Untamed: the prophecies

Chapter 5

Adonis:

      Now that we have given a glimpse of what our lives have been thus far here is us now. 

        I am 22 now. I have used my gifts to the most that I can. I stay in the pack house In the alpha suite. It’s always been tradition for the alpha to stay in that room just like all the other precious alphas. I spend all my time in the office, meetings, studies to get a better idea of what it had been like in previous times. I don’t have time to walk around town and do things normal girls do because let’s face it I am far from normal. 

         I don’t want love. I don’t want a mate. I want my family to always be taken care of and protected and there is no way that I can mange to handle that unless I do it myself. No one will protect them like me. Lillian is so high in spirits all the time it makes me feel at ease in a way to see her not worry about all pack s**t I have to worry about. It makes me feel like I have done my job in a way of shielding her. I make sure I take as many responsibilities as I can so she can have time for her and her studies. 

        I just wish she would see the world for the cruel dark hole in hell that it is. No one is nice, everyone has their own agenda and f****d up minds, no one cares about my sisters well being. The second a stranger knew of her name or knew her face and could recognize her as the healer prophecy it would be over for her. All moral out the windows, all respect out the window. Greed would take them over. I guess In a way because we were blessed with all these gifts being sought after and never finding our mate or at least a decent person to confide in as a friend was our curse. 

          I spend all my days strategizing. For the pack, for the expansion of the pack, fights to avoided, and I strategize ways to make better income for our pack. In my alone time, when it is the quietest, when my mind has calmed down, when I have absolutely nothing left to think about I wonder what it would be like to love someone. I wonder what it would be like to find someone to look at me the way my dad looks at my

Mother. I wonder what it would feel like to have someone hold me in their arms. I wonder what it would be like for someone to kiss me and not have to worry if they are doing it because they truly like me or if they want me just because of the prophecy. 

            I always snap out of it and get back cramming my mind full of alpha work, pack history, or truly anything to get my mind off of the things that could cloud my judgement. Once again it is a curse that comes with these gifts. 

Lillian:

       I am 22 now and of all the things in this work my family and my work mean the most to me. Healing people brings me joy of great measures. Knowing that all I had to do was stare at a person for long enough and they would be compelled to tell me the truth. I really don’t like using it because I hate the fact that I would Have to use a supernatural ability to convince someone to tell me the truth, but sometimes it is necessary to use it. 

        While my sister resides in the alpha suite I ha e taken over the green house. Moms favorite place and this is the place dad proposed to her. I have made it into a story home for myself. I feel at peace with the plants and the earth. I reside on the top floor and my plants reside down at the bottom. I have made it into a one bedroom with an office for my books and studies of medicines. I have been enrolled into college even though my sister makes fun of me I have learned so much of modern medicine from them. My nanny who has been our nurse since before I was born have taught me of home remedies and cultural remedies but I felt like I needed more. I felt like I needed to learn more so I enrolled in college. Mom and dad were so proud of me but Adonis seemed to get a laugh out of it. 

         All of the things in this world I wish Adonis would learn to love. She showers her family in love but I pray to the goddess everyday that she is blessed with a mate of good intentions to love her so that she will not be so cold toward the world. I do understand however her job and role in this pack and as the prophetic Alpha of Alphas she has a duty and she holds that very high. 

I, on the other hand want love. I want someone to love me more then I could imagine. I want that passion and list. I want the rush of someone walking into a room and blushing. I want the unknown. I want the avalanche of emotions, sure it comes with heartache but i want to know these feelings. My sister never talks about these but I know somewhere that my strong sister needs this in her life. Seeing everyone mating and having families is something I want. I want to have a child I want to be a wife and I want to give someone all of me and every ounce of love I hold. I just know it is hard to have because of the prophecy. There is a far greater chance that I would find someone that I thought I liked and then it turn out to be a lie.