How Can I Murder You?

DISCLAIMER: Serial killings, psychotic and brutal contents are present. Read at your own risk. "So you're telling me it's that easy, Lhua huh?" he hissed at me with full of emotions that can't be controlled by anger. "Yes! You're my older sibling! And you must protect me at all cost, no matter what the situation is! 'Wag mong kalimutan ang sinabi ni mama sa atin. How could you forget?" "But the situation is really complicated than you think it is! Use your brain sometimes! We can't stick with one advice habang buhay.." raking his hair, sighing. "You're so annoying.." "So you prioritized that freak over me now?!" I laughed. "WHAT A SHAME TO OUR FAMILY! You think you're an angel now for thinking this way huh? Changing your mindset midway? Disgusting brother! I can't believe you- siguro, ang saya ng guardian angel mo ngayon. Teka, meron ka ba?" "It's not like it Lhu- May iba naman atang paraan sa gusto mo. Basta, it isn't what you think it is" "It isn't?" I turned to him with a sweet voice. His face lightened and nodded. "Yes, it isn't" "Well.. LUCKY FOR YOU THEN! I wonder what grandpa thought of you in hell right now. You piece of s**t" I stood up and got out from that damp basement. He's such a pain in the ass right now. Since that "angel" came into our life, we completely don't understand each other as siblings. "No matter what costs you, protect and show no mercy. You must survive" what our mom told us way back when she was alive. I love my parents, so that's why I wanted to pursue what future they want for us. Kahit para sa amin man 'yan o hindi. I will grant and obey what they destined us to be. "So, what're you gonna do now Lhua? Your brother seems to cherish his treasure more than his own sister"  "I'm still thinking of a way to convince him, but all of my plans failed. Do you have any?" I asked my friend through facetime. She stopped painting and turned to me, tilting her head. "What? You looked like you have an idea there?" "I do, and I want to paint what I have in mind. Like a visual presentation or something" she raised her brush and winked. After she cleared her last project, she started to sketch something on her canvas –which I can't really see clearly because she's just light sketching- joyfully. "You seemed happy' I commented. "Yup! Because I think this is my best painting so far" glancing at me. I smiled and took a screenshot of her working. "Pretty" I whispered. "You said something?" she stopped stroking the brush and faced me.  "Oh nothing, I was just, uh- browsing the net and saw something" her eyes remained silent, not believing me. I think, she might have seen the lie. What am I thinking lying to her?  She's very keen and smart, I didn't have a single chance to escape myself through lies from her.  "Okay! I must continue this and show it to you as soon as possible. Call you later partner in crime!" waved goodbye and she ended that call. Now that I have nothing to do except from another way on how to convince my brother about my plan, I'll just watch crime scenes in youtubbe. When I was about to get drowned by my own theories about the unsolved case I found, a knock was interrupted me. I know that signal knock. "No, you're not welcome at the moment brothe-" he didn't even let me finish and let himself in my room. When he got in, a red liquid thing from his head down to his arms were dripping on my floor. "WHAT DID YOU DO TO MY PRECIOUS FLOOR! IT'S NOW STAINED!" I sprinted to my comfort room and grabbed a towel to wipe the floor. "And, by the way, what happened to you?" calmly asked him while I am busy wiping the blood on the floor. "Just punished myself with the torturing machine" wiping his shoulder. "Okay, not pleased and won't thank you for that bullshitness" stood myself up and grabbed a clean towel to wipe my floor for the second time. "Can you get yourself a towel or something? Your blood is ruining my floor" I pushed him out of my room and irritated myself more, but before I can shut my door, he held my hand and saw his face full with blood and tears. "Lhua.. sorry if I can't decide that easily this time. It's just hard" he cried. "I know it's not, just think about it. If not, I'll do it myself even if it costs one disgrace to our family" "Lhua, don't please. Think of this, what if I will kill you?" "WHAT! You can't do that! We're family, I am your love ones!" I screamed. Not believing he thought of that. "That's what I am trying to tell you" "Tell what?" "That it's not easy" "Not easy what?!" He sighed. "Lhua, if I were to choose who to kill, I might have thought of killing myself than you or the other" "I-I don't get it, Kil" I shook my head, and opened the door widely. He took a long and deep breath before he could raise is head and look straight into my eyes. "How can I murder the precious ones?" My heart just completely dropped. He made me question myself too and wondering him saying this to that person with a one precious smile. Saying, "How can I murder you?" :))