Immortal Diaries: Rejected Luna (English)

“You’re weak!” “Tsk, useless she-wolf.” “Gosh, why is she even here?!” “So freaking useless. Can’t even aim at the board.” I clenched my fists and bit my lip hard to prevent the tears from running down my face. Weakling, useless, pitiful, oh how I ate those words for the last seventeen years. I have always been hearing those words being thrown against me. Werewolves are said to be strong and fearless, but then as the saying goes, there is always an exception to the rule. And I guess, that’s just how my fate goes. I was exempt from the rule. I am not strong and I am not fearless. I grew up weak, fearful and useless. I have no role in the pack. All I could do was the household chores, a typical she-wolf, they say. I was no use in the pack. I wasn’t a warrior, nor a hunter. If not for my father’s legacy as the strongest and most dedicated beta in the pack, I wouldn’t be this special in the pack. And now he's gone, and I'm alone. My mother died in childbirth so I never really got to know her. It was my father who took care of me from the beginning and now, I was alone already. "Everyone, quiet!" Our instructor's voice echoed in the room. The students stopped murmuring and went back to what they were doing. I took a deep breath and composed myself. Our trainor was already heading towards me. “Your muscles are tense. Try to relax. Focus on your target and straighten your angle. Do you understand?” I sighed and tried to do what he just said. “Ready?” I nodded a bit. “Yes.” “Alright, hit the bull’s eye. Three, two, one…” On cue, I released my arrow. My heart was beating so fast as I followed where the arrow was hitting. A loud thump filled the whole training room when my arrow bounced back and instead of hitting the board, it made its way to my trainor. "Oh my god!" "The f**k?!" The whole room was filled with screams which made my eyes widened in fear as I looked at my trainor who was already holding onto his eyes because it was where the arrow hit! Shit! "Uhh s-sir…" I wasn't able to finish my sentence when he lashed out on me. "Get the hell out of here!" I jumped in shock and immediately nodded to him. I quickly turned my back and ran away from the training room. I tightened the grip on the bow and arrow that I was holding. I swallowed hard and grasped my weapon tightly. I was panting as I was walking away from the training room. I bit my lip hard to the point that I couldn't even feel it anymore because I was biting it so hard. I could already taste the blood on it. I felt my eyes tearing up already. Damn it. I hate this. It’s almost our evaluation yet I still couldn’t master my archery skills. What will happen to me then? Will I be a servant forever? Is this really my fate? I could feel a strong emotion building up in my chest already as I was heading home. Moon Goddess, please give me strength… I need to do good, or else I’ll be demoted. I cannot be. I don’t want to be. I just really don’t get the rules of this pack. f**k… I took a deep breath and swallowed the lump in my throat before hurrying back to my house. In our pack, we have our own house aside from the main packhouse that stands in the middle. I bit my lip as I entered my house. The lonely and eerie atmosphere inside welcomed me. I looked around and gave out a sad smile. I went to my bed and carefully sat there. I took a deep breath as I stared at nothingness. Happy birthday to me, huh. I closed my eyes and took in another deep breath. It’s my 18th birthday. I was actually excited when I woke up earlier. I had great hopes and I was so motivated. Being 18 is the most exciting phase for us she-wolf in this realm. It not only means that we will be able to catch the smell of our mate, but it also entails additional power and strength. I was actually hoping for that because I needed that. I need to be strong…I need to be part of the pack warriors. I cannot be just a servant for the rest of my existence. And that test earlier…that was my key to at least make it to be in the pack warriors’ den, but it seemed like I was not cut for it. And that hurts me more. Moon Goddess, is this really my fate? Am I just gonna be stuck in this pack and be a servant my whole life? But I want to go out there! I want to fight for my pack! I want to avenge my parents’ death…and I cannot do that if I continue to be the weakling that I was. That was my main motivation aside from the fact that I didn’t want to stay weak because everyone in the pack was making fun of me. Now, it felt like everything just fell on me. I felt hopeless. It was like destiny was telling me that I wasn’t meant to be in the frontline, that I wasn’t meant to be a warrior and that I should just accept my parents’ death and should not get justice because I can’t. Just thinking about those felt like thorns in my heart. I wanted so much to stay positive just like what my father always told me. I wanted to be optimistic and to still hope for the best thing to happen, but with what’s going on, I couldn’t find it in me to be that ray of sunshine again. The dawn of realization slapped me hard. The hard truth was that I wasn’t born for great things…I was born just to be a servant. I wanted so much to change that. I don’t believe in destiny, I believe that I make my own future, but experiencing this now, I think I would have to let go of that fantasy of mine… Should I? My mouth parted when I felt the hot tears that were coming out of my eyes. I gasped hard upon realizing that I was already crying. Wow. I didn’t even know that I was crying. I bit my lip hard as I harshly wiped away the tears that were so stubborn. Huh. Maybe this was the reason why I cannot be the warrior that I want, huh. What a pity, Louve. What a pity. I heaved out a sigh and fanned myself just to calm me down. I took in a deep breath before swallowing hard. I calmed myself down again. I stood up and was about to place my bow and arrows on the side when I suddenly felt like my heart was beating so fast. An unfamiliar smell and feelings suddenly covered my whole being. My feet were locked on the ground. The sensation that was tingling my body was overwhelming. I suddenly felt hot and my heart was ramming inside my chest already as if my heart wanted to go out. I couldn’t understand what I was feeling. I felt agitated and uneasy. There was something in me that I couldn’t name. Is this what I think it is? ‘Mate…’ I stopped when I heard my wolf groan. ‘Mate.’ “Mate?” I groaned hard when I felt the agitation getting stronger. My heartbeat doubled too as if I was in a race. ‘We found our mate!’ My wolf was jolting with joy. I shut my eyes tightly as I fell back to my bed. I gasped and placed my hand on my chest. I then inhaled a strong and manly scent. Hmm. That must be him? I opened my eyes again as a smile appeared across my lips. I think I just found my mate… wow. I couldn’t believe this. I found him! I felt like all the pain and the sadness that I had earlier just vanished upon the thought of having my mate already. This is actually a good sign, right? I took a deep breath as the smell started to get even stronger. I bit my lip hard and tried to calm myself even though I knew that there was no calming down until I finally met him. I couldn’t help but smile as the feeling of excitement filled my whole being. I thought of waiting until later but the agitation that I felt was too much. I felt like my wolf was taking over as I immediately stood to follow where the smell was coming from. My heart was pounding so fast as I left my house. When I got outside, everyone was busy with what they were doing. I even saw some of them looking and making fun of me again, but I wasn’t in the mood to be affected. I continued walking to follow the scent until I was brought to the forest just outside our pack. Every step that I take, the smell just keeps on getting stronger. The excitement was doubling up. I can’t wait to see him! Was he feeling the same, too? Was he excited and overwhelmed that he didn’t even know what to do? Oh gosh… I was already panting as I was nearing the scent. I didn’t even know how deep I was already in the forest. I just want to find him already! Damn. “Ahhh! Ohh s**t!” “f**k!” I immediately stopped on my tracks upon hearing those noises. My forehead creased as I looked around to find those. Ughh, seriously? They’re making me irk. Really? Here in the forest? Are they that horny? I shook my head and took a deep breath again. I began following the smell again, not minding the moans and the groans that I was hearing. Gross. Am I really going to meet my mate with someone else’s moans in the background? Great! I gave out a sigh and just continued walking until I eventually reached the middle of the forest. I was so ready to smile and greet whoever was there, but I was greeted by a scandalous scene. “f**k! Coming!” “Ahh! Ohh! s**t!” “What the heck?” I whispered to myself upon seeing a woman on all fours as a man was banging her from behind. My mouth dropped open as I felt the scent from the man f*****g the woman. Oh my gosh. “L-Louve?” My whole body froze upon hearing that. My eyes widened in disbelief when I saw who they were. “Louve…” Marcus said as he quickly stood with my cousin, Laria beside her. ‘He’s our mate!’ What the actual f**k?!