Her Darkness

13 years ago Marie Hernandez never felt she had belonged anywhere or with anyone, she would seek love in many forms and always would try forgive those who would continue hurt in different ways yet still just wanted be loved for her and nothing else. from trauma in many forms from family to siblings to relationships, depression started to make its way at age 16 with more trauma she would never wish on anyone ,never knowing who to trust or to be used. by the time Marie was eighteen, she had lost friendships to those who couldn't handle when she would would fall into depression all her negative thoughts coming true , no one sticks around for long that exactly what always replayed is her mind and everyone always left so she always felt sooner or later they will leave so why try to fight for them whether its a friend or boyfriend the heartache of someone leaving cause more crushing then facing the reality of it all . she had good days and bad days , she ended up in such bad depression for 2 whole years, nothing mattered, nothing would get her to seek help like she used to when it would get bad. Marie was slowly becoming somewhat of who she use to be or close to that, she was making memories and embracing being adult woman ,growing up she was taught wait for marriage and shamed if women did things single men would do naturally so she finally was doing what she wanted til family members would shame her if they heard gossip of it. it triggered her in a way, but she thought [ why should I care im grown ass woman I am not hurting anyone ] Marie had no idea what was coming her way in the best way.