THE MATING STRUGGLE

INTUITION

CHAPTER 3

I stood up from the floor which I had laid the next morning and right then my brother “Toby” had just walked in and that made my morning a good one instantly. We began to squabble and gist about the old times. Nostalgic times we bid farewell, as I left home.

My mother came out and the family time was complete “almost” no breakfast was prepared yet, the air still had strokes from lashes in the night, Toby, notices the tension and asked what was wrong, and before I could say anything, my mother had jumped with her ear and ear-ring being all stiff, she told Toby what had happened and Toby looked at me and laughed. Saying, “you got into a verbal fight with jasper, an omega? Just one night and you are already pissing other werewolves off” I wasn’t sure of how to respond to that as I was already called “impulsive” very frequently. In my defense he also came at me to, I said frantically. Oh well that’s in the past.

Now, you’re here. I need to get a job, I said, hoping Toby would have a solution. He said “there is always an opening at jaspers bath house, he struggles with it whenever he tries to go hiking and non of the other pack members want to even work for him for they had heard scary stories, it wasn’t a story though. I’ll go talk to him about you, just promise not to enrage him again”. I can’t make any promises, we are werewolves remember? “gosh, always using that as an excuse to be destructive” ,He said.

I grumbled and stomped my feet like a five-year old that wasn’t given any ice cream, Toby goes to meet jasper at the bath house which was located at the river bank. And as soon as he left, my mother urged me to tend to my baby “I know that” I said, under my breath. Thank the “gods” she doesn’t have super hearing.

“Ever notice how time flies when your in trouble and there’s a deadline to meet.”

I didn’t have any deadlines, except for the one my mother put in her head, for the first time I had felt free from the marriage drama.

Toby returns back in the evening as I was in the garden and the atmosphere made me brood, he notices me and came to ask how I was doing. “You have an interview with Jasper tomorrow morning, don’t bite each others head of, just talk and behave like a normal person” Toby said, but we aren’t normal people, I said. I went on further saying, I wonder why? “You wonder why what?” Toby asked, I still struggled from the betrayal of which the alpha of Gaul pack, Trevor, caused me. I also wondered if I was too expectant of him, which also made the delusions seem like a reality. Toby knocked on my head and said “sometimes if we do not have delusions or fantasy it’ll make living hellish and we would soon start to be devoured by everything around us. We need comfort of our own, that is why even because it isn’t real, we still need to have that wild imagination as it fills the hole in our belly for a while. We starve!” Toby said.

I asked him if my “delusions/fantasy” was what broke off my marriage from Trevor.

“Regardless of the fact, the only time a marriage breaks of is because one of the two parties were irresponsible or narcissistic. It isn’t easy to spot these flaws but once you get the hang of it, decisions will no more be a feat we would be afraid of” Toby said,

Toby, are you saying I made the right decision by leaving him, I asked bluntly. Because mother don’t sure feel like it, she always think I’m at fault.

“Every mother, wants the best for their child, even if their child is incomplete, they feel the need to either fill you up themselves or give you doctrines that may help you do that on your own, the fault of a mother is loving their child to much, but even that is a blessing” Toby said.

When did you get so wise? I asked. At a time I would have thought you were a rather ridiculous little boy.

“if I was just a ridiculous boy, I wouldn’t be the alpha of the revolt pack, it’s been a birthright and will forever run through out blood line”. “We shall revolt”

That suddenly makes me feel better, I said smiling extravagantly!

“well… A “dog” always know how to feel. They are great detectors of body language, unlike us. We wolves have certain and stronger traits than a dog. I say dog because they are a weaker version of us. We might look the same but we aren’t the same”. Toby said.

what has that got to do with how I’m feeling? I asked.

“Toby sighs….people can come in every size and shapes, even with different character and charisma. Everybody can’t be good or bad. Just like we wouldn’t know good if there wasn’t evil and we wouldn’t know joy if there wasn’t sorrow. It all works side by side”

*Mmm*

“Even though humans can talk, we wolves communicate better with our body, our eyes and our actions. A boy wouldn’t know how to be a man if he isn’t taught, a wolf won’t know how to hunt if he isn’t taught. People who feel like they are always right and will term other’s as wrong and call them victims. Because they cannot bear to be called arrogant or wrong and they refuse to accept it because even with their physical growth and appearance they do not want to learn from someone who they think to be beneath them. It is a curse that has ruled over for many years. Our curse triggers with death and their curse struggles with words, how we tend to see it, varies from the other. Do we embrace it or do we continue to struggle. In shorter words Trevor tried to blame you because he didn’t want to be seen as weak or less. Instead he tried to make his mistake the truth and enforce it. Is there a need to ascertain dominance if you are seen as dominant?” He said,

Okay, that’s enough for one day, I’m tired of hearing you yap, I said, jokingly.

My brother, Toby, “laughed” and as he was leaving he turned back at me as it seemed like he was giving me a warning “ tomorrow morning you go to jasper, whatever you do, do not ask about his past or his family”.

Knowing the kind of person I was. As soon as those exact words left his lips, “My curiosity immediately licked its nose “ I wanted to know so bad what jasper had been through or the stories behind it at least, but first I would have to get close to him and gain his trust and friendship, I said. "That wouldn't be hard" if any anything at all, I can be persuasive.