His Precious Little Angel

Chapter 3

Elijah's POV

I walk towards the study with steady steps. As i reach near the door i can faintly hear my parents and Dr. steven's voices.

“he'll be alright someday honey don't worry” i hear my dad say.

“how can i not worry, my son is suffering, he's been suffering since so many years, and what are we doing other than consoling each other that some day he'll be fine, he'll smile like he used to, laugh heartily, he'll talk like he used to, and he'll stop putting this fake mask for us, saying he is fine when we all know he's not!” my mom shouts and i can hear her voice shaking as if she's on the verge of breaking down.

I close my eyes, i can feel their pain and worries.

Pain.

My heart tightens at the thought of them being in pain because of me.

“He will be fine Mrs. Carter” doctor steven says, while my dad is consoling my mom.

“He is becoming more and more quiet, he doesn't go out much, he has started online schooling since last year, atleast for the first two years he went to highschool, i was happy that maybe it will help him distract and maybe he will find his source of happiness somewhere outside. But now it's been a year since he last went there, he doesn't even hang out with his friends anymore, he ignore their calls and just sit in his room either studying, or staring blankly in space” my mom sobs.

I feel it hard to breathe, i don't want them to worry, but it seems that i'm doing the complete opposite.

“Last week he went outside, i was happy, but he came back, with bruised knuckles” my mom says “i just don't want him to follow any wrong path, just to end his miseries” she says and now i know she is crying.

I can't handle it any longer, i take a deep breath, running my hand through my hair i try to calm myself down and then with a calm expression i knock the door.

“Who is it?” My dad asks

“It's me” i reply

I hear few hushed whispers, but i couldn't hear clearly. I know they must be startled by the sudden intrusion

“Can i come in?” i ask.

“yeah son, come in” my dad reply.

I enter to find them sitting on the couch. My mom has wiped her face, but i can still see few tear stains on her face and her eyes are red, the moment my eyes meet hers she smiles.

“When did you woke up?” she asks

“an hour ago” i reply

“did you had breakfast?” she asks trying her very best to keep her tears at bay.

“No. I didn't, i came to look for you both, you weren't there” i reply

“yeah, actually we are having some business related conversation with doctor steven, you know...uhh...regarding the donation at hospital” my mom says without looking at me.

“You're a terrible liar mom” i reply

“And i heard your conversation with doctor steven”

They stiffened. I sigh and walk towards my mom to sit next to her, i take her hands in mine.

“I just didn't want all of you to be worried about me mom, but it looks like i'm doing the complete opposite of it” i say in a low voice.

My mom starts crying again, she's very sensitive and emotional person and especially when it comes to her children and anything that is causing them pain.

I look towards where Doctor steven was sitting.

“You didn't take the pills last night, Mr. Carter” he says and it was not a question but a statement.

“Yeah, i didn't” i reply.

“why?” my mom asks.

“we don't want him to completely rely on sleeping pills Mrs. Carter, so we decided to go for aromatherapy, but before that he need to stop taking those sleeping pills” he answered.

“Atleast he didn't had nightmares when he had those pills“ my mom says, as she continues to cry.

“But Mrs. Carter it's dangerous. He'll become addicted to them, and he'll not be able to sleep without taking them you don't want that for him, right?” doctor steven asks her.

“No!” mom and dad reply together instantly.

“we are going to start aromatherapy sessions very soon, don't worry Mr and Mrs. Carter i'm sure it will help him.” he assures my parents while patting on my shoulder.

I don't think even aromatherapy will work, i barely slept with those pills, i only got 4 hours of sleep and i had nightmares frequently. But didn't want to tell this to him in front of my parents, i don't want them to worry and i don't want my mom to cry, which apparently she is doing right now.

I was pondering on something to make her stop crying and start smiling so i made a decision then and there.

“Mom, dad i want to tell you something”

Their attention turns back on me.

“What is it son?” My dad asks.

“Um....actually i've decided to go back to school”

Both of them looked shocked, and then a huge smile appeared on their faces.

My mom excitedly held my hand. “what did you say? You want to go back? You're not lying eli, are you?”

“No I'm not lying. I thought about it alot, and even though it's just for an year but i want to go back. My friends have been pestering me to come back, and it's the last year of high school, so yeah i'm going back” i reply

My mom continues to smile with tears streaming down her eyes.

I frown.

“Why are you crying now mom?” I ask worriedly.

“Oh Eli, My baby i'm just so happy” she replies while wiping her tears.

I roll my eyes. “you cry when you're happy, you cry when you're worried, you cry when you're sad, you're such a crybaby mom” i tease her.

“Hey! I'm not a crybaby okay! Jacob tell your son i'm not a crybaby” she pouts dramatically.

“sorry to disappoint you honey, but you are” my dad says trying hard not to laugh.

“What? jacob! You..you..you..just wait i'll make you regret what you said” she glares at him.

“Oh, is it? What are going to do?” he challenges her.

My mom continues to glare at him and then she smirks.

My dad's smile drops and he looks at her warily.

“You're going to sleep on the couch tonight, dear husband” she says with a smile.

“What? No! Honey you can't do that! Dad says his expression panicked.

I really want to laugh, but i control my self and turn to look at Dr. Steven who has an amused expression. Looks like he didn't expect them to argue right now.

Our eyes meet and i gesture him to come outside.

We enter my room and sit down on the couch.

We stay silent for a minute, until he decides to speak first.

“What is bothering you elijah?” he asks looking at me.

“i just don't think that it will work” i reply.

“What? The aromatherapy?” he asks confused.

“Yeah”

“Why do you say that? You should stop being pessimistic.” he says sternly.

I sigh and decide to tell him the truth.

“I still had nightmares” i tell him.

He looked startled and worried after what i just revealed.

“What? But i thought you slept well with those pills and didn't woke up in the middle of night” he said.

“I didn't. I just got 4-5 hours of sleep max everyday”

“Why didn't you tell me?” he asks trying to hide the anger in his voice.

“I wanted to tell you but everytime you visited mom and dad were around, i didn't want them to know about it” i reply.

“then you should have visited me ” he scolds.

“Um...well...you know i rarely go out these days, so i thought when the next time you'll visit us i'll tell you” i try to reason.

“and when was this next time of yours was going to come? If your dad would've not called me, i would not have come untill next week, that was when we had decided to start the aroma session, were you planning to not tell me untill then?” he snaps.

“Yeah” i reply truthfully, earning myself a glare from him.

I know that i should have done that but i was just tired of all these treatments, they were not helping and i was getting frustrated with them. Well the pills did help a little with sleep, i didn't take long to fall sleep with them, but i could only sleep for 4-5 hours and wake up with another nightmare. When Dr. Steven asked me to stop taking them a week ago, i told him i will but i didn't because i know that without them i will not be able to sleep, atleast with them i'm getting 4-5 hours of rest. He didn't know that i lied he still thinks that i'm not taking them. He's been treating me for a long time and i respect him alot so now when he's looking at me angrily i can't say anything.

After a long silence i hear him sigh.

“Elijah we want you to get better and for that we need your coorperation in it. So please don't hide anything regarding your treatment from me.”

I look at him apologetically and nod my head.

“I'm sorry, I won't do that again” i reply to which he gives me a smile in return.

“Alright, if there's nothing else i shall take my leave. we'll be starting the sessions soon alright?” he says getting up and I nod.

"i'll walk you out” i tell him and we both leave my room.