SECOND CHANCE IS NOT GIVEN TO EVERYONE

(I wrote this because I knew one day when you will read this. I won't be there near you to say to you that how badly I meant to say you all these. Today it's high time when I am feeling that someone needs to know about what I feel and what I think. These pages will be the ones who will know what I am feeling. If tomorrow I am gone and you are confused why I did all these here you have it. Now after you have started is all I want to say is I am sorry for everything. I lied I am sorry. I never wanted to hurt anyone intentionally but for not letting you end up in the same pain I had to lie and make you hurt. I am giving you this so that you can relive all those moments which we had. After you end up reading this, kindly burn it so that you can come over it. I am sure that when you are reading this, I am very far away from you. Don’t search for me. Let me be in past. And don't worry I have the best memories with you which will always make me smile no matter where in the whole world I am. To be honest, I hate the day when I met you. I never thought someone who came for few months in my life will make it a mess for me. I had prepared myself to be alone till the end. But as it is said planning never works if God has some other plans. I swear I never wanted to be you near me and leave you all of sudden. I tried very hard to push you away but the way you used to treat me got on my nerves and I wasn't in my control anymore. I still remember the day we first met.)   A new day of my busy life has started again. This day was also like one of the ordinary days with some important works. As always my routine was made already. It was the last project by the university before the end. Having an MBA degree was a milestone for me and for achieving this milestone the last obstacle in my way was this project. The time to do the project was here. We need to get formed into a group of three for this project. I already had a group of three idiots including me. Yeah, it was no one else except my roommate Miss Kasak Sharma and his idiotic soul mate Nishant. After an hour we were there at college to submit the list of our group members. After submitting the list we went to the lecture room where the content was going to be given. Professor was there and he said to us that we were going to be helped by our seniors in this project. It was like all of our groups were almost few and each of the group will have a senior of last batches who will lead us and there we got a shock where we got the news that 30% of our marks will be given by the senior. We were just praying that the one we get must be lenient instead of a typical bookworm and too studious. We were given a piece of paper on which the name of the leader was there. And the name was Ahaan Rathi. We were just searching for him while he was there in front of us. He was wearing a blue and white striped shirt and his sleeves were folded. That proper formal outfit with an informal style was impressive and smart somewhere. He just had a short smile on his face while he came near me and asked  “Umm, are you Anika the leader of team AKN? If I am not wrong. Hope so.” “Yeah, Yes I am Anika the so-called leader of this group. And I guess you are Ahaan sir right?” "No need of sir. Ahaan is what sounds good. So all of you nice meeting you all let's go and get our content and after that let's have an introduction in the cafe nearby if you all don't mind." “Sure. Why not, Chalte hai.” All of us nodded and collected the content. Then we went to a café and got ourselves introduced to him. "So let's start with me. I am the newest one in your group as all of you look like you are quite fond of each other. I am Aahan Rathi. My hometown is Banglore. And I was here for my bachelor's and master's. I passed my master's almost 3 years ago. I have my own house here and I have 3 members in my family including me. Me, my sister and my dad are there. My mom passed away quite earlier like almost 9 years from now. She had an accident while she was coming to surprise me as I had given my 12th boards at that time. I know it’s just day 1 and I am saying all these but as we know this project will almost take 80 days to end without any break and we have time up to 100 days. And it's a long time like I am the one who is going to be a bit awkward maybe so to get into your squad I have to let all of you know me. I hope it’s not too much.” "No no please continue. Don't hesitate we would be glad if you let us know about yourself.” I said. “After I lost my mom I was left with nothing. I went into a depression. I was blank. Everyone loves their mom I loved her too, losing her made me heartless somewhere. It took me almost 6 months to come out of it. I wasted my one academic year. Soon I realized that my dad needed me and I can’t lose him too. I bought up myself. And now somewhere I am here. I miss her but just I have stopped myself from thinking about her. I know you all must be thinking at this phrase I should be talking about the love of my life like a crush, girlfriend, ex, etc but yes I never got time for it. So now you all stop being serious and give me your intro.” “Hi. I am Kasak Sharma. I am from Kolkata. I and Nishu are going to get married soon, actually, we are engaged. He is Nishant.  I don’t have something extra with me to say. We all did our BBA from here. And now this project is just a thing which has to be done before graduation and the last moments of ours in this university together.” Kasak said. "And as she said that's the only perfect intro we can give ours," Nishant said. “Now is it me who has to speak?” I said “What should I say? I am from Biratnagar, Nepal. The one who is here just for career buildup and having some fun is me. I am here just for studying and building up a strong base. All of us stay in a hostel here. Now as these are the last moments we wanted to make it as memorable as we can. If I have to say the truth then we didn't want someone to join us as we were scared to spoil the last few days that we are going to be together. But after seeing you I feel that we would make a perfect group and I don’t know why but I do feel. Hoping I won’t be wrong.” (This was the day when we met for the first time. I never believed in love at first sight. How can you fall for one until you know their personality? For me, it's always the way you behave not the way you appear. I read a lot of romance novels and the maximum time one used to fall for the other at first sight. And for me, it was never a practical thing. So I didn’t felt anything wrong with me until the days started passing and things started to make a change in the way I used to feel.)