Broken

I put the last box in my truck. then turned and took one last look at the home that used to be my happy place, but now it's just a place I want to get far away from. I get in my truck and begin the long drive from phoenix to Stanford university, this was it, I was finally free. id set off at the c***k of dawn to avoid everyone. I didn't want anyone to know I was leaving even more so where I was going. they all think I'm going to be at NYU with Alex my now ex boyfriend. relief washes over me now I can finally call him that. he was supposed to be someone I could trust someone I could rely on and it started out like that he used to be the perfect boyfriend untill he turned into my worst nightmare. even my mother couldn't save me she barley knew what day of week it was even when she was she somewhat placid it was to pick another bottle of vodka up till she passed out she began drinking when my father died in a car accident. it was like she she couldn't let herself feel the loss of him. shed stopped being a mother the day he died. iv not even told her where I'm going I couldn't risk Alex finding out. I couldn't risk him finding me. this was it for me, my fresh start, no more living in fear, I can finally be be free. id been driving for hours now the sun had already set the lights where becoming a blur. id decided to stop for the night and turned into an inn. once in my room I went straight for the bed,falling straight onto the fresh crisp white sheets and looked at the ceiling. I couldn't help my thoughts going to Alex and how he used to be he used to be so sweet it was the perfect relationship he was a footballer and I was a cheerleader he was always so thoughtful and caring he'd take me out on dates and treat me to gifts he made me feel like a princess like I was the most important person in the world. we'd both wanted to attend NYU together we'd had everything planned what classes we'd take and where we'd live. I felt sad thinking about what could of been. that Alex was gone. like everything else that was good in my life. even in my sleep my nightmares felt to real a constant reminder of what happened. the nightmare started that first day everything changed. I was stood waiting for Alex by his car in the lott he just scored the winning goal of the year. as him and the other guys come out the school building all jumping and smacking each other on the back cheering. Alex broke away from them and ran over to me picking me up in a hug and spinning me round making me giggle " did you see it Hannah. the winning goal of the year, I did it" he said putting back down gently " I saw you were amazing out there" I replied giving him a gentle kiss " god I feel so alive can't wait to go celebrate. your coming right?" he asked hopeful like usual but the answer is always same " I don't feel up to it tonight Alex I'm sorry" I apologised. I saw the disappointment flash across his face then changed to what looked like anger " your supposed to be my girlfriend. I want you there with me, this was the biggest game of the year and we smashed it" he half shouted I get that he wants me there with him but I just don't feel like partying anymore " I'm sorry Alex" I apologised putting my head down " no Hannah it's not fair, iv been so patient with you since your dad died. it's been three months babe. he'd want you to be enjoying life, iv been there for you everyday. I'm asking you do this one thing for me and you can't even do that" he said. I could hear the disappointment t in his voice. he was right he'd been my rock when my dad passed away. I suppose going to the party wouldn't be the worst thing in the world." ok I'll go" I said with half a smile. Alex's face lit up with a big smile showing his perfectly white teeth and his little dimples, his has reached for his dirty blond tousled hair. " seriously babe your your going to come" he asked makeing sure he heard me right, like he almost didn't believe what I was saying. " yes I'll go , but I don't want to stay to late" I grinned back at him and he picked me up again spinning round before placing back down he reached his hand up to long dark brown wavy hair tucking a stray stand behind my ear then placed a long gentle kiss on my lips. pulling away he says "your my perfect Hannah banana" and chuckled. I gave him a playful punch in the arm in knew it wouldn't hurt him he was tall and quite muscular you could definitely tell he worked out a lot and it's definitely paid off " right we better get going" he said and we both got in his car. we pulled up to his friend Jackson's house his parent were hardly ever home so the party's where always here it was a nice house it was big and had a circular driveway the building was white with match pillars and had a massive double door you could definitely tell his family had money just from the house. we pulled up to the front and got out the car. Alex came round and put his arm over my shoulders and I leaned into him as we walked into the house there was already people wasted and falling all over the place. people making out in inappropriate places. Alex led me to the kitchen where he got himself a beer and me a pepsi " here babe" he said passing it to me " thanks" I smiled up at him. he knew I didn't like to drink especially since my mum started to obsessively drown herself in vodka everyday I liked to keep my head clear. "hey babe iv just got to see Jackson real quick will you be alright here for a minute" he asked " yeah I'll be fine " I answered and he gave a quick kiss on the cheek and disappeared into the crowd. an hour had passed and he'd still not come back, id already drank my soda, what could be taking him so long "hey stranger" I heard a voice I recognised from behind me "Caleb" I said and nearly squealing as he pulled me into a hug "how've you been" I asked. iv not seen him for nearly a year he was the captain of the football team till he graduated and went off to uni he was Alex's best friend. "I'm good what about you" he asked then quickly added "s**t I'm sorry, I heard about dad passing he was great guy I'm so sorry Hannah" he said sympathetically " I'm fine, well I'm as fine as I can be I'm getting there anyway" I said giving him a weak smile "that's good, so how's you and Alex he still been good to you, where is that goon anyway?" he asked "yeah we're really good, he's been amazing since dad died, I'm not sure where he is though he went to talk to Jackson about something" I replied. we chatted for a little while before Alex finally appeared he looked in mood carrying an almost empty bottle of brown liquor, he stormed over to me and Caleb "trying to move in my girl Caleb" he growled. I wasn't sure what was happening then Alex pulled arm back throwing a punch at Caleb in the jaw , Caleb fell to the floor smirking.