed my head in his chest as silent tears left my eyes, he kissed the top of my head and just held me. Too soon he was gone again, back at the grill. For the first time since I was fifteen I took him, all of him in. He was really tall 6 ft 5, over a foot taller than me, his biceps looked like they wanted to rip his shirt. His arms were tattooed, almost none of his perfect pale beige skin was showing. His brownish-black hair reminded me of Bradley Cooper, just they way it was styled. He had small black earrings in his newly pierced ears, his rectangular jaw was chiseled and looked sharp enough to cut diamonds. His deepset upturned eyes were the same dark blue I remembered them to be. Feeling my lingering gaze he looked over at me. I was about to walk over to him when I was pulled against another body.

"Don't you ever scare me like that again young lady!" Lani scolded. "When you have pups you'll understand." she mumbled. I felt all the pain come back and I pulled myself from Christians arms and ran up to Jonah's bedroom, I closed the door and climbed into the bed gabbing a pillow and sobbed into it. A few second later I was being held tightly, fireworks erupted under my skin where we touched. Jonah just held me while I wept, I heard someone else enter the room, but I just kept bawling.

"Reya, I'm sorry honey I didn't mean to upset you." Lani said crawling onto the bed and holding my hand. I stopped crying after a while and just stared off into space. I felt tingles on my forehead as Jonah kissed me softly, I looked up at him and he gave me a sad smile. I closed my eyes and leaned my forehead against his.

(Jonah: I can always bring your food up here.)

(Reya: I have to tell them Jonah, but I don't know if I can.)

(Jonah: You don't need to tell them until you are ready to Kitten.)

(Reya: I don't think I'll ever be ready Jo)

(Jonah: I just don't want you to rush it kitten. I want you to be as comfortable as possible.)

(Reya: How did I get lucky enough to have you?)

(Jonah: Trust me Kitten, It only gets better from here. Wanna know why?)

(Reya: Tell me please.)

(Jonah: Because you are the only one I have deemed worthy enough to touch my hammer.) I chocked on the unexpected laugh that came out of me. Lani, let out a small chuckle as I slapped Jonah's chest. I crawled out of his lap and decided to make him beg like a puppy before talking to him again. I huffed and left the bedroom, I walked out to the back deck, where Kane, Chris, Hudson, and Stella were talking. Kane was manning the grill in Jonah's stead. They stopped talking and looked at me, I walked over and sat down in the chair next to Hudson and refused to look at Jonah as he walked onto the back deck. Jonah walked over and took the seat on my other side. I spun in my chair facing Hudson, who was looking at us questioningly.

"Papa Kane. Is the chicken almost done?" 

"Almost small wolf." He relied looking between his son and I.

"Rey? What did he do?" Christian growled.

"Who?" I said pretending Jo didn't exist,

"The i***t behind you." Kane said. I looked behind me, pretending not to see my mate.

"I don't see anyone." I said looking back at them. I heard a low growl from behind me and I was lifted from my seat and pulled onto Jonah's lap.

"What about now?" He said. I ignored him and looked down at my nails. I sighed and looked over at Kane, who was trying not to laugh no doubt at an angry Jonah. 

"Chicken is done." He said after clearing his throat. I got off of Jonah's lap and grabbed a piece of chicken and moved to a different seat, causing Jonah to growl again. Yet again I ignored him, I told him he would beg with puppy eyes for me to talk to him again. I began eating my chicken and I felt Jo's eyes burning holes in my body, but I ate like he wasn't. When I was done I took my plate to the sink inside the kitchen and washed it before setting it in the drying rack. I was making my way back out when Jonah came in, he grabbed my arm, lightly, and pulled me back to the sink. Then he lifted my small self into his arms and carried me up to the bedroom where he shut the door and locked it. He set me on the bed and growled looking into my eyes. I looked down at my nails and sighed. He cupped my chin and made my eyes meet his, I made myself look like I wasn't seeing him. Then he got down on both knees and gave me the puppy eyes. 

"That's a good boy." I said kissing his forehead.