Chances

Chapter 5

FLASHBACK

     The tears rushed down my cheeks as I ran. I quickly opened my car and ran in.

     I started to drive. I couldn't stop the tears as I drove. I placed my hand on my barely visible baby bump.

"I'll always be there for you," I whispered," even if he isn't."

     I hastily parked my car in my parent's driveway. They'll understand.

     I pounded on the door.

"Mommy, Daddy," I cried out," Please help me."

    The door swung open to reveal my angered parents.

"A- Alex he- he kicked me out," I stammered.

"We know," my dad said in a monotone voice.

"W- what's going on?" I whispered.

"You are just a gold-digging slut aren't you?" laughed my mother.

"W-what?" I stuttered.

"You're a nothing but a motherf*cker," my father said.

"No- no, Daddy please I didn't cheat on him," I begged.

"Sure," my mom said sarcastically," now leave."

    A sob escaped my mouth as I ran away. Why? Why is this happening to me?

    I ran to my car and drove away again.

    I know. I can go to Meg, Leanna, Daniel, and Bethany. My closest friends.

    Once again, I didn't bother to park my car straight. I ran inside the open door. To find my friends all drinking beer together.

"She's a w***e," Meg laughed.

"Right?" agreed Daniel.

"I knew this would happen," said Bethany.

"Maybe she didn't really cheat," defended Leanna.

    I let out a sigh of relief knowing someone cared. Then again, maybe she just didn't want to take sides. I ran out. Still, no one cares. I was still alone.

    No one was there for me. No one.

~•~•~•~

"Mrs. Ryder are you ready to go through with the divorce?" my lawyer, Matilda Sawyer, asked.

"It's now Ms. Roland," I stated," and yes."

    More tears ran down my face as I struggled to keep it in.

"Very well, do you wish to take any amount of Mr. Ryder's possessions? You are entitled to half of it," asked Ms. Sawyer.

"She's just a gold-digging slut, I bet she'll take whatever she can get her hands on," remarked Alex.

     A sob escaped my mouth. What did I do to deserve this? The waterworks increased. My lawyer shot me a sympathetic look.

"Ms. Roland," scolded Alex's lawyer," Compose yourself."

"I don't want anything," I whispered.

     I don't. I really don't want anything. Marrying Alex was a dream come true. Being pregnant with his child was happily ever after. Being divorced for no reason proved my point of 'too good to be true'

     I watched a face of pure shock appear across Alex's and his lawyer's face when I admitted my lack of will for his belongings.

"Are you sure?" asked my lawyer with a sympathetic tone.

     I silently nodded my head.

"Please step forward and sign the papers," said Alex's lawyer nonchalantly.

     I quickly stood up and signed the papers hesitantly. I was so weak. Despite him hurting me, I still loved Alex. He was my world.

     I left silently, not waiting for anything. I was stopped by Alex holding my arm.

"What?" I snapped.

"Take some money. You need it," he said with vacant, dull eyes.

     I wanted to find some emotion. Something to tell me he still cared about me. But, his eyes, they were just empty.

"I don't want your filthy money," I spat.

"Then why'd you cheat on me?" he yelled.

"I didn't!" I defended," I love you too much!"

     I ran away crying before he could say or do anything.

"Isn't that why you cheated? For my money?" he yelled.

    That was the last time I saw the love of my life in person.

~•~•~•~

      Tears streaked my face as they wouldn't stop falling. I hurriedly press the crosswalk button and walked across the street as I wiped the tears spread my face. Why was my life suddenly so messed?

     Suddenly the screeching sound of tires came. An immense pain was felt on the right side of my stomach. I cried out in pain.

     All noises suddenly stopped. My vision went blurry, before going out.

~•~•~•~

     I awoke with a throbbing head. My body ached in various places. I found it hard to contain my vomit.

     I jerked my head forward as the barf flew out. That was it, vomit lay all over my bed and hospital gown.

     I placed my hand on my stomach. Is my baby okay? Please say so.

"Mrs. Ryder," said the doctor," I see you're awake."

"I am," I said," And it's now Ms. Roland. Is my baby okay?"

"Babies," he corrected.

"Babies," I smiled. I'm having twins!

"Sorry, I shouldn't have given you false hope," he sighed. My once joy-filled face was replaced by a frown.

"One child died in the accident," he said.

     I felt my world come crashing down. First I lose my husband, then my family, followed by my friends, and now my baby.

"I'm deeply sorry Mrs. Roland. Is your husband here?" he asked.

I sighed," My husband left me."

"Oh, I'm terribly sorry. But luckily, we saved the other child. Would you like to know the baby's gender?" he said.

     I nodded my head.

"It's a boy!"

~•~•~•~

"Please sir," I pleaded," I need this job."

"Sorry Ms. Roland," the store manager said," We don't give jobs to well-known people with a bad reputation."

"Please sir," I begged," I'll do my job with such efficiency."

"Sorry Ms. Roland, no can do," he said before leaving me in the empty interview room.

     That was it. No husband, no parents, no friends, no twins, and no job. How will I support my baby?

~•~•~•~

    I scrolled through all my emails. Most of it was junk from my husband's co-workers calling me a slut.

    When I heard a ping, I scrolled to the tops of my emails to find the letter that changed my life.

    I silently read. I wanted to be happy, but I couldn't. Either way, I couldn't believe it. I was utterly shocked.

    Andre Ryder died. Alex's grandfather left everything to me. It made sense, Alex only visited him when I made him. And I visited every day even after my divorce.

With his money, things started to look up for me.

FLASHBACK OVER

     And that was it. I started my business. As my business grew so did my baby Andre. I used work as an outlet for my pain. I vowed never to let someone back in. To never let someone see my pain. Henceforth, I became the Ice Queen.