Her lost baby

Chapter nine - The truth can hurt

Nia's POV:

Kevin stopped talking to me. I don't know what is going on with him. For the past week, he hasn't called or answered my messages. I went to his university to search for him. The moment he saw me, he turned the other way. I didn't give up and went to talk to him. The only thing he said was that he was busy. That's it. He knows that I'm pregnant, but he doesn't care. I have no idea what to do. I'm still in the first month, but things will change with time. My parents are always with me, but I need him. One day, I walked to his house. I had to wait for him because he was outside. He wasn't happy to see me. Kevin tried to break up with me, but I didn't let him. According to him, it's better if I stay away from him. Something is going on with him. When we started dating, things weren't like that. He cared about me a lot. Now, it looks exactly the opposite. I want to know the truth, but he will never tell me. It looks like I will find out myself. There is no other choice than to follow him. I didn't want to do that because it was wrong. Well, I don't care about this anymore. I want to know what he is hiding from me. As his girlfriend, I deserve to know. He can't keep ignoring me as if I don't exist. The cards will fall. I hope that the truth won't hurt me.

I miss my boyfriend. It might sound weird, but it's true. We are together, but I barely see him. He doesn't want to spend time with me anymore. I am pregnant, but he doesn't care. I only hope that he is not cheating on me. That is the last thing I want to happen. No, it can't be that. He will never do this to me. Kevin loves me, or at least he used to. I thought we were meant to last forever. I guess I was wrong. Only I feel this way.

Currently, I am at home. My boyfriend has a few classes. I called him last night, but he didn't pick up. I wait for him after his class to see where he will go. Hopefully, my suspicions won't be true. My parents are at home today. Mom finished making breakfast. I'm not hungry, but I have to eat. Now, more than anything, I have to take care of myself. I still haven't told them, but I will do it soon. First, I need to know what Kevin is hiding from me. He can't keep doing this.

- Honey, are you ok? You are quiet. - mom said

- What?

- Nothing. You won't listen to me.

- I'm sorry. I have things in my head.

- Did something happen? I haven't seen you with Kevin in a while. - dad said

- I told you he is busy.

- Is it only that?

- Can we not talk about my love life?

- Then for what? You don't do much.

- Will you watch a kid today? - mom asked

- No, my day is free.

- I'm sure you will find out what to do.

- I planned to go out. Some fresh air will be good for me.

- Do you want company?

- Thanks, but I want to be alone.

- No problem. You can always call us if you need anything.

- Sure. Thanks.

- If he has done something, tell me. - dad said

- Dad, please.

- What? As your father, I deserve to know if someone has hurt you.

- Why don't you take care of yourself?

- Because I am fine.

- Are you sure?

- Yes.

- Then take your wife shopping.

- Oh, no. That is not a good idea. I don't have money to waste.

- I love the idea. Where should we go? - mom asked

- See?

- Great job, kid. You will return me the money I spent on her.

- You wish.

- You look like your mom too much.

- Is it a bad thing?

- No, but with two girls, life is not easy.

- You should've tried harder for a boy.

- I won't give up on my princess.

- Dad, I'm twenty-three.

- So? Age is only a number.

- You can't argue with him. When it comes to you, he will kill everyone. - mom said

- It's good to know.

- Do you want more food?

- No, thanks. That is enough. I might eat lunch outside.

- Do you need money?

- No, thanks. I have enough.

I talked with my parents for some time. Later, I went out. I decided to walk around for a while. The weather is good today. After some time, I walked to Kevin's university. I saw him going somewhere. This is not the way to his house. I followed him. When he turned around, I hid behind a tree. Hopefully, he didn't see me. My boyfriend continued walking. I had luck. He went to a place. It looks like an old garage or a factory. Kevin looked around to be sure no one would see him and walked in. I will do it, too. I hid behind some big boxes. These things look heavy. I wonder what is inside of them. I sent him a message to see if he would answer.

- Kevin, you are here. - a man said

- What is the plan for the day?

- Deliveries.

- Wait.

- What?

- I will text her later. Now I don't have time for this.

- This is for you. Look at the map. These are the places where you have to go today.

- How much will I get?

- Ten percent more than usual.

- It's not much.

- This business is not that easy.

- Fine. It's better than nothing.

- Good.

- I might not come tomorrow.

- Why? We need you.

- I know, but Nia keeps texting me. If I ignore her again, she will get suspicious.

- This is your job. You can't give up. Otherwise, you know what will happen.

- I know. You don't have to remind me.

- Then work.

I moved a bit closer to see what they were doing. That's when I saw it. No, this can't be true. My boyfriend is not doing this. He was putting bags with pills in his backpack. I'm sure these are not for a headache. I can't believe he is doing this. So, this was his secret. Kevin is a d**g dealer. How? Why? If he needed money, he could've asked me. I will help him. I was looking for him when someone grabbed my hand. That was a tight grip.

- Hey, let me go.

- We have an intruder here. - the man said

- Nia? What are you doing here?

- I should ask you the same. Why?

- Look, I.

- This is your secret, right? The one thing that you didn't want to tell me.

- I'm sorry.

- Can you tell him to let me go?

- It's ok. She won't do anything.

- Good. - the man said and left

- Are you a d**g dealer? For real?

- I.

- Answer me! - I said with tears in my eyes

- Yes, I am.

- Why? If you needed money, you should've asked me.

- It's not about money.

- Then why?

- It's a bit more complicated. I can't tell you.

- This is why you want to break up with me.

- Yes. I told you that you should stay away from me.

- But I don't want to. No matter if you want it or not. You are the father of our baby.

- It's yours, not mine.

- What?

- I don't want to have anything in common with it.

- This is a lie.

- I want to end things.

- What? I won't tell your secret to anyone. You have to trust me.

- It has nothing to do with that. If I want to keep you safe, I have to do it.

- I don't understand.

- That way is better.

- I won't let you do it. I don't want to break up with you.

- It's not your choice, Nia.

- So you will leave me alone. Taking care of your kid.

- I told you everything. Now you can go. Please don't call or text me. I won't answer you.

- I thought you were the one.

- I'm sorry. Can you leave now? I have work to do.

- Sure. I won't come to search for you anymore. Neither will invite you when the baby is born. You are dead to me. Dead! - I said and left

Tears were falling down my eyes. This can't be happening. After everything we had together, he left me. What am I supposed to do now? I can't raise this kid alone. My parents will help, but they are not the solution. What should I do when the baby asks for its father? I need time to process this.

I walked for about an hour. It's not like this helped me much. I was home for dinner. I can't stop thinking about this. Why would he do such a thing? I don't understand. It can't be because of me. I didn't do anything to him. Mom put the food on the table. That is the last thing I want to think about. I didn't say anything and walked to my room. I know I have to eat. Right now, I can't do it. He is a d**g dealer. My boyfriend is a d**g dealer. It's like a dream. Soon, my parents came in.

- Are you ok? You can tell us if there is a problem. - mom said

- I'm fine.

- You are a terrible liar.

- He did something, didn't he? - dad asked

- Dad, I don't want to talk about this.

- What happened? - mom asked

- It's over.

- It's over what?

- Everything.

- Did he break up with you? But why?

- He said it was better for me to stay away from him.

- Is there a reason behind this?

- I found out his secret.

- What secret?

- I suspected that he was hiding something from me. So, I followed him.

- I need to know what he did to you. - dad said

- Kevin. Kevin is a d**g dealer. - I said and started crying

- What? How? - mom asked

- I don't know. He didn't tell me anything else.

- I don't understand. He is a good guy.

- That's what I thought.

- Maybe this is why he broke up with you. Kevin didn't want you to get involved in this.

- But it's too late. I don't know what we'll do now.

- We?

- What?

- You said we. For who are you talking about? - dad asked

- No one.

- Nia.

- I. I am. - I said and looked at my stomach

- You are what?

- I'm pregnant.

- What? Since when?

- Less than three weeks.

- Why didn't you tell us? - mom asked

- Because I wanted to know what was going on with him.

- Hey, come here. Everything will be fine. - mom said and hugged me

- I'm sorry.

- It's ok. You need to take care of yourself.

I talked with my parents. I'm glad that they are on my side. Dad wasn't happy to hear what Kevin did. He wanted to deal with him, but I stopped him. This won't resolve the problem. Also, I'm not mad at Kevin. I understand why he never told me anything. He only wanted to keep me safe. I believe that he loves me, but his job is more important. I have no idea how this happened, but if that is what he wants, I have to let him go. He will always be my first boyfriend, and I will never forget him. It won't be easy to deal with a baby alone, but I won't give up. I hope that I will be able to take care of it.