Painfully Yours (ENG-FIL)

I arched my back as Oliver gave me some soft kisses on my neck, giving him more access. His hands were supporting my naked back, stopping me from falling on the algid floor of my dim yet filled with intense s****l desire condominium. A soft moan came out from my gaping mouth as he pushed me on the wall, ripping the red dress I bought just for tonight. The next thing I knew, I was left with nothing but my bare skin, aching for his touch. My skin felt cold with the chilly October night even with my closed window, yet his warmth was enough to offer me the heat my body ever wanted. "You look f*****g hot with this dress, but you won't need it anymore," he murmured under his heavy breath and threw the dress somewhere in the corner. Madilim man ang buong condo ko ay kitang-kita ko pa rin ang perpekto niyang pigura. Tanging ang liwanag na galing sa bintana ang nagbibigay ng munting ilaw sa aming dalawa. His tall and masculine body covered me from that tiny light. I slightly shivered when he slowly ran his fingers from my neck down to my tummy. Tila ilang libong boltahe ang dumaloy sa aking buong katawan sa simpleng paghaplos niyang iyon. Muntik nang bumigay ang aking mga paa sa labis na panginginig, ngunit ang isang kamay niyang nakasuporta sa aking likod ay sapat na upang pigilan ako sa pagkasalampak sa sahig. Halos manginig ang buong kalamnan ko nang makilala nito ang pamilyar na pakiramdam na gabi-gabi nilang hinahanap. Wari nagdiwang at lahat ay gumana nang tama. Ilang araw ba akong naghintay para sa gabing ito? Dalawang araw? Tatlong araw? Isang linggo? Hindi ko na alam. Wala na akong pakialam. Ang importante'y narito na siya ngayon. Nasa harap ko. Inaangkin ako at ang katawan ko. Ngayong gabi, sa akin siya at sa kan'ya ako. "Oliver, please..." I closed my drunken eyes, impatient with how he teases me with his intoxicating touches. I want him to enter this impatient cave already. I've missed how he enters me like an unknown visitor every night yet seems like been expecting him at the same time with how I welcome him with my moans and cries—weeping more for his to-die-for weapon. I let out a high prolonged sound of pleasure when his middle finger inserted carelessly into my already-wet cave. I gasped when he pulled it out and expertly played with my c**t, leaving me almost breathless and lifeless. Fuck! Oliver's finger really knows how to make me go weak! Tanging siya lamang ang nagbibigay ng ganitong pakiramdam sa akin. Isang pakiramdam na hindi ko mahanap-hanap sa iba kaya't humi-hiyaw palagi sa pangalan niya. He gave me something that I can never find for someone else. His harsh breaths against my neck added the raising heat, planting me some smack kisses here and there. Naibaon ko sa kan'yang malapad na likod ang aking kaka-manicure lamang na kuko nang marahas niyang binaon ang kan'yang daliri sa pagitan ng nanginginig kong hita at hinila iyon pagkatapos, at muling binaon hanggang sa paulit-ulit niyang ginagawa iyon gamit ang mahahaba niyang daliri. Nayakap ko siya nang mahigpit dahil sa labis na panginginig na halos hindi ko na maipaliwanag ang pakiramdam na dahan-dahang kumakain sa aking sistema. It was a harsh yet slow kind of thrusting in and out that almost killed the horny me. I cried for faster ones, dying to have it in a faster way, but he never listened. He continued doing it in that way. Slow. Rough. Filled with pleasure. Ang mga pawis na nanggagaling sa katawan naming dalawa ay malayang nagkaka-isa. I can completely feel his hard chest on my breasts, almost felt like a rock. When I was about to feel something trying to come out, he pulled his finger and brought it to his mouth. Labis na namula ang aking mukha nang nakita kung paano siya napapikit habang ninanamnam ang katas sa kan'yang daliri. "Your taste never disappoints me," he mumbled as he took a step backward, leaving me with my trembling knees. I watched him sat on the couch like a goddamn deity, proud of what he has. His arms were on the backrest of the long, black sofa, waiting for his servant to come and give him a great blow. Tanging ang kan'yang itim na pants ang natitirang suot niya. Ang kan'yang buhok na tama lang ang pagkakagupit ay medyo magulo na, pero dumagdag lang iyon sa kan'yang kakisigan. Pakiramdam ko'y dahan-dahan akong nalusaw sa mga titig niyang kahit madilim, tila binibigyan ako ng sapat na kiliti dahilan kung ba't mas lalong nagsitayuan ang mga balahibo sa batok ko. The moonlight from the window on his side bathed the left side of his divine body. That come-hither gaze of his even in this dim living room almost gave me a mini heart attack. I smoothly closed our gap with my naked body. With his penetrating eyes staring right at me, I felt like my weakening soul was being sucked out of me. On my knees right in front of him, I unzipped his black pants with our eyes looking at each other. Ramdam ko ang namumukol niyang sandata na nais nang makawala. When I finally had the chance to touch its hardness, I stroke it slowly with my right hand, eyes were locked into his. Kahit madilim ay nagawa kong basahin ang kan'yang mapupungay na mga mata. Tila nalalasing sa bawat pagbaba at pagtaas ng aking ekspertong kamay. It was like glistening under the pale light of the full moon on my windowpane—filled with pure lust. Then out of nowhere, a slight pang was felt deep in my chest. Shit, no, stop! Concentrate, Valerie! You can't let him down! Before my thoughts consumed me completely, a smile carved on Oliver's sinful lips as he brushed his left hand on my honey-colored, wavy hair in a soothing way. "Suck it." I WOKE UP with no one beside me. Under the thick, white sheet was my aching naked body; hickeys can be seen in any part of it. Even in between of my breasts. Ang malaking puting kurtina na nakahati sa dalawa at ang nakabukas na sliding door ay ang siyang dahilan kung bakit pumapasok nang malaya ang sinag ng araw sa aking tahimik na k'warto. Ang iilang mga unan ay nakakalat sa sahig at makikita pa sa puting bedsheet ang iilang bakas ng nangyari kagabi. Pagod akong bumangon nang dahan-dahan, sanay na sa eksenang madadatnan sa t'wing may mangyayari sa aming dalawa. Gigising sa umaga na wala na si Oliver sa aking tabi, nagsasabing tapos na ang oras na nilaan niya para sa akin. Tapos maghihintay ulit kung kailan ako kailangan ng katawan niya. I was that temporary pleasure of his whenever his body wants me. Never been that permanent b***h he'd go home to every day. I averted my gaze to the bedside table, expecting to see a note from him just like he always do sa t'wing aalis na siya. But that disappointment ate me up when I found nothing on the table but my lampshade and phone. I rolled my eyes in annoyance and pulled myself up, the white sheet covering my body slowly fell on the floor, leaving me with nothing but a naked one. For sure he forgot about the letter. Again. Dumiretso ako sa banyo na wala na naman sa mood. Sanay na akong ganito palagi, ngunit hindi ko pa rin matanggap na kahit isang beses man lang ay magising sana akong nasa tabi ko siya, payapang natutulog at hindi nagmamadali sa pag-alis. Though I know that would be a big thing to ask from him. Oliver's a busy man. He has a company that he needs to handle from time to time. I can never be his priority, especially he has someone he can give his full attention to aside from his work. That b***h is so lucky to have Oliver's heart. Nagpakawala ako ng isang buntong hininga, tahimik na minu-mura ang sarili dahil sa awa. Minadali ko na lamang ang pagligo nang makakain na ako't maka-alis papuntang trabaho. Nang tuluyang natapos ay sinuot ko ang bathrobe at pinatuyo ang buhok gamit ang isang puting tuwalya. Natigil lamang iyon nang tumunog ang cellphone ko na nakapatong sa bedside table ko. Nang tiningnan ang caller ID, it was him. I rolled my eyes as I tapped the answer button. "What?" bungad ko sa kan'ya at tamad na umupo sa gilid ng aking kama. "Good morning." I bit my lower lip when I heard his hoarse voice from the other line. Tangina, isang bati lang niya ng 'magandang umaga' bumibigay agad 'tong kalandian ko. "Ano'ng kailangan mo?" Lumipat ang aking mata sa kaharap na full-length mirror, kitang-kita ang magulo at basa ko pang buhok. "I forgot to leave a note when I left." Yes, you jerk. "By the way, I bought you something," dagdag niya na kinabura ng inis ko instantly. Tila pumalakpak ang tainga ko sa narinig. "A-Ano 'yon?" I tried everything I can to hide my excitement. Every time he bought me something, it excites me knowing he bought it for me and me only. Pakiramdam ko'y sa simpleng bagay na iyon ay p'wede kong maipagmamalaki sa nag-iisa kong kaibigan na si Piper na Oliver thinks of me sometimes. At least. "Nasa sala, I forgot to give it to you last night before we..." He cleared his throat. "... before we did it." Wow. Ngayon pa talaga siya nahihiyang sabihin iyon nang malakas eh ilang beses na naming ginawa ang bagay na iyon? Ni hindi na nga iyon bago sa akin. I can even shout straight to his face that we had s*x countless times already. Tsk. Padabog akong tumayo at lumabas ng silid, ang cellphone ay nakadikit pa rin sa isa kong tainga. "Ano ba kasi 'yon? Saan mo nilagay?" nakabusangot kong tanong, ang mga mata'y hinahanap ang bagay na kan'yang sinasabi. "Sa coffee table, it's a small, black box." Tinungo ko ang coffee table. Napairap ako nang nakita ang sira-sira ko ng damit sa sahig. Inis ko iyong dinampot at muling hinanap ang sinasabi niyang maliit na box. Nang tuluyang nahagip ng mata ko ang bagay na sinasabi niya, marahan akong napabuga ng hininga "Nakita mo na?" Umupo ako sa kaharap na couch, itinabi ang bitbit na damit habang nakatingin sa maliit na box. "Yeah," walang-buhay kong wika at dinampot iyon. "Open it." Just like a robot, I opened the box slowly, only to see a gold necklace with a small heart pendant. Umawang ang aking bibig, hindi inasahan iyon. Madalas kasi ay mga designer clothes ang binibili niya para sa akin, o 'di kaya'y mga mamahaling sapatos at bag. Not that I can't afford it, maybe he just thought that those were the things I've wanted. Not knowing I want more than those fancy things. "Did you like it?" Oliver asked from the other line. Nilakasan ko ang volume ng phone call at nilapag iyon sa lamesa. Dahan-dahan kong kinuha ang k'wintas mula sa box nito, namamangha. It was just a simple gold necklace, but it was everything for me. "It's gorgeous," I murmured while staring at it with a wide smile on my lips. "Glad that you like it." "I'll wear it," I announced excitedly. Dinampot ko ang aking phone at pumanhik sa k'warto ko bitbit din ang k'wintas. Nilagay ko sa ibabaw ng kama ang phone at tumayo sa harap ng salamin. Dahan-dahan ko iyong sinuot. Nang tuluyang na-lock ay umayos ako sa pagtayo at tiningnan ang repleksyon sa salamin. Bumagay sa maputi kong balat ang gold necklace. Halos hindi rin iyon maaninag dahil may kanipisan ang lace nito. But overall, bagay na bagay ito sa akin. Nagustuhan ko ito. Lalo na ang hugis puso nitong pendant. It was like he's already offering his heart to me. "Thank you," sinabi ko sa kan'ya na may malaking ngiti sa labi. "I want you to wear it while we're doing it." Suddenly, my sweet smile turned into a thin line, my heart's slowly tearing apart.