A small warning to the faint of heart, this chapter contains a lot of very deep feelings a immense sadness, and the birth of a stillborn baby.
*Maddie*
At the hospital I am quickly brought into a room and moved to a bed, soon there is a doctor and a nurse there, poking and prodding and examining me in every possible way. All the time Colin is holding my hand, telling me that we will be okay no matter what. I have a feeling that he is talking himself down too.
But I know there is nothing to do, we have lost the baby. For a moment I stop myself thinking that at least I don't have to make a choice now. But as soon as the thought pops up in my head I want to kick myself. This was the baby we wanted so badly and waited for for so long. It's a lot of hopes and dreams destroyed and my heart
