WHEN I REALISED I WAS IN LOVE

I have always been the none boyfriend girl, I felt, it was baseless having a boyfriend in high school because i believed that i did not have anything to offer in relationship. I felt that if i had to be in a relationship, i should be ready to bring someone into my life and that i should be able to make their life plans, goals and dreams as important as mine. Yeah, youths thinks that borin, so i was labled boring. Obviously, it is boring, how cant a young woman who is just in her early twenties not be dating or having s*x with any cute, hot, rich guy who ask for her number. Absolutely not my thing. I believe that s*x is so sacred that i could not even imagine myself doing it outside marriage. Thats it, so i was waiting till i was married to finally experience what it felt like. Dont get me wrong, to me i dont see how possiblely interesting it is to share the most intimate part of you with someone that you are not married to, not to talk of what people my age do these days . A whole lot of things , from hooking up with complete strangers to having s*x buddys which is just for meaningless s*x. To me it is really hard to swollow, but someone once said that . IF YOU WANT A CHANGE BE THE CHANGE. So i am living my life by my own terms. If every one could be doing whatever they want in the name of having fun, well i also have the right to be a mama G.O that means in informal terms PASTORS WIFE The truth is that i am actually a very crazy person, its just that my crazy is not the type that involves seducing guys or falling for them. I am a really hard to get kinda girl, i am so hard to get that they even have the courage to come. Well I dont care because i am still really trying to give my life a very stable stance and until that . f**k every other thing . I am absolutely, enjoying being single. And i pity anyone who cant spend a day alone with themselves or anyone who thinks that they need a man to be complete. The actual truth is that you need to have a self to be able to welcome someone else into you. So, if you dont have one, i am so sorry for you. Well for me i am what the world calls" the indepent woman" I have heared a lot of people say, what if you finally get married and your husband cheats on you , what are you going to do? After all the wait, the committment, all the the monogamist shits. I dont really know what i will do. However, I for sure know that it will be over...seriously over. So now what is the reason for all the saint act when at last you will do what every one else is doing. What will you do if after being so faithful you partner cheats on you.