whispers of the heart

i was running as fast as I could on the treadmill. I had gained so much weight and my family just couldn't accept that I was a bit overweight. 89 kg is not much is it? I wished so much I could loose some pounds from my weight. I was trying to catch my breath when my coach yelled "Again". He would drill me cause I signed up for this , not my mum or my boyfriend or my aunt or my dad. he would drill me over and over again . Better to lose some weight than to be tagged fat either at work or at home. I was so breathless, Damn hope that's amazing , you are doing well. My coach said. I told myself I'll rather be commended than be disciplined or told am not good enough. The pride I saw in he's eyes made me happy. "sorry coach ". I laughed m it was nice seeing how brave I could be. I had to squeeze my training sessions in between my internship at the hospital eversince my mum stopped given me extra cash to handle my needs. I had to figure my way out. Alright coach I'll see you tomorrow I told him before running to the empty and seldom used ladies locker room. I hurried through a shower like I usually did before pulling my braids into it's customary pony tail, leaving the tresses to hang out and curl around. I wore my cooperate trousers with a shirt and a gown on top. Normal girls really put effort into Thier appearance I just didn't have the time I was running late and I honestly didn't want to be late again. I avoided calls at all cost. I made it in good time before the review with the senior physicians started obviously. the senior physicians came in and reviewed our clerking and admissions from the previous day before. thankfully we hadn't lost any patient today. I had always wanted something that was going to challenge me and make me put in my best effort and thankfully I was learning a lot. you see my name is hope Adams and I didn't realize my parents were this strict until I had to spend time with them. My father used to tell me we are a proud people , well respected , I shouldn't bring shame to Thier name. I told myself having a kid out of wedlock is not something I'll like to try. Cause it's really tasking and painful and sometimes a lonely trip you'll embark on. Training to be a physician is a feat that not s many have the courage to carry out. To me it was my greatest source of Joy and comfort and a means to escape from my challenging relationship with my family. Not that I meant to but unconsciously I found myself staying long hours at work because I could only imagine what they'll say this time around. I had been severely hurt and I was still hurting so much.