Long Lost

Maddy wakes, drenched in sweat. Remembering the past from so long ago. She was strong, independent and a lone. She choose this life from that past. No one would ever make her feel that broken ever again. 10 years had past. Wondering if she did the right thing by shielding herself from letting another man into her life. Maddy looks at the clock, 2 am. She had to be to work in just 4 hrs. She got up, got a glass of water. Zanie whined at her feet. "Okay, let's go,"Maddy opens the back door for her little girl to go potty. She watches Zanie sniff around. Maddy chose to only love animals anymore, it was safer. They were loyal and always happy to see her. Zanie was 4 years old, a mix of a Yorkie and pomeranian. Red and white. Zanie scratches at the door to be let in. Maddy opens the door. Zanie sits by the counter, knowing that her treats are there. Mindlessly I grab one and hold it up. Zanie sits, and I place it down for her to grab. She runs to her bed by the chair. I love how care feee and happy she is. My dream comes back into play. "Will you? Will you marry me Maddy?", Corey in middle of our f*****g session. We were in the mountains in the bed of his truck under the dark sky with the stars shining bright. I was seventeen and so in love with this man. I looked into his golden brown eyes. His black hair slightly wet from his sweat. Yes, I whisper, of course I will. I giggled as he drilled into my heat even harder. I let out a moan. God, I loved when he filled me up. Zanie barks, bringing me out of my trance. I shake my head. Stupid, why after ten years am I coming back to this? I look at the clock again contemplating on going back to bed or just heading to the gym. I grab my bag, put on my sports bra and head to the gym. I pat Zanie on the head and put on her doggie calming music. Once at the gym, I nod at the man behind the counter and head to the locker room. I change, get my gloves and get to the elliptical. I do my warm up. Awe, back day. I put on my heavy music, set the tone and start getting into my workout. I feel insecure most days, but back days, I feel strong. Once finished, I head back to the elliptical. I got here a hour early, I run for about 30 minutes today instead of my normal 15. I love feeling sweaty, makes me feel clean. Once home, I feed Zanie, turn the music to my morning routine and get ready for the day. I turn it back to Zanie's music before leaving. When I arrive in the garage of the hospital, I can't shake someone was watching me. I park in my normal spot, get out and start walking towards my office. My gut starts to ache. What the hell? I haven't had the feeling, not since....I stop, look around but there isn't anyone around. [ ] Corey Why haven't you found her yet? I yelled to my assistant. I had been searching for over the past 2 years for her. Sure it was 10 years later, but I was young and dumb. Never had I wanted to change my past, except for now. I had built an astounding company. One that I could make her proud of. Sure it was a lawn business, but in So Cal, it became a gold mine. I almost lost everything, the drugs had a hold. Besides my sister always pushing for me to make that side money with her man toy. Gah, young and dumb. My phone rings, I pick it up. You better have good news, I say sternly. The other line is silent for a few minutes. Its my personal line which means its either my sister, who's in jail, or the PI, I hired to find Maddy. Sir, I believe I finally found her, Roger says calmly. I'm emailing you specifics for you to verify. I hang up the phone. I'm not patient by any means anymore. My heart is racing, druming my fingers. I wait for the ping on my computer. I open a draw with the only picture I have left. Our homecoming picture. My life forever changed meeting her. Drugs and lies sent her away. It took me two years to fight my way back to being sober. She had sent me a goodbye letter. It's something that pulled me out when Megan finally gave it to me. By then I knew I had lost any chance of getting her back. My lap top pings...finally, I mutter. I open the email. What the FUCK...Texas. Why the hell is she in God damn Texas. This can't be her. Another dead f*****g end. She wouldn't ever move that far away from her family. She was too close to them, it was one of the reason I pushed her away. She had changed in the first month being away. I shake my head...in disbelief. I click on the photo anyway. Neil!! Get my plane ready...i need it charted to Austin. [ ] Maddy My job was easy most days, except payroll Mondays. You would think nurses and the phyic techs would be more appreciative. I was the assistant to the CEO, among other things. Jeff was a great boss. Independent, but when he wanted a project done, dear God, utterly a hound dog. Jenny the DON peeks her head in, hey Mad you got a sec? I peek over one of my monitors, smile and said of course. She comes strolling in. "Jeff has a project he emailed me last night. I know you're super busy with payroll, but I need help," Jenny stated. The Director of nursing is needing help, oh God this is a huge project, I think to myself. Sure thing Jen, send me the info and I'll look it over real quick, I say. "Thanks Mad, I owe you huge for this!" Jenny states turning around and walking out my office. I continue with payroll. I set myself up well on Friday so I didn't come into a cluster f**k this morning. Thank goodness. I call Amy in our payroll. Hey sending nursing payroll, call me if you see any hiccups, I say when she picks up. It was only 8am, which is a little later then usual for me, but I had a few more emails, then normal. Amy laughs, hiccups? I know you triple check, not worried about it. She hangs up. I look at my emails, Jen still hadn't sent it over. I get up and stroll across the hall. I peek into her office, she wasn't there. Jeff wasn't in yet either. I go to the break room to grab a cup of coffee. It was like a ghost town on a Monday. I go up to reception, Jane is busy answering the phone and writing her shopping list. She turns and sees me holds up her finger. I sip my coffee. Hey Maddy, sorry busy morning. What can I do for you? Jane says sweetly. Do you know where Jenny and Jeff are? Jane smirks, yeah there in the supervisor office, Jeff had to come in a couple of times along with Jenny this weekend. Oooh, got you. Okay well I'll be in my office, that isn't a conversation I want part in, I say walking away. I did payroll for the Friday and Saturday, so something went crazy on Sunday. I start going through and seeing what wasn't looking right on the schedules. As I'm pulling up the system, my phone rings. I look at it and put it on silent. It was my mom. I'll have to call her back. I don't want to listen to her whining about how far I live from everyone or that I need to settle down with a nice guy. Ever since my father passed, she has been pushing me to settle down. My sisters are all married with kids. I however went down a different path. My system is up, my door opens and Cody plops down in front of my desk. I eye him, he always has the drama, so I wait. Hey Mad, you hear the news?! He is so antsy in the chair, with a huge grin across his face. I giggled. Oh Cody, you know I don't hear s**t unless you tell me, I bite back. He laughs. Well obviously you know that Jeff and Jenny were both here yesterday? Actually no, I was just getting into the system to see what craziness I missed since they are both in the Sup office, I said snippy. Gurl, you need to get out and loosen up, you so grumpy! Cody says sarcastically. I hiss at him. He just eyes me. I wait for him to continue. Cody gets serious. Well, someone broke into the Administration office, then some how got into the Sup office. Come to find out that no one noticed until maintenance came by at 4pm. But, nothing was missing. Just some file cabinets were broken. Well our personal files were gone through, I over heard. But, here comes the juicy tidbits...reason why Jeff and Jenny are so freaked out, is that the Sup and RN in the east wing were no where to be found to report it. Maintenance had to call Jeff. Needless to say...someones was getting down and dirty. Mmmm girl, I'm surprised you don't have an email, Cody states smugly. CODY! They are probably investigating right now, it might not be what you think it is. Besides, don't you have clients to attend too? Looking at the clock then back at him. Cody is one of the social workers, mister personality himself. However he is the closet I have to a best friend since I moved here 6 years ago. Shit! Always the responsible one Maddy! Thanks see you at lunch, Cody yells over his shoulder. My attention goes back to my screen. So weird that our personal files got gone through. My phone goes off again. Its a text message this time. My best friend from home is getting on a plane to New York. I was suppose to go, but canceled last minute. I didn't want to be stuck with her new boyfriend. He gave me the creeps. Always talking about guns, money and what Tealy needed to do. The man wasn't even good looking, but then again she had a soft spot for bad boys. My redhead...only she could pick them out. I worry about her but she's heading to see Dori. I send her a message back and put my phone up. I had a ton of contracts to do for the end of the month, Doctor contracts were my specialty. Just hunting them all down was a problem. Except for Doctor Erik Hale, he was handsome, single, and a playboy. He always stopped by my office when heading home. Telling he was heading to Berg's. The little sports pub down the street. My reply, just make sure to be in, in the morning for patients. To a reply of Party pooper! I look up at the clock, it was almost 11 am. I still hadn't seen Jeff or Jenny. I check my email, nothing. I call up to Jane, she immediately says, yup still in the sup office. I laugh, thanks Jane. I needed to stretch my legs. I walk up to Jane, hey I'm headed for my walk. Ill be back in 15 minutes. Oki doki comes my reply. Its August in Austin, TX. Hot, humid and just plain miserable. But, its my peace, from home. To many sad memories. Life just hasn't been the same the past 6 years. After dad died, I couldn't stay. I had to move, be a gypsy for a bit. I had lived in California and Utah by the time I turned 21. Always going back to Idaho. Texas was unknown territory, so I headed south. Plus I wouldn't run into anyone that knew me. I could live and enjoy life. Tealy comes to visit twice a year. My family, well they haven't come once. I go up every other year. Social media when I'm on is where I see my nephews and nieces grow up. I'm to hot. I cut my walk short this morning. Besides that ache is back. I'm uneasy and I don't like being out in the open like this. I stop at the cafeteria, grab a water and head to the break room for the nursing staff.