My Heart Hates Me

Chapter 2

Vivian walked into the verandah where Delia stood. She was peeping through the door.

"Oh my God, he's handsome!" Delia squealed. Vivian looked at Delia. She slowly walked towards her and peeped inside the drawing—room. She could see through the open door——A young man of about her age, dressed up in a black suit and leather boots sat on the shabby and worn out sofa with two other people, maybe his parents. Delia went away to help her mother.

Vivian could look at Kirito. He was so big now. All these years seemed worth the wait. She could feel her chest tightening and the air passing in and out of her lungs. She looked at him as if he was the only person she had ever known. And she wanted to know him more.

She didn't know what caused him to turn but he did and their eyes met. They looked at each other for a while as if they had learned about each other already just through their eyes. He smiled and waved at her. She quickly looked away.

Delia suddenly tapped her shoulder and Vivian flinched "Go inside. Father is calling you,"

"But I'm not emotionally prepared," Vivian was red already. Delia crossed her arms and glared at her. Vivian took a deep breath and opened the door. She looked everywhere but at Kirito and he didn't look anywhere but her.

"This is my daughter," Mr Garnette introduced her to Kirito.

"Vivian!" Mr Hiomi got up from the sofa "How are you, my dear?"

"I'm good, uncle," Vivian looked at the floor.

"You can call me dad," Mr Hiomi said.

"Yes, dad,"

"Aw, you're shy?" Mr Hiomi laughed "Why don't you kids talk to each other for awhile? I need to have a chat with Lucus too," He proposed.

"Alright," Kirito got up from the sofa.

"Vivian, why don't you take him to your room? There you can talk without any disturbances," Mr Hiomi suggested.

"Yes, dad," Vivian turned away "Please follow me," She said to Kirito and both of them walked to her room on the first floor. She opened the door only to remind herself how messy her room was, with books and clothes thrown everywhere.

"My cow did this. It is not always like this," She started picking up her stuff quickly.

"It's okay. My dog has eaten hundreds of homework assignments too," Kirito leaned and started picking up the books thrown on the floor. His fingers touched hers and she leapt back giving a tiny shriek.

"Please sit on that sofa for now," She said as she clenched her eyes "I'll do this myself,"

"Sure," He sat on the sofa and a farting sound covered the room. He quickly got up and saw a pillow.

"Sorry that's my toy pillow. But I swear it wasn't there to embarrass you," She snatched the pillow from him.

"This is quite an interesting room," He looked around. She stood before him and he stared at her. "Why don't you take a seat?" He patted his hand on the sofa.

"You mean sit beside you?" She asked.

"Yes," He smiled.

She quietly sat beside him and looked at the wooden floor while twisting her feet. There was a moment of silence until Kirito asked what her hobbies were.

"I can sleep for 24 hours," Vivian said.

'What am I saying?! You beschevert sau!'

Kirito laughed "That's nice. I don't have any hobbies," Kirito said.

"Did you especially learn German?" Vivian asked.

"Yes, to talk to you," Kirito said.

"I learnt Japanese too!" Vivian said.

"That's amazing, now we can converse in both the languages," Kirito smiled. Vivian nodded and looked at the floor again.

"Vivian, honestly tell me—— Do you like me?" Kirito asked. Vivian looked at him. He took a deep breath.

"We don't really know each other that well, so I was thinking if you would like to cancel this engagement,"

Vivian looked at him with surprise. Did he not like her?

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Kirito couldn't hate her. She looked good and she dressed up for him. She learned his language—— He couldn't hate her. Vivian refused to believe it.

"Verarschen!" Vivian faked a laugh.

(Tn// Stop joking around)

"I'm serious," Kirito said, coldly.

"I know that we don't know each other that well, but I want to know you and I'm ready to spend my entire life learning about you," Vivian said. She looked at his hand. There wasn't any ring in his fingers.

"I see," Kirito smiled and got up "Then, see you at the wedding ceremony,"

Vivian smiled.

Something wasn't right. She didn't want to do this but her heart didn't listen to her mind. Things went fluently the preceding month. Everyone seemed busy with the preparations. There was just so much to do in the wedding! Finally, it was the wedding day.

Chapter 4

The ceremony was held in Japan.

Vivian was dressed up in a beautiful white, wedding dress. She stood beside Kirito, who was dressed in a black suit.

The parson stood between them and asked them to take their vows.

"Vivian, do you take Kirito to be your lawfully wedded husband?" He asked. She smiled as she looked into his blue—green eyes. He was smiling while looking into her deep blue eyes.

"I do,"

"Kirito, do you take Vivian to be your lawfully wedded wife?"

He looked deeper into her eyes "I do,"

"From this day, I announce you to be husband and wife. You may kiss,"

They kissed and everyone got up as they clapped. As they moved away, Vivian whispered into Kirito's year "Nothing may separate us but the wrath of the Lord. Together we will be, in rosen meadows or prickly roads."

Kirito smiled.

The reception was arranged in the halls of the huge hotel. The musicians sat on the stage and played the standard classical wedding piece of canon in D. Everyone was eating and chatting to each other.

When Vivian was done chatting with the guests, she began looking around. She looked at her father, standing on the balcony. She walked towards him and hugged him from behind.

"Papa! What are you thinking about?" She whispered into his ear.

"I'm sad that you grew up," He looked at her.

"Well, you could just make me a potion to not grow up."

"I wish I could do that." He laughed.

Vivian stood beside him and they both looked ahead.

"Remember Vivian, the first day when you went to school?"

"Ah—— I remember! On my first day, I was so scared to leave you that I grabbed your shirt when I saw the teacher and when she pulled me away from you—— I tore away your shirt!"

"I'm surprised you still remember."

"How can I forget that, dad? That was the time when I exposed your boobs to the world!"

Lucus began laughing.

"You were a brat. But look how beautifully you've grown. I'm glad you have Kirito. I never thought that day would come so quickly. It feels like yesterday when you hated to walk by yourself and you always somehow landed on my shoulders."

Vivian didn't know what to say so she just kept quiet.

"You've finally found your prince, so it seems that daddy's not needed anymore."

"Dad," Vivian held her father's hand and he rested his warm palm on her face "Quatsch! I may find my prince but you will always be my king."

(Tn// Quatsch——Don't be silly)

"Oh mensch! You're going to make me cry,"

(Tn// Mensch—— Man)

"Wanna drink?"

"Is that even a question?"

Kirito stood with his mother and Mrs Garnette. While both the ladies were talking amongst themselves, he was staring at Vivian and her father. He suddenly met his friends and his uncle, Elios Kurosawa and began chatting with them.

There was suddenly a commotion. People were moving towards the table to see that Vivian and her father were having a drinking competition.

"These two," Mrs Garnette pressed her temples.

"It's alright," Mrs Hiomi laughed. Kirito ran towards his father out of confusion.

"Dad! What's going on? What is she doing?" Kirito whispered to his father.

"Why? Isn't it fun? A German drinking competition! We are betting for money! I bet on Vivian, you?" Mr Hiomi asked. Kirito looked angry as he clenched his fist in a wave of anger. Vivian got on the stage with the musicians, ready to give a performance as all the guests cheered for her. She drank as she sang and everybody else drank with her.

Finally, Vivian passed out. She had lost the match as Mr Garnette was still standing.

"I lost!" That was all Mr Hiomi was concerned about while Kirito was ready to dig a hole and die in it.

"Vivian? Are you alright, dear?" Mrs Hiomi patted Vivian's head "Guess it can't be helped," She turned towards Kirito.

"Take Vivian to your room. She is completely drunk."

"Okay." He simply followed what was said by his mother. It was about midnight when Vivian regained consciousness. She slowly got up from the bed and rubbed her head.

"Are you up?" Kirito asked as he walked out of the bathroom.

"Kirito! Where are we?" Vivian blushed as she looked around.

"It's our room." Kirito said, coldly.

"We have to share a room?" She asked.

"Are you an i***t? We are married now. We're gonna do much more than sharing a room."

'Somehow, he sounds a bit colder' Vivian noticed but decided to just observe for sometime. He clicked his tongue and sat on the bed. He seemed very different than how he was before. He seemed so warm and approachable then but now, he was capricious.

"Hey, you hardly even know me. Why do you like me?" He asked as Vivian sat beside him.

"Because with you, it's a different feeling to admire," Vivian blushed as she smiled.

He looked at her up and down for a while, while she bit her lips and looked at the carpet beneath.

"Strip." He said.

Vivian looked up at him.

"What? You love me, right? Then, strip, I'm your husband I have every right over you."

"That doesn't feel right," She pressed her hand over her heart.

"Does it look like I care?" She clenched her dress.

"Do you love me?" She asked.

He chuckled "Are you an i***t? You're just a tool for my success, nothing more. Love you? Bullshit—— I f*****g hate you!"

"Then you shouldn't ask me to strip,"

"How should I put it? I want to kill you some time,"

She looked at him as if refusing to believe what he said.

"Will you strip now? I am waiting." She didn't say a thing. Kirito got her answer from the silence. He threw a blanket at Vivian.

"I'm sleeping on the bed. Sleep wherever you wish to."

"But, there isn't any other bed."

"Sleep on the damn sofa! Don't disturb me—— I have an important meeting tomorrow." He switched off the lights while Vivian stood on the floor with the blanket still in her hand.

She slowly walked towards the sofa and closed her eyes as she covered herself with the blanket.

'This isn't what I left my home for...'

Chapter 5

Vivian slowly opened her eyes and looked at the wall before her, reflecting the light of the sun from the window. At first, she was confused, but then she realised she wasn't home anymore. She remembered what had happened the previous.

So, she spent half of her life loving someone who hated her?

'Had I known about this before then I'd never fall for you. Because I'd rather be heartless than heartbroken. But look what you did.'

She didn't want to move from the sofa but she realised that just laying around won't solve any problem. Maybe if she acts nice, Kirito would eventually fall for her like in those romantic movies. She got up and rubbed her eyes. She stretched her arms and yawned.