Love Me or Leave Me

Chapter 1

"So how was your Courage to change bullshit class? Meet anyone cool maybe a guy...or two or three?" Matt ask laughing and inhaling little miss Mary and blowing it back in my face. Again this catches him a kick to the ribs.

"Ah teacher guy doesn't seem all to bad. Likes to tell jokes and try to make everyone talk or join in on whatever he is talking about. But as far as meeting anyone no not really I guess." I replied grabbing the joint from him not wanting to tell my little brother about the i***t that claims to want to see Belle and her pups. Especially when he's been taunting me for over a month now about needing to get laid and getting out my piss poor mood as he called it.

"Was Miranda there?" he asked referring to my best friend that's supposed to be taking the court ordered class with me. And who rather he will admit to or not but who he also wants to hook up with..creepy I know but well that's my brother for you.

"No she texted right before and said that she was at the hospital, something to do with her mom. But Colby was there I talked to him before class start." now referring to his best friend or well at least one of them. He has a few that he's close to well I guess we both are. There's a handful of us that are always around together usually not seeing one with out the rest of us. There use to be a lot more of us, all like family and always together. But as always life happens. Some moved and some just disappeared one day it seems without a word and others moved on. Even on holidays we was all together and never home. I remember once my mother even asking everyone if their parents ever gets mad that they are never home to which everyone replied no and laughed saying no one gives a s**t. Which for the most part for most of us I guess was true. We was just a bunch of misfits no one really gave a second thought about and most of our so called parents could care less about us as well. I'm brought out of my head when Matt decides to smack my leg.

"Hey hoe you going to pass that or just hold it and stare at it, it's supposed to be puff puff pass not puff puff past out." yup that's my brother got to love him.

"s**t sorry I was caught in thought again. You ever miss the old crew or well the ones not around anymore?" I ask while handing him the joint.

"Not really why? Well sometimes I miss riding or partying with Big and Ryan but no not really." he starts cheesing real big and I know his toked already. Damn light weight. You'd think after few years of hanging around me he'd have more control by now.

"Just curious sometimes I do is all. But you can go ahead and finish that think I'm going to go to sleep." I say reaching for my phone to check it one last time before turning it back off.

"What the hell why you going to sleep now for?" he looks offended but I know he's not.

" I don't know just one those days I guess. Tired and just want to be done with today already not get out you fucker." I say laughing as he puts his hand to his chest looking both shocked and offended again.

"Damn ok loser I see how it is." is his only reply as he starts laughing and heads out my door.

I just laugh as I go back to checking my phone. A text from Miranda telling me that she's home but in trouble again for God only knows what and that her mom will have her phone. And a few more text from Ashton.

"What's wrong with chick?"

"Could have been worst could've said b***h or something else."

"Are you there?"

"Sorry if I offended you I'll leave you be but feel free to text if you want or just whatever."

"No you didn't offend me I was chilling with my brother. And I wouldn't advise you to call me any of that if you know what's best for you. I'm turning in for the night so later." I send back and instantly get a reply before I can turn it off.

"Oh I know what's good for me and you don't scare me cutie. But I wouldn't mind you trying to ?." oh he can't be serious..knew this has nothing to do with my dogs. I don't bother sending a reply and just turn it off instead. I flip my light switch and lay there for what feels like hours with my head running in a million different directions as it always seems to before sleep finally over takes me at some point.