Regrets

Fear

I cried for the whole day. I ate nothing neither do I drink anything.

Mia's father and mother were busy people that's why they were not at home yesterday.

What if they know about me? What are they going to do. This thoughts were killing mia entirely. 'I can’t sleep.' Just can cry for what had happen.

the next morning mia woke up and went to the bathroom mia was looking towards the reflection again. she was lost. she saw the scars and can’t handle the pain she was having in my heart. she started scratching my wounds wildly they started to bleed. she wanted that marks to be erased. she cried for his touch to be washed away .

Screamed again and again.

Mia turn the hot shower on her wounds they were burning they were hurting. But were not more then the pain in heart, was not more then the disgusting touch of him, was not more then her regret, was not more then the fear in her., that what if they all know about it.

she took the shower for 30 minutes. she was weak . There was blood in her shoulder. she decided to wear the bathrobe till they dry up.

after some time there was a knock on door it was Bianca. My brother called her to make me feel comfortable.

“hey! Kiddo,” said jarrod.” I don’t know what’s wrong?” “ I don’t want to see you like this please..... open the door”. “You can talk to Bianca”. I know my brother is worried but I can’t open the door.

how can I say them that I can’t talk. I don’t wanna talk. Things are worse, and I dint replied. For a week she dint respond to her mom or dad or any other. No Bianca no nothing. Just she and the party night.

I decided to go out I can’t stuck here forever. I still have pain the guilt. And, my room was now filled with the demos. I wanna go out....I am tired .....I am weak.... When I finally stepped out. They all were stressed about me but none asked because they thought if they will then the situation will be worse. Atleast I am a little fine by knowing they will not ask. I stayed quiet and my brother told me that Bianca is waiting for me. I can’t face her I can’t face Bianca no, I can’t go. I was getting too worried and somehow he noticed it and said.”but, I thought you would like to come with your i***t brother”. I said nothing just nodded and he drop me to the school.

bianca is my best friend but will she believe? I am afraid that what if I lose her, what if my mother and father come to know about it? I was transferred in the world of fear. Thought of darkness and, useless hopes.