Picking up the pieces

From the Ashes

I walk back out into the hall closing the door behind me. I can see people starting to mill about again so the game must be just about over now. I look from side to side trying to catch my mate but can't see him anywhere. I do however see my friends and it looks like they are looking for me.

"Hey" I shout out to them. They both look relieved to find me. " where have you been?" " What happened?" they ask in unison.

"I found my mate! we got a little distracted" I say as I feel my cheeks turning red again. " I woke up and he was gone tho so I decided I would go find him.' I said . " omg! omg! omg! both Stacy and Amanda squeal. Before they can get another word out though I catch his sent again. "follow me guys" I say and start in the direction his scent takes me. we set off on our way back towards the stands. that's weird I thought. I wonder why he came back here while I was left in the room asleep. We round the corner to the bleachers and I see him. Dimitri sitting on the bleachers with his arm around the one and only Brittany. What does he think he is doing? I am his mate! " oh f***ing hell no this is not gonna happen. MINE!" I say and Stacy looks at where I am looking. Please tell me that's not your mate with Brittany". "oh it is and I'm going up there" I fume. " we are right behind you girl. we got your back" Amanda tells me. God, what would I do without my friends being such a great support system about everything and anything. they always have my back no matter what. "he must catch my scent on the breeze because he looks up to see me with a glare. WTF is his problem? I finally make it up to them and ask "what are you doing with her? touching her like that?'".

"This is Future Alpha Dimitri son you will speak to him with respect. you are nothing and don't matter so be gone. I'm trying to spend some time with my future mate" Brittany says. I can't help it I see red and my wolf starts awakening again. she howls out in confusion and anger. I'm so close to shifting I can barely hold her back. she wants Brittany's blood. She would die for trying to take what's ours!

"MINE!" I growl. I go to lunge but Stacy and Amanda hold me back. "ENOUGH" Dimitri roared!

"who do you think you are Anita? You are nothing! you have no standing in this pack you just a regular wolf. what makes you think you are good enough for me. I need someone of Alpha blood to be my luna, someone strong. you are weak. I, Dimitri Vagas, reject you, Anita Bennette, as my mate and future luna."

He said them. He said the words no one ever wants to hear. he just rejected me, his fated mate for that b***h Brittany. I can feel my soul-shattering. breaking into such tiny pieces that there is very little chance I will be able to put them back together. he took my innocence and rejected me. left me shattered for all to see. This can not be what breaks me I will not let him see the hurt he caused me. to see the pile of ash that is left behind. I will not crumble before them. one tear escapes but that are the only one I allow to fall.

"I will never forgive you for this. you are nothing me and will never be more than the goddess's mistake. I, Anita Bennette, accept your rejection. I can't wait for these 2 weeks to be over and you will be gone from my life forever.'

I take one last look at Dimitri and see a look of shock. like he expected me to fight for him or beg for acceptance. I will not grovel for someone who wants to throw me away for trash. I turn and start to head to the car. Stacy and Amanda are quietly following behind me. we get in the car and I can't hold the tears anymore.

"oh Anita," Amanda says with tears in her eyes.

"I can't talk about this right now guys I just need to go home. I need time to think and be alone." I cry. 

the drive back to my house felt like it took forever but was actually shorter than normal. I really hope my parents aren't sitting on the couch so I can make a quick entry and run for my room. I tell the girls I will call them tomorrow and I get out. I get to the front door and pause trying to collect myself. I hurry inside and walk straight to my room without acknowledging my parents. Amara is whimpering and howling in pain inside my head. I can't believe this is happening. I shower as the tears finally stop and I get dressed for bed. I lay down and try to sleep but my head won't stop. my thoughts are going a mile a minute. what am I going to tell my parents? how will my life go now that I mateless? what will I do? I finally start to drift off when an unbearable pain appears out of nowhere. It hurts so bad I have to bite my lip so hard I taste blood so I don't scream. I know what's happening my mate is having s*x with someone else. I have heard stories about this pain and they don't do the pain justice. before I know it I pass out because I can't take it anymore. everything goes black and the last thing I hear is Amara saying we will be better off without him. we are stronger than anyone knows and that she loves me. we will survive this the only way we can. together. when we wake up everything will be changed forever and I don't know what will happen but I know I am better off without Dimitri in my life. if he wants Brittany then he can have her. we sleep without any dreams and for that, I am thankful because I don't need to relive that nightmare again when my eyes are closed because we all no im going to be living this nightmare while I'm awake.