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Branson snaps jumping out of the puddle of Puke as mum shakes her head and disappears.
“Martha Stuart! Clean up on aisle 1!”
Finn calls as he looks over the couch at me
“About time you went and got her! I swear he’s a moping i***t when you're not around”
Branson growls at him
“Come on I better get you cleaned up”
Branson sighs, pulling me down and wrapping my legs around his waist as he buries his head in the crook of my neck. Karma snuggles in and I roll my eyes at her as Branson carries us home
“I’m still mad at you”
“I’m ok with you being mad at me as long as you're at home”
“Why did you do it?”
I whisper, I can’t deny that I love the feeling of his body against my own. The tingles and the bubbles of our blood relaxed my body and made me feel at home, even though I was still annoyed at him I was happy to be by his side.
“Because I was having flashbacks and I didn’t want to associate those with you, I just wanted them to stop and touching makes it last longer”
My heart sinks, tears brim in my eyes and I snuggle in closer, pulling him into my arms tighter
“I know it’s hard but I need to know this stuff so I can help and not make it worse”
He nods his head
“I know and I’m going to tell you the entire story now, but promise me something”
“What?”
I ask him, relief floods me that I would finally know the entire truth.
“Never leave us, we made stupid mistakes when we were young, we did a lot of messed up s**t but one thing that I can promise you is, from the moment I knew you existed I never touched another purposely. I was never unfaithful”
I sniff his neck cuddling into him
“I know”
I did know that that was never the issue, the issue was him not telling me the truth so I didn’t know what happened.
“Ok then let’s talk”
He whispers, he was nervous I could feel it through the bond, he walks us into the bathroom and sets me on the counter as he turns the faucet of the bath on, he turns grabbing my shirt and he pulls it off my body
“So as you know I dated Jenny, I look back now and I see that it wasn’t love but at the time I was honestly obsessed with her, I moved her and her dad into one of the biggest houses in the pack, she asked for something I bought her it, I see that now but at the time I didn’t care”
I hold my breath not realising he was going to tell me everything, I thought he was just going to tell me about that particular night.
“Anyway I walked in on her and my best friend, he was going to be beta. They had known they were mates and they planned to set me up with Jen and have me mark her, make her Luna and then kill me, taking over, but I walked in on them and that went to s**t but after it”
He shivers, screwing his face up in disgust
“I just went wild, I didn’t turn up for meetings, I drank all day every day, I spent all night having s*x and I wasn’t even nice to them it was horrible. I was in a dark hole and I just couldn’t get myself out of it”
He pulls off his shirt and turns to check the water. Dropping his shorts and stepping in between my legs again, he kisses my nose then pulls back and continues
“Anyway the rogue attacks had gotten awful, they just kept on getting worse and worse, mum and dad were at a loss and I was taking over so it was up to me, they arranged a meeting because what they were doing for security was simply not working so I said I’d help”
He closes his eyes, I could see the pain on his face as he takes a breath.
“But I f****d up, I didn’t go, instead I got drunk and hooked up with a girl and I missed it, dad came to get me and he wasn’t even mad, I felt bad but we rearranged the meeting for that evening, I got up and went about my day but at some point, the entire security system went to s**t and a group of rogues broke through and got as far as the packhouse, I was fighting some when I noticed Cara’s little friend at the park on her own, a rogue was attacking her.”
By now he has tears in his eyes
“I tried to stop them but I was too late, I watched them as they ripped her apart then she died in my arms”
I wipe the tears as they start to fall down his cheek
“It was all my fault, I could have sorted it, I could have made it safe. But I f****d around and she died. My parents never blamed me but I blamed myself.”
I kiss each cheek, he was heartbroken about this, really really heartbroken.
“After that, I wised up, I was still a s**t but I stuck to office hours, and I never missed a meeting again. That went on for a while and in the meantime, you were born. I was so involved in work I never realised our parents were trying to keep me away from you, they knew it would be hard to stay away from you and that we would both stop sleeping and all that stuff, but one day I couldn’t settle, I just knew everyone was avoiding me so I told them I wasn’t going then I showed up and found you”
He smiles, kissing my lips softly.
“It was the all-time greatest moment of my life. Everything clicked into place, all thoughts of other girls made me physically sick even though I saw you as a little sister but I still loved you. Anyway after that, I swore off girls, but then one after the other, girls would come to the cabin, I wouldn’t let them past the front door but they would always try to get in and eventually I found out you were feeling it so I killed the next one.”
He says it like he knew he had no choice
“I hung her up so everyone could see what I would do. I later found out someone had started a pool to see who could bed me first. Then one night”
He snaps his eyes closed, pulling me tight to him and he takes a breath as I lay my hands on his shoulders. He takes a slow breath
“Do you want me to lift them?”
His eyes snap open and he shakes his head as I pull my hands back
“No, I never want that. I can feel the tingles now, both me, Bronx and my brain know it’s you. When you touched my shirt I had a flashback because I couldn’t feel the tingles”
My heart sinks as I look up at him, I cradle his face in my hand
“I’m so sorry”
He shakes his head
“It’s not your fault, I should have told you before now”
He shakes his head
“Anyway there was a rogue attack late one night, it took hours to kill them all, they just kept coming. I was exhausted and I mean by the time I got home I dropped my shorts and fell into bed and I passed out and I had a dream. Or I thought it was a dream, a nightmare.”
He shivers in disgust
“In it, I was having s*x with someone that wasn’t you, I was screaming for them to get off me, I could feel hands on my chest but I couldn’t register what was happening, then I opened my eyes and this blonde was on me, I put my fist straight through her chest and pushed her off me.”
He was shaking, he lifts me as he trembled and he carries me into the bath, placing me on his knee as he cradles me close
“I felt so violated, I was a mess, but I knew you would have felt it so I rang your dad. Just As he answered it your mum and Ali arrived, I was shaking, I didn’t know how to process it but I felt like it was my fault, I didn’t know how it happened or how I let it happen.”
“It wasn’t your fault”
I whisper, my tears now running down my face as I sat there in shock
“I couldn’t face telling you, I couldn’t face you thinking that I let it happen when I didn’t, I didn’t know if you would have believed me but most of all you saw me as this strong person who would always look after you but in reality, I couldn’t even stop that happening to myself and I didn’t want you to think that I wasn’t safe, that I wasn’t a man”
He sobs, his head falling on my shoulder as he cries. His grip on me was almost painful but I wasn’t going to stop him from doing what he needed to do. We just sit there as I hold him
“I would have never thought that. I would have gone straight over there and claimed you as mine, I would have checked everyone’s thoughts and I would have killed anyone who had any part in it”
I tell him honestly, karma was sobbing in my head
“And that’s why I love you”
He says lifting his head
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