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I turn my phone off and slide it back into my pocket, lifting my plate I bring it to the sink then I head outside to smoke. I don’t usually smoke unless I’m drinking but I felt stressed and sad, I didn’t want to even think about him but his stupid face was in my mind, every time I blink his face hits me, reminding me of how he treated me, pissing me off and breaking my heart.
Karma has completely shut me out, it was just a small moment but it hurt so bad, the way he said don’t touch me, the way he pushed my hands off him and the way his face looked. I couldn’t get it out of my head, I couldn’t comprehend the pain that went with the moment and I didn’t know why it hurt so much.
“Why don’t you tell me what happened?”
Mum says from behind me, I push my hand out to her, and she takes it as I pull my block down and let her in. After a moment she sighs
“Katy I know it feels like a rejection but it’s not, don’t give up on him”
I frown shaking my head
“I won’t ever give up on him mum. But it hurts”
She nods her head, lifting a joint as aura sits at her feet. The wolf went with her all the time, she loved it like it was a kid, Adlai was worse though, she had them In bed beside her, I don’t like anything that moves and doesn’t have skin. Yeah, I’m a werewolf that hates animals, kind of funny but still, that was me. Life was hard enough without having to worry about animals too.
“I know it hurts right now but it will get easier, soon you will know what he’s feeling, why he’s feeling it and who he’s feeling it towards, then you just become one and all this guessing goes away”
I shrug
“Yeah maybe, I just wish he would open up and tell me what happened so I could at least be more sensitive towards him”
“Maybe he doesn’t want that? Maybe he feels emasculated by what happened, maybe he doesn’t want you seeing him like that”
I look at her frowning
“You know what happened don’t you?”
She nods
“Yeah, it’s not my story to tell but he said from the start that he didn’t want you to know about it because he doesn’t want you to see him as he sees himself”
“It’s not like I’m going to turn my back on him or think he’s a p***y, I just want to understand why he feels so afraid”
She nods
“That will come with time. When Ali was attacked it took her 4 years before she could even ask for help to take away the pain and fear that came with the attack. Trauma does funny things to us, he is dealing with it in his way and we have got to let him, we need to let him heal how he feels is right”
“It took 4 years to take the pain away?”
I repeat a little shocked
“Yeah, you were there, don’t you remember? You took Ali to your world”
I think back and smile, that’s when my world was a white paradise, eventually, it was overpopulated with comic books, good memories and movies that I had stored in my brain as well as classified information that I keep locked up and safe inside my world.
I use to go there because I couldn’t feel the pain but just like my world evolved so did my power so now it’s just like walking around as an avatar, I can feel everything like I do on earth, other people can’t feel in my world, or not how they feel on earth.
It did save heartly though, gave her body a break and helped her heal when Gavin died. Gave her a chance to live and it worked,
I stopped going when it became like the world around me, only entering it if I need to, karma still uses it though, she's shut off in it right now.
“Anyway yes, it took her 4 years to trust me enough to do that, and that was 4 years of feeling safe with the boys, you have only had a few days of safe space with Branson, there were days were Dexter sat on the floor in the closet with Ali all day, from morning until night just trying to give her the safe space to heal. That’s where she felt safest so he made it safer, he talked her out of so much and into so much. It takes time and patience but it’s worth it in the end”
Honestly, 4 years of rejection sounds awful, maybe I’m making a mountain out of a Molehill but it’s the only way I know how to process stuff, but maybe what we both need now is space, space so he can heal and space so I can learn how to deal with this side of him.
“Let’s just go”
I tell mum, and she nods, taking my hand as I replace the block in my mind, dad comes out from inside and wraps his arms around her waist. Then she portals us out of there and we arrive at the back of the shop. I grin as I see many many fellow geeks all around the place, one young girl around 13 watches us with her jaw wide open
“Holy f*****g f**k you're the king and the queen!”
She stutters, I chuckle looking at my parents who were both unbothered
“This is awesome! I just started reading your comic book and it’s the best thing ever! Can you sign my stuff? And can I have a selfie?”
That got my parent's attention
“There’s a comic about us?”
The girl frowns
“Ehh yeah! It’s awesome, there’s one about the old werewolf queen and how she saved the world, it’s amazing! How do you not know this?”
Why the hell did I not know this?
“Can you show me the stuff?”
She grabs my hand and pulls me along, my parents follow after her to a booth of supernatural comics
“These are soo cool!”
I squeak grabbing 3 of everything
“So can I get that selfie now?”
She asks my parents who shrug, dad stands awkwardly smiling with his thumb up, and mum looks normal as the girl pauses to look at dad
“What’s wrong with your face, chill dude, just be normal”
I laugh as dad stretches his face then relaxes and she takes the pictures as I go through everything.
“So who are you? What powers do you have?”
“I’m their kid, I’m a hellhound, banshee, Lycan, primordial. And on Friday I become queen of the Lycan and Luna to the werewolf king”
Her jaw drops
“Holy f**k your AMAZING!”
She squeals, pulling out her phone as she starts snapping selfies with me, it doesn’t bother me in the slightest.
“Now I need you to sign everything, all of you! You guys even have T-shirts”
My jaw drops and I squeak jumping up and down
“This is amazing!”
I follow the girl around the shop and I buy 3 of every shirt, comic, and statue, I got extra for fay and Baylee, If they didn’t geek out over this stuff then they have issues, even dad was enjoying it as he sat in the corner laughing as he read the comic all about him and mum.
Mum was talking to the shopkeeper, telling him the shirts needed to be better quality and setting up a mailing list so we would receive every comic that was ever made about us.
Halfway through the day, dads phone starts to ring off the hook, he growls answering it
“What is it, Branson”
“No! She needs time just leave her be”
He growls again
“She is safe with me, she’s been safe for 18 damn years and she will continue to be until I safely return her to you unharmed”
I watch from across the shop, I couldn’t hear Branson’s side of the phone call but it still made my stomach drop.
“I’ll ring you when we get home, goodbye”
He hangs up and looks at me, wagging his finger so I would go to him, I drop my shoulders sighing as I go to dad to be scolded.
“What is going on? What did he do?”
I groan, opening up the block and I let him in, he sighs shaking his head as I pull my block back up.
“Love he’s been through so much, don’t blame him”
I growl
“I know that! But I should know what he’s been through, I should be told, I shouldn’t ever feel rejected and I shouldn’t ever feel like I can’t even touch my mate”
I stormed off to the back of the shop, pissed that he was taking his side, I go through different comics and cursed under my breath when all I can think about is him and what he would want from this shop and what I should get him. I give in lifting the things that I know he would like and I try to calm down.
A few hours later I have bags full of stuff, I leave satisfied that I won’t need to go back for a very long time. We go back to my parent's house so I could have dinner with nana, she made steak and fries and it tasted so good.
- Writer
