hello it's me

chapter 3

Chapter 3

Marco’s POV

I met her four years ago when I was in hurry to my brother’s company and I bumped into her in the lobby. At that time I went to my brother’s company because he needed some medicine. She was applying for a job as a secretary, I can say this is love at the first sight because when I looked at her hazel eyes, her sweet smile and beautiful face I felt something strange inside my heart. When I saw her smile for the first time, I can forget her. until one day I told my brother I will replace his place temporary at the company so he can rest for a moment and focus on his recovery.  My brother is sick, he has some health issue so I offer myself to be a temporary CEO at his company. Gratefully he was really happy when I said that.

I am a surgeon at the biggest hospital in my city and that’s is my family hospital so I can manage to work in two places as long as I don’t neglect my duty as a surgeon. It so tiring but my heart tells me to keep going.

There were some secretary candidates who more qualified than her but have you ever heard when you fall in love everything will be ok? So I was the one who chose her among the other candidates. She never knows something like that will happen in her life. On her first day working with me, I couldn’t stop glaring at her, especially her lips, her red lips. I would take her everywhere so I can be with her for the whole day. She is good at her job and also she is a funny girl and a little bit impatient but still, I like the way she is.

At first, I thought that she doesn’t have a boyfriend but I’m wrong, she has a handsome boyfriend who has a tall body and perfect abs like what most women like. Every day he will pick her up and he usually takes her to the office. I usually come earlier than her so I can see her in the morning even with a heartbroken view it doesn’t matter because all I want to see is her. even I feel like a pervert

It happens for almost four years during we work together. She never knows that I always behind her in other words I’ve been a stalker for four years. I don’t know why I love this woman when around me I have so many beautiful women.  I have tried to fall in love with another woman but it doesn’t work when I with them her face is all over me.

So, I try to use another way so I freely go out together with her and I can hug her when I want to. It sounds crazy but it works. I pretended to be gay, and she believes in me because I never let her see me with a woman, I even let the rumors spread all over the company but not in the hospital where I work. She never knows about my multiple jobs and I don’t want to let her know.

One day I saw her walking alone, crying. At that time I just finished my second operation, I want to know what had happened to her so I decided to follow her. gratefully I was wearing a mask when I sat beside her at the park. She looked so sad, so I took initiative to give her a box of tissue. She took the tissue without looking at me. seeing her crying like this makes me want to hug her and kiss her but I tried to control myself, I kept pinching my tight so I wasn’t losing control.

‘’All you need is a new mindset,’’ I dare to talk with her who was still crying.

‘’you don’t know anything,’’ she might be thinking that I was annoying. But how could she didn’t recognize my voice, we are together every day.

Maybe she was tired of crying and she fell asleep on my shoulder. I didn’t mind and I was so happy because I could see her face even gently caressing that pretty face. I couldn’t stop smiling with happiness, I even kissed her slowly afraid might be she would wake up. Finally, I took her to my family’s hotel of mine because I didn’t know where does she live, during working with me she never told me where her house is. 

She was not that heavy and I easily moved her and put her on the bed, one thing I just found out from her is she sleeps like a pig. It would be a lie if I said that I didn’t want to sleep beside her. I want to but I will wait until the right time. So I only gave her a good night kiss on her forehead but I was being greedy so I tasted her cherry lips. I kissed her more and more but luckily she was in a deep sleep. It's hard to leave her there but I had to and I wrote a letter to her without saying my name.

A week later I found out that Alice was in the emergency room, a car hit accident. I rush from my room and almost forgot to wear my mask. I saw her lying down with blood all over her body. She looked so miserable because I could see tears on her beautiful face.’’ what happened to you?’’ I sigh while asking the nurse to clean her wound, she got a broken leg. I was so sad when I saw her like that. Why couldn’t she leave that man?

After performing sudden surgery, I move her to the room. She still unconscious, I kept holding her hand silently so that no one knows. I pretended that I was visiting her, so I came to her room at midnight so she would believe me that I just finished working. I knew that she was only pretending to be strong when she is very heartbroken.

I couldn’t control myself not to kiss her directly when I arrived there. it doesn’t matter because all she knows that I am gay. She smiles at me beautifully, deep in my heart I thought why could be a beautiful woman like her was left? Was that man even normal? I accompany her until morning because I knew that she didn’t tell her parents because she afraid of them being worry about her.

This morning was the most stressful time because I had to examine her to make sure whether she could go home or not. At first, I doubt myself because I was afraid that she might recognize me and I told my friend that I got a stomachache but my friend refused it by saying I was the one who performed surgery on her. yes, my friend was right but he didn’t know how I fell right now. When I entered her room I tried to be calm as I could, but deep in my heart, I wanted to disappear in a blink of an eye. I think everybody who falls in love must know that feeling.

When I tried to focus on her wound, she kept staring at me and that made the situation got worse because I couldn’t concentrate.  I pretended not to see her face staring at me so I could focus on her wound. I had to do everything as fast as I could because I was afraid that she might recognize my voice.

Two months passed by and now she can walk like normal. This evening I saw her at the park near the hospital where I work, sadly I didn’t bring my mask so I came to cross her as the boss, not the strange man-like before. She asked me’’ why are you here boss?. Smiling at me, I really wanted to kiss her cherry lips.

‘’do you think that you’re the only one who allowed coming here?’’ I sat beside her, reading my book in silence pretending to be busy reading my book but I enjoyed the moment of our awkward moment.

‘’you know, you smell like doctor William and also the strange man that met here last two months,’’ she surprised me with her words. I tried to hide my nervousness, took a deep breath, and smile at her.

‘’so when will you come to work?’’ I changed the topic so she wouldn’t talk about the perfume anymore.

‘’tomorrow, I will be at the office. It’s getting late and why don’t you go home?’’  I felt like I couldn’t control myself when I saw her innocent face. I pinched myself hard.

‘’you better go home and don’t wait until a strange man come and take you to the hotel.’’ I might make her think how can I know that she was brought to the hotel by a stranger. Seeing her frowning her eyebrows, I could guess what she might think about me. she then left me, waving her hands. I still sitting at the bench under the dim light and watching her back which was increasingly disappearing in the crowd.

I love that woman for no reason. I patiently wait for her to break up with her boyfriend and it finally happen even though I have to wait for almost five years but I feel relieved now. It sounds so mean but I’m happy when I knew that she parted with her boyfriend and I don’t want to know why because all I want is she is being single and I can be with her.

I finally knew the reason why they broke up was that she was stabbed from the back by her best friend. This is one of many reasons why I don’t have a best friend in my life because the best friend is potentially being an enemy because they know each other too much. I handed her the wedding invitation as I guess she cried. I could hold myself when was she about to go to the toilet to hide her sadness I pulled her into my embrace and let her cry like a baby. I tried to make her calm. Deep in my heart, I am so happy because now I have the chance to make her mine. I hugged her until she stopped crying, mmmm it was so refreshing smelling her perfume. I knew that I have taken advantage of her sadness but I also don’t want to lose the chance.

Who on earth was that man? how could he do something this terrible to her? and why did her best friend do this to her? I had so many thought on my mind, seeing her being sad I felt so sad and angry. I know I don’t have the right to her, but I want to protect her and be on her side in this state. I let her cry in my embrace until she could forget the sadness and ready to start a new day.

After few minutes of crying and her eyes are being swollen because of crying. I lift her chin and said’’ no one will stay on your side forever so from now on learn to survive alone, be brave and be strong because a better day is still on the way,’’ then I pulled her back to my embrace. Stroking her long shiny black hair, her sweet scent which is becoming my favorite scent for the last four years.

She pushed me slowly and smile at me. I’m pretty sure that she didn’t suspect me why I let her cried in my embrace because all she knows I am gay, so it’s doesn’t matter to her. in her mind, I never interested in a woman. Her cherry lips were so tempting. So I let her go, slowly disappear behind the closed door. I wanted to know what would she do after this, would she go to the wedding or not. I am interested in even a very small thing about her.

The next day I decided to go to the wedding to make sure whether she came or not, but actually, I came to the wedding just to make sure if she would be okay or not. Luckily the wedding was held in my family hotel so I could enter the place even without any invitation in my hand. I sat on the round table covered with white sheets and decorated well. There was a vase with a white rose on the table. The handsome man was standing on the aisle, he wore a white suit which was matched with their all-white wedding theme.

I looked around and finally, I could see her walking closer approached the groom. She looked so calm, walking toward the man who would soon become the husband of her best friend. She smiles but I knew that was a fake smile because she tried to hide her sadness in front of him. I could see the sadness in his eyes, looks like he still loves her. Her ex was also very calm, but I could see a deep regret in his eyes. He avoided Alice's gaze and force himself to smile, ignoring the beautiful woman who was walking closer to him.

That was a heartbroken view when your lovely boyfriend would be your best friend’s husband. She didn’t stay long because she left the wedding party after talking with the bride and the groom. Seeing her like that I knew that someone who always smiles doesn’t mean they always happy but they are still hiding the deepest wound.