you are mine

chapter 5

Diwakar on the line -

“Hey it’s me. How are you? And how’s the trip going?” I asked him.

“I am good without you here and give the phone to mom” he answered me rudely. His tone and his way of answering just got me on nerves! So I replied back “yeah me too. you scumbag!” And then handed over the phone to my mom and returned to my room. My mom was yelling at me for my reply to him but dad didn’t say anything as he knows that I won’t say such a thing if he doesn’t trigger me. I just didn’t listen to her and entered my room, my mom started speaking to him as I shut my door and locked it.

I was in a good mood and this jerk just spoiled it in seconds! Whatever he does doesn’t matter to me and I won’t ask him about how it is going anymore. “Ok just relax yourself Diwana he’s a jerk by birth and don’t think about him anymore” I said to myself and calmed down a bit. I saw the time, it was already nine o’ clock. I want to speak to Aaron, he’ll be free by this time and speaking to him would really make my day.

I moved to the table and picked my phone up and checked for any messages from him. He texted me --

HEY, DIWA BABE

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

CALL ME IF YOU ARE FREE

WAITING FOR YOU!! (With a winking emoji) 8:30 pm

I texted him back -- JUST THINKING ABOUT YOU RON!! 9:03 pm

Then I made a call to “my life”. I saved Aaron number as “my life” because I love him so much. The call said ‘the number you are reaching is busy’. Then I just ended the call and sat on the chair beside me. Nothing came to my mind at that time other than Anusha, I hate this moment about me thinking that there’s a chance that Aaron might be speaking to Anusha! I wanted to escape this thought so I kept on thinking with whom he might be on call at this time. It’s over two minutes since I called him, he didn’t even cut the call and call me back. I kept on thinking whether he was on call with Anusha or else with someone or something that’s important.

My mind was totally f****d up with so many thoughts. By that time mom knocked my door, asked me to open the door and speak to Diwakar as he is going to end the call. I didn’t respond to her as I was totally lost in my thoughts, moreover I don’t have anything to speak with him. Mom kept on knocking the door hard, it irritated me more. Then she asked me to at least open the door and respond to her properly. Then I opened the door with my irritating face and asked “what is the problem and why are you keep on knocking the door?”

Mom scolded me “I kept on knocking because you are disrespectful and not answering to me. Your brother went on a trip and he might miss you. You didn’t even speak to him properly and you called him scumbag. You should tell me what’s you problem?”

I answered her “he’s not missing me. He is enjoying there without me, he said that by himself. I asked him how the trip was going, he didn’t even respond to it and asked me to give the phone to you. Tell me what should I do now? Better nag him for his attitude and not me” with a loud voice.

“Calm down both of you. It’s not only her mistake honey, Diwakar was the one who started it. She spoke to him nicely but he didn’t respond to her properly that’s the problem. And you Diwana you should have spoken to him when he wanted to speak to you, that’s why your mom kept on knocking the door. Next time talk to him properly and behave properly with your mom. Now go and sleep tight. Don’t think about this. Good night!” said dad.

“Yes at least speak to him properly next time and don’t keep this attitude it’s not good for you. Good night!” said mom. After a few seconds I said “Sorry for behaving rude to you mom. Good night both of you” with my shaking voice. I was just feeling bad about myself at that time for behaving that way. Then mom and dad moved to their room. I went to the kitchen to drink some water to calm down myself from the things around me. I bought a glass of water, sat on the dining table and drank the water. Then I was just glaring at that glass with my blank mind thinking about nothing….

Nothing means nothing. No thoughts about Aaron or Anusha or my brother or my attitude towards my mom…. Nothing just blank mind...

After a few minutes I went to my room and locked the door. Then I rushed to see if there’s any missed call. As expected I had two missed calls and it’s from Aaron. He called me back after fifteen minutes. I gathered all my questions in my head and called him back. This time he took the call immediately and I was ready to shoot the questions that bothered me but he started before me. “Hello love! What are you doing? Sorry I didn’t answer your call because I was speaking with Anusha about the maths quiz competition which is within this month and we have to prepare for it.”

I was just listening to him and after hearing her name just made me angry and jealous. I don’t know how to react to this whether I should be sad that he was talking with someone whom I don’t want him to get close or happy that he is so transparent to me, he didn’t hesitate to tell me even after I doubted about him for speaking with her earlier. I just stayed silent since my mind is like a tangled thread and don’t know what to say.

“Hello diwa diwa. Hello diwa are you there? Diwa...” he called me three to four times and then I responded “yeah! Am here”. “Ok what happened? Why were you silent and didn’t say anything? Did you get caught in home? Or something else bothering you?” he repeatedly questioned me. I said “it’s nothing like that am just zoned out in my world. There's a thing which is bothering me”. “what’s that? Tell me we could solve it” he replied. “I was thinking that Anusha and your maths quiz is more important to you than me. You were speaking about quiz, its ok. But when you receive my call you didn’t bother to answer me and you called me back after fifteen minutes.” I said with a disappointed voice. “Hey, babe is this what’s bothering you? Then please don’t. We started our conversation just a few minutes before your call. She was describing about the stages and the type of questions they would ask. We were in the middle of it, so I thought of calling you after finishing it. I thought you would understand that’s why I called you later.” He replied with a soft tone.

“I can understand and trust you Ron but the thoughts are bugging me, that’s it.” I said. “Oh I see. Here afterwards you are my priority i won't speak with anyone while you are calling. How does it sound? Moreover I didn’t speak anything other than maths quiz with Anusha.” He replied. “Ok. Now am better. Leave that for now. You said that three of you were selected but it seems like you two are only discussing things.” I questioned him. “Yes. It seems like she called him first and discussed with him about it. After that only she contacted me.” He said. “Ok prepare well for the competition as you are going to represent our school” i replied. “Yeah sure. What were you doing this whole time?” he asked.

I described everything happened today after school about Ryan, mom, Diwakar… everything to him. We just had a long call filled with laughter’s and he consoled me for the things I felt sad about. Then we ended the call as it’s time for us to sleep and i went to bed.