To the Moon and Back

Chapter 29

                                                                           *Sammy`s POV*

I had jumped out the shower my skin bright pink from the combination of deep scrubbing and the water the temperature of hellfire. I carefully wrapped my hair to dry. As soon as I secured the thigh length wet mop atop my head I set off to get dressed.  Its nice enough to throw on a sun dress. Simple cute and if we get frisky I don’t even need to get naked. Just hike it up, he can go diving looking for treasure. My body shivered at the mere thought of his lips down under. As I freed my hair from the towel my mind drifted to the moment his lips gently kissed my cheek goodbye. It was only a few hours ago but I my whole being missed him. My body craved his touch. My heat craved his presence. My fingers itched to touch him. I had never felt anything like this. This is unreal. This is magic. Natural pure magic. Goddess heard my pleas. I had decided that I was going to listen to my heart. Hell, my whole soul was telling me to give him a chance. Also, my Tarot deck had told me to keep an open heart. It was a school night, so the kids were sleeping but I checked on the kids before I went back to getting ready.  After taking a brush through my hair I decided to let it air dry. While pacing my kitchen I glanced at the stove, Jason should be here any minute. My lady parts quivered with the memory of the heights Jason had taken me with just his fingers. I had to cross my legs together and squeeze while I whispered for my kitty to chill out.  He had touched parts inside of me that I didn’t even know were there, things had gotten so heated in the barn. It was Hot. But after he ravaged my honey pot and took my underwear he turned into a perfect gentleman. Well save for when he pulled me up against him outside the carriage. Aside from the several hickies now visible he was the definition of gentleman! A gentleman in the Streets and a freak in the Barn. Hehe “aghhh”  I trip over my little dog “are you ok willy” he’s perfectly fine it’s me that almost fell down the steps. After I get my whole pack out I check my phone. Ok Jason should be here any second. I head into the kitchen to put up a pot of coffee, after all Jason is coming for a night cap right. I couldn’t help but giggle he did that whole shopping thing so he could be invited over. I knew the kids hadn’t really `won’ anything ,except maybe a new step daddy. I’m kidding, kind of, nope not kidding. it sounds so corny, and I hate myself for even thinking it, but I think it was love at first sight.  As absolutely ovary melting it was watching him dote on and spoil my kids as if they were his own free range shopping sprees couldn’t become a regular thing!  If this thing between us turned out to be something more real, more permanent we would have to have to lay some ground rules. I don’t want my kids spoiled with stuff; I want them spoiled with love. That being said, I absolutely appreciate the effort he put in and how much my tiny little heathens had cost him pillaging his shelves. However soon the nasty head of self-doubt rears her ugly head, and all my insecurities begin to swirl. When my phone rings I am pulled from my anxious thoughts. When I look at my phone I can’t help but laugh.   The screen is lit up with a silly selfie of Jason he must have snuck, but when I seen what he had saved him himself as I had to clap my hand over my mouth to stop the loud ugly sounding laugh that tried to escape. Across the top of my screen flashed the word Babe with several emojis heart eyes a ring an eggplant lips and a ton of hearts. I shake my head laughing as I answer the phone “Hey Jason or should I say Babe?” I ask with a giggle. “Kitten you can call me anything you want as long as you call me.” Good goddess this man is smoother than creamy peanut butter. “Good to know Mr. tall dark and handsome. I hope you like whole milk in your coffee it is all I have.” “I`ll take what ever you have to give me kitten.” The way he said it made the double meaning impossible to miss. And he had successfully turned my brain off, all I could manage to respond with was  “mmm”. I’m far too distracted about thoughts of him giving me all of him about me taking every single inch of him. I was pulled out of my XXX daydream when I hear Jason’s voice in my ear “My phone says ill be at your house in 7 minutes, I guess 5. Do you want me to call or knock?”  “Call!!” I answer much louder than I meant to! I quickly apologize “I’m sorry but the kids are sleeping and if you knock the dogs will bark. The kids will wake up and instead of getting alone time with you it will be the kids the dogs and me fighting for your attention and you won’t want to stay” I say way too fast, gods that sounds so pathetic. Why did I just say all that? I must have sounded so damn insecure- I couldn’t even finish my self-deprecating thoughts as  Jason voice got much more serious  “Samantha, Don’t for even one second think that I wouldn’t want to spend time with you because you have Marie and John. You’re a great mom, they love you so much. I know you’re a package deal and I couldn’t be happier about it!” my heart clenched in my chest right before it melted into a puddle.  I was so taken back by what he had said. His words were  such sincerity they warmed me to my core. Snap out of it woman! Say something! I silently scold myself.  “I’m going to go make sure I pressed the coffee button. and open my door call when you’re here.” I pause for a second before lowering my voice to a purr  before continuing “I can’t wait to see you Sir.” As soon as I hear a low growl I giggle and hang up. I can’t stop giggling as I press the button for the coffee. I had of course forgotten to press the brew button. I was still giggling about how easy it was to rile Jason up when my phone rang. I pick it up quickly without looking at the screen. “Here already Sir?” I purr out. “Sam?” oh f**k me sideways. Its not Jason, its my confused and probably aroused Ex. “oh f**k um Hi john. Umm this isn’t a good time for me, and the kids are sleeping so..” “Samantha what he f**k is going on?!? Who were you trying to call sir?” my anger boils up as he continues to angerly ask more questions that he no longer has any right to be asking me. “Are you seeing someone?” “Who the f**k is he?” he is furious and so am I. who in the entire f**k does he think he is?!? The sheer audacity he has. “JOHN! After everything you put me through you for someone NOT get to question me about any damn thing!” “Samantha-“ he starts to argue only to be immediately interrupted by me. “No, I am waiting for someone leave me alone good night!” I hang up instantly the phone lights up again John calling back. I end the call silence the ringer and toss my phone on the couch. I go check on the coffee and my dogs. When I return to the living room just a few short minutes later I check my phone. I return to a dozen missed calls and twice as many messages. I skim through some of his nasty messages. I didn’t notice I was crying  until the messages got blurry. How had I ever loved someone that made me feel so insignificant. He doesn’t want me to be happy. I’m sick of his s**t, the nasty messages the slut shaming the belittling me and his absofuckinglutely ridiculous critiques of my parenting. When my phone rings again I don’t bother looking at the screen. “Just leave me alone” I hated how weak I sounded “Samantha?! Are you okay? I’m at your house come open the door kitten!”  Goddess this is just my luck. I run to the bathroom , when I see my reflection I groan loudly. My eyes are puffy, and my cheeks are tear stained. “f**k” I whisper yell. I quickly toss cold water on my face and apt it dry.  I still  look like s**t, but it will have to do, I can’t have my dogs see him before I introduce them. it’s bad enough Jason is going to see me like this I don’t want my kids crushing  our  coffee date. I take a deep breath and promise myself I won’t let John and his fuckery ruin one more moment for me. I push all thoughts of My annoying Baby daddy to the deepest confines of my mind. I open the door and welcome Jason into my home.