The Luna of my Heart

Cael

This feeling inside is killing me. I already love her with all of my heart, but at least now I know I was an i***t for thinking that the pups were hers. Though, Gamma Bear said that she is part of his family and I hate him! This is almost worse, having to raise someone else's pups would be easier than knowing that she is part of Gamma Bears family. 

I don't want to reject her, I want to be with her, but I wanted to be Gamma. How do I do this? How do I win, how do I get my mate and be Gamma without her hating me?

I know the others also want to be Gamma, but I am better suited for it. I am stronger, I know it. 

She walks around with the pups as though she doesn't smell that I am here. Laughing and talking, like she is so happy, ignoring me, even though I am standing just five feet away from her. It makes me mad! She should be panting after me, maybe Gamma Bear put her up to this. I will make him pay!

I walk towards her, and bump into her as I walk past. "Mind out the way!!" I say nastily. As I stop at the buffet table, and I look at her out of the corner of my eye, I see how hurt she looks and my heart cracks a little. She is the only one that will be able to fix it. So why am I hurting her? I need to speak to the guys, we need to take over. Bear is too old to be Gamma anymore! I must just keep Milia a secret from them.

I left the celebration earlier that I would have, and I know the guys saw me leaving and came with me. 

We met around the corner from the training centre.

"We're bust! The only way that we will be able to fight for Gamma, is to FIGHT for it!" said Brutus vehemently. "We take it, by force!"

"We have got to plan, we don't want to be hated as Gamma." I say. "We need to take it without anyone knowing that it is underhanded. It needs to look fair. We have learned that in a fair fight, none of us will beat him, he has trained to long and fought with too many. He knows every move that there is."

"I say we just go one night and bust into the house and slaughter the lot of them, him, his mate and everyone in the house. Specially that new porcelain doll that is looking after the young pups. That she-wolf is nothing but trouble. Thank goodness she doesn't have a mate here. This will make them weaker, with only Bear to protect them." Than says. 

I make sure to not make eye contact with any of them as he speaks, pacing and rubbing my chin, fooling them into thinking that I am planning what to do. I am the more strategic one in our small group. This is another reason I know I will make a better Gamma than the others. None of them are capable of training the troops in strategy. Their combat is pretty weak too, if I really think about it, it is only because they are always fighting together that they can win. They will outnumber their opponent to overpower and win.

"We will not murder innocents! We want to build this pack into one that is stronger. Those pups are not so young and when they grow up, they might be mates to some of us or one of the younger pups. We need as many numbers as we can gather. We will not hurt an innocent, simply to get to him, they would be witnesses that would be able to tell everyone that we are effectively mutiny against the Alpha by doing this. It has got to look like an accident." I say.

"But, how.." Cain starts.

"No but! Everyone will go and think of what our options for a next move can be. We will get back together again at dawn to talk. Around the oak, it will be quiet enough and is far enough so that someone walking around shouldn't be able to hear before we know they are coming, the waterfall will help cover our scent and noise, as always." I say.

As everyone leaves, I sit down and wonder how I will stop them from attacking in the middle of one night, slaughtering everyone, including my mate. What if they decide that I want Gamma position all to myself, which I do, and leave me out of their plans. I will have to make sure that I count my words and make sure that not one of them know how I feel about them and definitely do not find out about my mate. I have got to protect my mate, without seemingly protecting her. How can I carry on being horrible to the woman I love?

I had to see her, see what she was doing. Maybe, just maybe, she did want me. Only... I was the one who shook my head at her, who hurt her first, and then again. Sigh...

 I slowly neared the celebration, I could smell her from here, cinnamon and vanilla. It smells amazing! I can see a lot of the party from here, but I don't see her. Where is she?

I hear a sniffling to my right, and look  around the corner of the tree. The smell of cinnamon and vanilla hits me and I see her sitting on a rock about fifty feet away from me, crying softly. Without another thought I run to her and put my arm around her, "Are you hurt, what happened??" I say gently. 

She startles and looks up, she is so beautiful, the moonlight shines on her face, showing me that her pert little nose is red and there are tears on her cheeks, her eyes are violet with dark purple flecks in them. Her eyes show love for a moment, then turn to shock and fear. I did that, my mate is looking at me as though I am going to hurt her.

I want to take all her pain away, I take her face into my hands and kiss her gently, her lips are soft and pliable. She tastes as good as she smells. I never want to stop kissing her, as I let my tongue run over her bottom lip she opens them for me and I slide my tongue inside her mouth. Ah, bliss, there can be no better feeling in my life. She whimpers and moans with pleasure, her arms around my neck.

My hands move down to her breasts of their own accord, cupping her breasts and running my thumb over her hard n*****s. I slip my hands lower and feel that her shirt is not tucked in, I slide my hand inside the shirt and feel her soft breasts, not even covered by a bra. Perfectly perky, young breasts. I tease her n*****s and want more. No one will see us here, we are surrounded by bushes. I grab her hips and put her down on the soft grass, lifting her shirt I cover her n****e with my mouth, she grabs my hair and moans as I pleasure her with my tongue. I want to taste her core, taste the essence of my mate, I kiss a trail down her stomach towards her pants. Slowly I move the elastic band of her pants down, realizing she is not even wearing any other underwear. This makes me even more hard than I already am, my fingers slide over her, lightly touching the hairs that cover her, making her shiver. 

I use my finger to gently part her folds and hear her intake of breath at my touch. I move my tongue to lick her and she moans, pulling my face closer to her and moving with me. Riding my face, I stick my tongue inside of her core and move in and out with her grinding my face. Oh, what pleasure this is, I want to make love to her and mark her, feel this every moment of my life.

I look at her over her mound, and see her eyes sparkle with love and happiness. I move up to kiss her again and pull my pants down so that we can mate. I move up and start kissing her again, my shaft at the entrance to her core, she is so wet that I start sliding in so easily. She is tight and as I move into her she gasps and moans with pleasure, pulling me closer with her legs, making me go deeper, until I can feel that I am touching her most inner core. 

We are both panting with pleasure and I start to move inside her, she whimpers and I can feel her tighten around me, I look into her eyes and see galaxies as she cums, she bites her bottom lip, so she doesn't scream. I c*m as move faster, feeling as though I am flying through those galaxies in her eyes with her.

This has been the most exhilarating experience ever! I never want to stop feeling this way. 

BOOM! 

We get a fright as the fireworks start going off and then giggle together. I shake my head and realize what I had done! 

"No!! This was not supposed to happen!!! NO! What have I done!" I say harshly.

I get up and put my pants back on in a hurry, almost falling down. 

"This is where you are meant to be!" she says angrily. "You are my mate, we should be together." 

"This is not part of my plan!" I say back. "This will not work!"

"How can you make love to me and then say this was wrong??!! This was amazing, this is what we are supposed to do, we Need to be together!" she stresses the words. 

"I will not ruin everything that I have worked for, just because of you!" I shout and run away. 

I hear her crying and keep running, thinking that I am a total i***t! What have I done, why did I go back to the celebrations. How will I now keep away from her, knowing how good it feels to be inside her.

Calling myself all types of i***t, I run into the forest and towards the lake. I have got to wash her scent off of me. If one of the guys even gets a whiff of her, I will have to explain fast. Why, oh, why did I go back?