Regrets

Abortion

I waked up at a different place. I was lying on a bed and was feeling a little cold . I grabbed my head with one hand and found a bathroom. I turn the tap on and was flashing my face and then I notice my clothes are changed. My memory began recollecting. I remember I saw Liam. Did he????...... no no... I was scared to my spine. Did he touched me again? What happen? I was so confuse when all of a sudden I hear a knock.

“can I come in.” The voice was familiar to me. But how someone related to me be here. I stepped out of the bathroom and saw Bianca. I went running towards her and hugged her tightly as I hugged her my tears started to flow. I saw her like an angel right now. I have nothing beside her I hugged her like I will never let her go and she hugged me back. I can understand what are friends for.

“bi-a-Bianca”, I sobbed

“shhhhhh!” she said. She hold me and make me sit on the bed and told. “ clam down. You are here with me”. Jarrod told me everything I brought  you here”. The word healed me and then I asked her

“what happen to my clothes?”

“Look they were very wet you might have caught cold” I changed them,” “ don’t worry you are at my home with me.” She said with a pleasant smile I want right now the sympathy which no one else gave me yet. But, suddenly a fear grew onto my face and I can only ask her one thing.

”Bianca li-liam”, o was very afraid by the night. She put one of her hand on my shoulder still the pleasant smile. “don’t worry I am here for you.” Then Bianca get up and said “Mia we have to talk about something very serious”. “And for sake of all I guess it would be the best option for you to” she stopped I was worried what was she about to say?

“what to?” I asked.

“to abort the baby” she said. I heard her I know that this baby will not have anyone else beside me. But should I give up on this little creature? I thought again and again. Bianca stepped out and told me “have some rest we will talk about it later.”

that night I kept my hand on my stomach and can just remember when I was thinking about fear and all a drop felt on my stomach. That drop was not going out of my head neither the words of Bianca. I am so condpfused that am I gonna do? This will be good idea to abort the baby? I was saying yes to the baby and no to the baby. I don’t know why would someone even like to keep a remembrance of a r**e. I was just thinking about it and drifted to sleep.

next morning I waked up I took the shower and was staring at my reflection and decided what I will do of this baby. I was just staring and thinking about the baby. I stepped out wore clothes and went down to meet Bianca. Bianca dint asked me anything just feed me and afterwards she asked again.

”what do you say?” I know what she is talking about but I don’t know why I thought to play dum and I asked her “about what?”

and that word again flip out of her mouth “the baby”. A cold chill passse me and I was about to decide something important something very important.