Babysitting The Desired

Chapter 5 Being too Honest

Rebecca's POV

Flashback ended.. it's 5 years later...

"Hey mom, I was wondering if I could maybe hang out with Brittney.. maybe a movie or something tonight?" Eddie asks as I raise my eyebrows in suprise. "Like a date?" I see his reflection in the rear view mirror as he shyly nods.

"Yea, of course, I'll give you guys a ride, and I can give you some money to maybe get some dinner together too before the movie." I say to him as he smiles and nods.. "Thanks, mom.. That's if she says yes to hanging out with me tonight.. I was also going to ask her to homecoming."

"Awe, that's so sweet! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you, Eddie!" I say with so much excitement laced in every word. I pull up to the school as Eddie jumps up kissing my cheek and saying, "Thanks, mom. I love you."

"I love you too Eddie good luck.. text me what she says!" He smiles and nods at me. I look in the rearview mirror and see Katie looks mad. Eddie notices this too, as he gets out of the vehicle, leaving us alone. I see Katie grab her bag as I ask, "So what's going on?" She glances up at me and says, "I haven't been asked to the dance."

"Oh baby, you will get asked, and if you don't, it's ok, because everyone at some point has gone to a dance with just a group of friends.. there is nothing wrong with that at all.. But you like that Evan guy that you have been talking with, right? maybe he will ask you." I state as if it's fact as she groans and says, "Evan asked Cindy."

"Well, since he didn't ask you, he doesn't deserve you.. I bet you will get asked by a great guy because you have weeks before the dance anyways and when you do, we will take you to pick out a dress, ok?" I say to her reassuringly as she gets a small smile on her face and says softly, "Thanks, mom, I love you."

"Love you too, Kitty.. keep your head up." I say as she gets out of the vehicle. I put my car into gear, heading over to Tobias' place. I'm about halfway there when my phone starts to ring. I look at the screen to see it says my friend Ranae.

She is the other assistant who got hired on with the company the same day that I started. We got close with all the training we had to do together, and our friendship progressed from there.

"Hey girl, what's up?" I greet as I hold the phone to my ear. "Hey Becca! I wanted to see what you were doing tomorrow night?" She asks, sweety, as I respond probably way too, honestly showing how much of a life I don't have. "Just staying at home hanging out with my kids."

"Well, please come with me and some of the girls from the office.. we are going out to the bar to get a couple of drinks." I groan at her question as she begins before even waiting for my answer.

"Becca, it's been 5 years since Jeremy passed away.. he told you to do what makes you happy, so get back out there. I think you have waited long enough to do something for yourself. You deserve it, lady." She says too honestly as well because I know she is right.. I'm just scared I haven't been out on a date in a very long time.

"Ranae, I don't know if I'm ready to put myself out there, and it's not like I'm some kind of catch either, I'm a single old mom. I don't know who you think I'm going to find at the bar.. you think my Prince Charming is there taking shots of whiskey.. no, probably not." I say a little spitefully at her suggestion.

"No, I don't think your prince charming would be there, but maybe someone to give you some great d*ck so you're not so b*tchy, huh? But I think you are ready, you're just scared. If you don't think you would find someone at the bar with the girls.. then we could always set up a profile for you on a dating website." She suggests as I groan even louder and say, "I would go out with you and the girls before making a profile for one of those websites."

"Ok, so drinking with the girls tomorrow night it is.. but I think you should at least consider the online dating thing because I like the sound of.. Rebecca, the single mother of two, gorgeous personal assistant who is aching to personally get assisted.. and not by herself." She says, making me scoff at this.

"That sounds awful. I'm not doing that." I say to her as she laughs and says, "You didn't deny that I was wrong about the aching for it.. so that's means you do want to get out there and you are scared! It's nice to know I'm reading the situation right for once." Ranae says to me, making me shake my head.. because she is not wrong,

I have been aching for a man's sensual touch, but as much as I have been craving it, I still won't pick just anyone.. hence why I still haven't done anything.

I don't answer her back, just giving away the fact that she is right. She squeals in excitement as she states, "We are going to have so much fun tomorrow night! I'll even pay for pizza to be delivered to your house so you don't have to worry about your kids because they are big enough to stay at home alone." I smile and nod at this because I haven't really left them home alone, but I know they would be fine if given the chance.

"Ok, fine, that does sound fun.. ok, see you tomorrow night, I hope you have a great rest of your day, but I just pulled up to Tobias' House, so I need to get going." I say to her as she responds quickly.

"Alright, have a good day with the hottie.. I don't know how you haven't slept with him yet if you're aching for it.. but have a good day as well." She hangs up as I put my phone away and grab the folder for the day. I walk up to the front door, opening it up and letting myself in like I have been doing for years. I walk right in and hear the slapping of skin to skin as I glare over at them having sex.. I'm so sexually frustrated for sure, but I can't help but feel jealous.

I know Tobias is not mine or anything, but I have had an attraction to him for a long time, and I thought it would eventually fade away, and it hasn't.

I even thought for a while he might have liked me back because of how he talks to me every single day but he never once backed it up and even tried with me so I just never pushed it.. I see how he is with these other girls, so I'm sure if he wanted me, he would have actually tried. So I just left it alone..

After all the stunning women he brings in here anyways, there is no way a guy like him would want me anyway.. I have a mom body.. but I also won't be a notch on someone's bed post either. I wouldn't just let him sleep with me and leave me like every other girl, but I have seen for years that he is not the relationship type so obviously nothing will come of my feelings for him.. So I just decide to keep things professional and push my feelings to the side, just ignoring them.

I walk to the coffee machine to start it as I say, "Please just hurry this up Toby you have an appointment with the financial services to help with the fundraising for the Gala Charity, since it's coming up soon."

The girl that he is giving it doggie style to yells at me. "How about you? Just shut the f*#k up and get the f*#k out of here b*tch." I have a shocked look on my face, obviously not expecting that response from her... but before I can even say anything back to her. Tobias grabs her by her hair pulling her head back with a livid filled look on his face as he says with so much anger laced in his voice, "You don't ever talk to her like that again.. Now YOU get the f*#k out." He pulls himself out of her, letting go of her hair and walking out of the room to get dressed.

The girl is glaring at me as she grabs her articles of clothing that are scattered all across the floor. She looks up at me as I wave goodbye mockingly to her as she flips me off and leaves slamming the front door.

I see Tobias walking out of his room with only shorts on and his whole upper body exposed. Man, every last inch of his muscles looks so good that I just want to trace every last line with my fingertips.

I look up, and he smirks at me, noticing my gaze on him. But before he can bring attention to it I change the subject. "Well Toby, you really know how to pick the good ones, huh? She seemed like a real classy one."

"Someone sounds a little jealous.." He whispers in my ear as he passes by sending chills down my spine. I try to make it look like he doesn't even phase me as I head to the coffee pot, grabbing him a mug to make the cup of coffee he would prefer.

"Well, Beck looks gorgeous as usual.. why can't I get a girl like you? That would solve all my problems." He says to me as I roll my eyes.. here he goes again, saying this to me without meaning a word of it.. "You couldn't get a girl like me because I'm the only one like me."

"Well then, you." He says to me, winking as I scoff and stir his coffee. "Don't sit here and lie to me, Toby.. we both know this is all empty words you have been saying for years and won't act on.."

He has confusion on his face as he asks, "What do you mean, Beck?" I roll my eyes and respond back instantly, "you don't want my actual opinion, Toby."

"Yes, I do, please." He says without hesitation as I look up. He looks like he is actually intrigued by my answer, so I turn around quickly, giving him what he asked for.

"Ok Toby.. you could never have me because I'm not going to be with a man who would choose every single other girl out there before me.. I need a man who is willing to commit to me and just me and want that. I want a man who wants to spend time with me and my kids, and that is not scared of a commitment.. and I honestly don't even know if you know what a commitment is because I have never once seen the same girls' faces out of the hundreds I have seen.. I want a man who wants me and only me because he thinks I'm worth it.. but I'm really starting to think that man doesn't exist." I say, handing him his coffee, and I turn around to grab myself one.

Tobias' POV

Her honesty has always been something that I adore and wish I could do just as easily as she does. Her honestly is hard to swallow but sometimes harder to digest. But I know she is right. I haven't even tried to commit myself to just her despite liking her since the day I met her.

She would be surprised by how much I think about her, and it's to the point that the fascination I have for her has been flourishing over the years.. I've been having a hard time sexually with other women. It's been to the point that I have to think of Beck just to get off with any women or even myself.

But I thought, or at least I told myself that I was giving her the space she needed since she wasn't ready to date.. but by the sound of our conversation, I could have had her attention years ago if I had tried.. But what she doesn't know is that I have been trying to, I just can't get myself to actually do it because, like she said, I have a hard time with commitment. But I would change for her and only her.. so maybe I can actually change and prove her theory of us wrong.. but one thing is for sure.. she won't take my word, I will have to show her I mean it by actually changing.

Maybe I can start by telling her she is wrong and tell her what I really think about her and have always thought about her. I let out a deep nervous breath.

"Beck.." I say softly, gaining her attention as she turns around staring up at me with those heart-stopping, sparkling big doe eyes of hers.

I stare into them for a moment.. this is my chance, if I don't do it now then I know I won't right now. I open my mouth as her phone starts to ring.

She has a sad look.. maybe disappointment on her face staring up at me as she pulls her phone out just answering it. "Hello?... What's up, Ranae?.. You did what?" She groans and runs her hand through her hair. "I had already agreed to drinks so you wouldn't do that.." She says with irritation in her words.

"Yes, I will still go out with the girls tomorrow, but I'm not answering anyone back on that." She says as if it's a matter of fact.

"What?! Oh my God, Ranae, I'm going to kill you when I see you tomorrow. Yea, yea.. f*#k off, and I love you too.. bye b*tch." She says, hanging up the phone.

"Is everything OK, Beck?" I ask sincerely as she curiously looks up at me like she didn't expect that response from me.

She shakes her head and responds, "Ranae thinks it's time for me to try to date again and she said she wanted me to either go have drinks with her and her friends, having a night out on the town.. or setting up a profile on one of those stupid dating websites.. So I chose drinks, and she decided to make the profile anyway. When I told her I wouldn't answer anything for it, she said she knew I would say that and linked it to her email so she could answer for me."

"Do you think you're ready to date?" I ask her with some hope in my voice for the answer I have been waiting years for. She shrugs her shoulders and says, "I don't know, I would like too.. I miss being desired.. but I don't know if there is anyone out there who would honestly want me.. I'm not a catch or anything." She says as she turns back around, finishing making her coffee.

"I think you're amazing. You're a catch for sure. Any man would be stupid to not think that." I say to her, almost confessing but chickening out last second like usual.. It's crazy to me how I can sweet talk any woman except for her.. with her, my mind goes blank, and I have no idea what to even say to her.

"Yea, right.. I have been single for 5 years, and not one man has asked me out or even remotely acted interested in me.. if I was a catch, someone would want me." She says, sipping her coffee, acting like this is normal.. it's sad that this is what she thinks of herself.

"I have hit on you." I squeak out nervously as she scoffs and says, "I know you weren't serious because you're the man that has hundreds of completely random women in and out of his bed but won't take the woman 'who's a catch' at the tip of his fingers.. ok, sure.. you don't have to lie to make me feel better.. I'm realistic.. thanks anyways." She says sarcastically as she walks around the counter and sets up my computer for my meeting.

I chicken out to say anything else as I just hate on myself for a moment before I walk back into my room, putting on a pair of dark blue jeans and a button-up. I walk out of the room, buttoning my shirt up as I watch her type on the keys.

She really looks amazing doing anything. She is bent over the counter, typing away as my eyes trail from the heels she is wearing to her gorgeous thick legs that are exposed.. before the tight skirt that hugs her curves perfectly. Her shirt that is tucked into it, frills at the top and down over her chest exposing some clevage.

Her long, silky, flowing hair drapes around her face as she keeps running her hand through it, getting it out of her face for a moment. I watch her hair slowly slide back down, covering her face for a moment until she pushes it back behind her ears.

I'm making my way over to her instinctively from the natural attraction for her. I'm like a moth to the flame, but I would never mind getting burned by her.

I get close enough behind her that I get hard at her position she is standing in. I wish I could just take her right here right now because of how good she looks. Her hips adjust from side to side, leaning as she types away.

Once she finishes what she is doing, she quickly stands up, turns around, and says. "Toby?" In a sweet sounding tone that I would play on repeat because my name sounds so good coming off of her lips.

She runs straight into my frame. "I'm sorry I didn't see you there." She says, looking a little flushed at our close proximity.. I saw the way she looked at my body before, and I could hear her heart beating faster right now, so I know I have some type of effect on her, which is good.. that means I have a shot.

She stutters out, staring up at me, "The meeting is ready to go. Just push connect when you're ready." I'll be back. I have to go pick up your dry cleaning and other files for your meetings later on today, but here are the files for the funding for the Gala.. so good luck." She says, walking towards the front door as I watch her body sway from side to side.

She quickly flips around and says, "Oh yea and you need to let them know who you are taking to the gala and if you don't know, because I'm sure it will be some random girl, just say you will have a plus one until you can figure it out." She says, turning back around and out the door.

Maybe that's something I can do to ask her to go with me to the Gala fundraiser instead of a random girl like she thinks I want.