When Life Gets Blurry , Adjust your Focus.

The sky is blue sun is shining ahh and i wake up (Hahah) Now i have to get ready..mama mama (in loud voice) where are my socks i can't find anywhere (mother) check in your first wardrobe (irem) ahh ahh thanks mama i get it ohh! where are my "glasses" now i can't see properly without them where are... where are... ahhh! i find it ahh ok let's go I'm ready (mother) your breakfast is ready) come eat your breakfast first (irem) yeah mama I'm coming... ahh finally I'm ready now (mother) ahh you looking so beautiful my princess (irem) hahah! thanks mama you the best mother in the world (mother) and you my best daughter in the world..(umwaah-kissing her daughter) and remember one thing "Be brave even if you are not.Pretend to be. No one can tell the difference" (daughter _irem) ahh mama yes I'll keep your advice with me thank you...ok ok I'm going now my bus is almost coming i have to wait for my bus if i miss the bus i can't put my first impression in class (mother) hahah! silly girl ok ok you go take care of your self love you.. (daughter _irem) ahh love you too mama see you later... Bye bye .. ahh there i go i have to wait for my bus (after 3 minutes) ahh here my bus is ahh yeah take me too (driver) yes come in mam ... i first enter in bus and everyone start staring at me like i kidnapped someone i feel so uncomfortable when i sit on seat everyone start gossiping and i am just thinking are they talking or gossiping about me ? or this is my misunderstanding ahh (me to myself) ahh irem leave it may be they are not talking about you just relax as mama said " Be brave even if you are not.pretend to be.." ( the bus reached in university)...(me to myself)ahh finally we reached in university ..(everyone meeting each others) me standing there ( me to myself) ahh where i have to go now i don't have friends yet i think this side(right) no no this side(left) ahh I'm so confused it's so hot weather sun is shining like fire and I'm like a ice cream anytime I'll melt here ahhh no i took 3 hours to do my makeup haha! i have to find shady area first ahh yeah there it is ...now where i find my class room ? ahh! i think i have to ask someone ok ( me to myself) irem get ready ahm ahm ahh yeah there is a boy i have to ask him first ahm ahm excuse me (boy don't listen) ahh! (me to myself ) i think this boy is deaf ahm ahm let me try again ahm excuse me... ( boy turns around towards me) when he see me "i feel like everywhere is silence a Prince is here and i feel like I'm the only princess whom he is watching... sun is bright he wear glasses like me ahh he looking so handsome in glasses just like i wear it too "( boy said) ahm yes how can i help you ( I'm dreaming on that time) ( boy said again) ahmm yes how can i help you...(me) i fell down on floor ..and when i open my eyes he is setting next to me on a chair ( the boy ) hello are you ok ? i feel like you never see a handsome boy like me ever in your life ahahah! I'm i right? ( me) ahh no no I'm sorry i just can't afford that much light in my eyes so i just feel dizzy hehe! and i fell down.. Thank you for helping me (boy) ahh that means I'm not handsome hahah! ( me ) hahah!! no no it's not like that ( boy) ahh no worries so my name is (Bin) and your good name ( me) ahh nice name my name is ( irem) nice to meet you "bin" today my first day here and i don't know where my class is can you please help me in it because i just find you as a good person yet here( boy_Bin) ahh thank you for your good words yes show me your class name we'll find it together today also is my first day here hahah! (me) ahh hahah! that's great then it means we both stupids don't know where to go (boy laugh loudly) hahahah! you silly girl ..(me) what you recently said to me (boy_Bin) ahh why you don't like it I'm sorry then i just get franked and i said that to you ( me) ahh no it's fine my mother call me silly girl when i do stupid things (Bin) hahah! ahh don't say I'm pretending like your mother ( me ) ah no no I'm just saying.. (Bin) laugh Hahah! you are so good you make my day i was nerves before how i gonna deal everyone but i find you here I'm feeling like i stop my search here(me) ahh really thank you this what i also feel now because i know no one can live more than 5 minutes with this silly girl (boy_Bin) hahah! ah it means I'm the first then...( me ) yes maybe the last one is also you (boy_Bin) ahh what you said (me) ahh nothing nothing leave it look there is our class come lets go in class room (boy_Bin) ahh ok ok but before going in class promise me you'll sit with me everyday (me) ahh ok promise i told you before i just know you here yet( boy_Bin ) ahh that's good then (we) and we enter in our class together (me and Bin) everyone laugh loudly when we both enter in class together.... i feel like it's misunderstanding again but i am wrong they really laughing on us (whole class) hahahahah look look miss. glasses and mr. glasses in one fram ahh look look a glasses couple in our class hahahah everyone laugh so.loudly on us and i see towards (Bin) i see he's so nerves he is standing quietly and listening them all listening their jokes they make on us and on that time i see in (Bin) eyes he is not a brave person which i feel first that he is but i was wrong he seems more nervous than me and listing everyones ugly jokes for us and i just remember my mama's (mother) words she said " be brave even if you are not. pretend to be.no one can tell the difference " so i just see to empty chairs i take a long breath and just pretend infront of everyone that i am a brave girl i just grab ( Bin's) hand and take him with me towards empty chairs and when we reached there two boys fastly sit there to tease us and then i just ignore them and i go to the next one and i find the last chairs which are empty and then we have to sit there when we( me and Bin) sit on chair i see (Bin) don't leave my hand and when i try to leave he just grab my hand again and when i try again ( bin) said please irem don't leave my hand just stay here hold my hands like this please don't leave my hands( me) i became so nerves by seeing his condition he's so frightened and acting like a small baby i became worried about him why he is acting like this and when (whole class) watching us like this they make fun again they said lot's of bad stuff to( me and bin ) but i just ignore them all and i put my all attention towards (Bin) condition because i feel like he's boy maybe he's brave than me he can fight with everyone he'll safe me when someone try to tease me but all i think is wrong he is so different he's so coward he became afraid when (whole class) make fun on us (me to myself) irem you should stay with him and don't leave him forget about others just help him and just grab his hand until he not feel well and i just grab his hands and i say (bin) are you ok and bin didn't respond to me i feel like he's not in good condition i don't have to ask him this time anything and i just pretend nothing happened and then our teacher came in class room (teacher) hello students I'm (mr.moon jae_in) hope you all fine and good and welcome everyone in our new class hope you all follow what I'll teach you and one day you all become my proud...ok so let's start our first class so are you all fine (whole class) yes sir ( teacher) good ok introduce yourselves to me then I'll know you properly everyone stand up one by one and introduce yourself (whole class) stand up one by one and introduce their selfs one by one then it's bin's turn and bin stand up nervously and he said my name is Bin (whole class) gossiping mr.glasses mr. glasses and laughing and he sit down and grab my hand again and then i became worried about him and i stand up and i introduce my self hey everyone and respected teacher my name is irem nice to meet you all thank you (teacher) ahh good this is the best introduction i wanna listen good girl and i sit down everyone is calling me mrs.glasses again and again and laughing on us but i just pretend i don't listen anything and just sit and listening to teacher's lecture and after few minutes Bin leave my hands he become normal and i see him he just get involved in the books and start reading books and i just thinking about him in whole lecture just thinking why he grab my hand? why he is so coward?why he don't say anything to anyone when they making fun on him? why ? why? why? ....ahhh i speak loudly whyyyyyyy? .... everyone stairs at me and teacher ask me is everything is ok i feel so embarrassed and i just say ahh sorry sorry nothing and everyone laugh on me and (Bin) said are you ok irem and i see towards him and i say ahh I'm ok ok sorry i ask to bin how do you feel now he don't say anything he just replied (Bin) "thanks for grabbing my hands" (me) i said ahh no no problem i become shy because i don't know how to react on that time and i just start reading book and i just make my mind to ask him why he reat like this on that time I'll ask him after class and I'll get my all answers and i just get involved in the books i see everyone gossiping about us and ahhh that is so so hard time for me to sit calmly and listening to their shits about me and bin and when i see towards bin he become so calm just lie nothing happeneds to him and then after few minutes class ended teacher say good bye and leave the class (whole class) get up and they start leaving class one by one and i said to bin ahh bincome let's go to cafeteria for some food I'm feeling so hungry and i grab his hand and suddenly he leave my hand (Bin)he said i don't wanna go anywhere you can go if you feeling hungry I'm not hungry and i just forget my hunger on that time i just sit there i start staring at him and i ask him bin why you so coward he stairs at me and i just start staring at him for his answer why is that so.... ahhhh....