WRONG DECISIONS

It all started when I was 12 years old I like this particular guy but I noticed I felt nothing for me and I made some decisions which are not fall in love again, not to have any relationship so I was 16 years of age and never too late my heartbroken by any guy instead good break there's and that's how it all started. Before my sweet 16 and had to boyfriend one was a day boyfriend and second was 2 months before I was sixteen which was a secret relationship and lasted for a month during that period I was in love with my best friend and was thinking if we ever dated we won't be as close as we are and also my lesson teacher in secondary school was asking me out. On my birthday that was when my best friend asked me out but I rejected his proposal and that it's would be better if we were friends and based on my thinking I lost my best friend. He told his friends about me and they told him to put a test on me which I failed wonderful well and was heart broken and told myself I won't cry because of any guy again. While waiting for admission, I met another guy on f*******: we chatted all day and it was nice but all I did was as friends little did I know he was having feelings for me and at that time I had a boyfriend already. Joshua told his family we were dating and out of my kind heart I accepted and said his family wants to see me. At this time I noticed I had issue with saying no, so any boy that comes to ask me out it's always a yes, after my best friend left me heartbroken I met this guy who was at the point of death because his girlfriend dead so his cousin begged me to help them out because he doesn't talk to anybody, crying every night and wearing black. The very first day I called he thought I was his late girlfriend because we have the same voice but he was busy and said he would call me back which he did later that night, he asked how I got his number but I lied because his cousin told me not to let him know. We talked when ever he was less busy and we started dating. A terrible day came when I had to tell him how I got his number and after I did, he locked his room and scattered his room and cried and didn't pick my call for close to an hour but later I explain to him why I had to lie and I don't want him going back to his former self, so we continue the relationship with no lies but I didn't tell him I had five boyfriends already because I didn't want to hurt him and I was also having feelings for him.