This one word made me freeze in my place. I stared at him leaving the house and slamming the door behind him.
With frustration and despair, I smashed the table with all the glasses and dishes down, threw the flowers, and destroyed all the decorations which took two days to prepare with the help of the twins.
With a small thud, I fell to the ground, feeling fire burning in my chest. I was alone at home, so I didn’t care about lowering my voice while I was wailing, feeling something broken inside me.
How many nights did he come home late with Jane’s scent on him? I even noticed some of her hair straits on his jacket, when I faced him with all of this, he kept saying that I was delusional and made up things.
I buried my head between my hands and screamed in frustration.
How have things changed between us to this? He used to love and pamper me. I can still remember the first time we met clearly. That day I was at a bar with my friend celebrating her birthday with our school colleagues and my sister Luisa when my gaze fell on a tall handsome guy with the most beautiful blue eyes I had ever seen. He was the most attractive guy in the bar. I couldn’t take my eyes off his face.
My friends and played truth or dare, and I always considered myself bold, so I chose dare, and they asked me to pick a man and kiss him my first kiss.
That was cool at that time, and I knew exactly who the man I wanted to kiss was, but contrary to usual I felt a little encouraged, what if he refused me?
I stared at him, he was sitting by the bar with a blond woman and a guy holding a cocktail in his hand. I gabled then walked towards the bar. My friends were encouraging me from afar.
When I reached the bar, I felt awkward. How would I ask him to kiss? Maybe should I have chosen another man who caused me less stress.
I just stood there and couldn’t do it, it was more embraced than I thought. I was about to turn and go back to my friends' table when he noticed me and asked with a charming smile, “Hey, beautiful!” His horse voice tone sent shivers throughout my body.
I said directly, “Can I kiss you, please?”
He sized me up and down, then smiled and asked hoarsely with a spangle in his eyes, “Can I ask why?”
My heart stopped when I noticed his cheek dimple when he smiled and I stammered, “Fri.. My friends.” then gestured in my friends' direction and continued, “It’s a game with my friends.”
The woman beside him sneered with disdain and said, “Teenagers!”
He asked me, “How old are you, beautiful?”
I lied, “Twenty-three.”
The way he sized me up and down made me nervous, did he suspicious about my age? The heavy makeup I wore absolutely made me look older than seventeen years old.
Suddenly, he grabbed my hand, placed me in his lab, and without giving me a warning, he pressed his lips to mine.
At first, his kiss was soft and gentle, but gradually, it grew more demanding. He roomed my mouth with his tongue. And as a girl never been kissed before, I gave him the lead. His perfume made me almost immersed in his embrace.
I never felt that attraction to a man, even though my colleagues at school were trying to date me, but I never saw them as real men. But this man!!
However, he didn’t stop, his hands were searching my body which was laying in a submissive on him.
“Go and get a hotel room,” said the guy who was with him with a smirk.
It seems his friend's voice made him regain his composure. He rested his forehead on mine and whispered with a heavy breath, “Would you join me this night? At my place?” He put a stray strand of my hair behind my ear and added, “I don’t want to take you to a hotel, I prefer my apartment.”
Everything happened so quickly and I didn’t know how I agreed right away.
I just nodded with flushed cheeks.
“Then, I’ll be waiting for you in my car after ten minutes. It’s a black Lamborghini,” he said, caressing my cheek.
I went back to my friends' table to take my purse. I asked my sister Luisa to sleep at one of our friends’ house and tell our parents that I was with her.
“What if he was a woman’s serial killer?” Luisa asked with concern.
I didn’t know why I felt comfortable with him that easily. I wasn’t a person who trus people quickly. I reassured her that everything would be okay, and I’ll call her all the time.
And before I left, I noticed the sullen look that the woman was with him shot me.
I didn’t pay her much attention at that time, not knowing that this woman would try to ruin my life in every possible way.
I could remember every kiss, every touch, and every whisper of that night. That night when my destiny changed. Where I made love for the first. Where I endue this man my heart and soul.
Tears streamed down my cheeks like a waterfall.
Dawn broke and soft light began to filter through windows. I wiped my tears and stood up. I had to clean all this mess before Luise came with the twins.
I finished collecting all the broken things shattered around and took a quick shower when the doorbell rang.
I glanced at my phone to see the time, thinking it was still early for Luisa to bring the twins back. But I headed to the door anyway.
“Coming!” I said, trying to make my voice stable and calm the most I can.
I didn’t want the kids to feel any wrong between me and their dad.
Once I opened the door, I was shocked by Jane standing before me with a smirk on her face.
“Why are you here?” I asked in fury.
She replied with disdain, “I came to give you this. Lucas sent it to you.”