Caught in Between

Ever since I was a kid people tend to see me as a girly boy. They said that I'm way too tamed to be a boy. I don't blame them, I can't really keep up with their expectations on how should a boy be but I think I should try at least. That pushes me to change myself into something I'm not. I started dating a lot of girls like I was just changing clothes. I became a jerk. Especially to girls. I thought I was having fun not until I saw this gorgeous neighbor of mine. I tried fighting my feelings for him at first but I just can't help myself from staring at his beautiful body structure, like I could hang on to those guns of his. Whenever he smiles I feel like something is stirring inside me, like I'm about to burst or something. I just can't control myself every time I'm around him. As time goes by I admit it to myself, I just can't fool myself any longer. I definitely have a crush on this neighbor of mine. If only I have the guts to tell him how I really feel about him. Not to mention the fear of rejection, it will break me if he will be disgusted to me after I confess to him. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad to be just friends with him. In that way, I can always be there for him and he won't push me away for liking him. As we get older he started to get a little distant from me. I guess he started to notice that I like him and this is his kind way of telling me to keep my distance and that I gross him up. In a blink of an eye, we became strangers like we never been friends. We graduated and started living as an adult. I decided to break-free from this life that pushes me to hide my true self from the world. That's when I met this jerk who thinks he could buy anything with money. Since I moved here in the city my life seems to intertwine with this jerk's life, like fate is making fun of me. Will my life be miserable forever? Wait, why is there a big bright yellow eyes behind the shadow of the trees? Why is it staring at me eminently?