Dreaming my reality

Liv POV. I am going to miss home,.. or not? I don’t know. The rain is pouring outside, and I still have a lot of packing to do. I get out bed and make my way to my study desk in front my window that face my neighbours house that is across the road, open the drawer to take out my dairy. Dear Diary fairy 28/02/23. Today is my last day in South Africa, and I honestly feel numb. Don’t get me wrong, I love my country, my family, my friends but South Africa does not have opportunities for me. Dairy this is my last entry because I do not plan on bringing you along with me, you contain too many secrets that I afraid that they might come to light. I plan on burning you before I leave, this will signify an end of past and great start to my future, we can also consider this as my final part of healing from my past. Wow I have a past, should I bursts out some of the rage I still have? What am I waiting for? In fact let me give you a piece of my. . . “Liv!!” Mom shouted. ‘Perfect timing’ I cuss. I close my diary and shove it back it into the drawer. Grab my gown and make my way downstairs. The Wooden finished floor was my Dads idea, my moms ex boyfriend. The floors are looking my shiny then usual. I find my mother sitting in the lounge room on her phone while the TV is playing, I responded “ Yes mother you called me?” She gave me that funny look because I came responded faster than usual. Our relationship is like a mother-daughter friendship but I am not entirely open because she would kill me. She taps the space next her on the couch and I sit next to her. “ She kisses my forehead “ My only daughter is leaving my nest” , “ At least I am not your only child” I am the first of two. She slaps my shoulder, “ you know your brother is with his father.” Yeah yeah whatever. “Are you done packing?” , I am almost done, I just need to pack my toiletries.” She nodded in agreement. She received a call and made her way to the kitchen. That is odd. I was about to leave when the doorbell rang. Mom shouted “ I will get that” She opened the door and shut it right behind her. I was really confused went to kitchen to drink some water and went back to my room. It was not even a minute and my mom called me back down. ‘I think she is going mad with grief’ I thought, went back same place on the couch when she first called me. Her smile looked goofy. “ Yes mother” She said go and open the door. I went to the door and before I touched the handle I heard whispers on the other end and I thought to myself ‘let me take a peek’ I slightly opened the door and saw a lot of people and I closed the door and suddenly everyone was hushed and then I opened the door and “SURPRISE!!!” . My face was blank and I could not react in the manner in which they had expected. My dad was standing in front the door if he was not my dad I would slam the door in his face, I respect him regardless of his flaws. Moms patio is crowded with distant family members and friends and my friends and wait . . . My ex. I stood at the door staring at the crowd gob smacked, my long time friend or sister made her way to the front and stood next to me and whispered “ Liv you are frozen, everyone is waiting for a response and you need to . ..” I grabbed her arm and pulled her to the kitchen and whispered “ What on earth is going on.” That was a rhetorical question before Promise could respond I raised my hand to stop her from saying anything. “ I am aware of what is going on, everyone is here is bid me farewell and go back to they lives. These people don’t care, do not get me started with Dad he did not like this idea of me going to another country and my ex, my ex, really!!! Are f****n insane!” My friend does not want to understand the situation. “Liv I understand your anger, it is justified but right now there is nothing I can do your mother also planned this and honestly we both know we can’t say anything about your ex. Just pretend you are in a scene and act, this will be good practice for your career.” She made a good point. We walk back the the door and everyone was busy whispering until we came back “ Welcome Everyone” I said with a fakest smile ever. As everyone walked in I greeted and hugged them, Aunties,uncles, cousin, grannies,grandfathers, my moms friends, my friends and finally my ex. 6’4 milk chocolate skin, with a brush cut. His woody cologne turned me on. “Hey Liv” that husky voice drove my v****a to a pulse he hugged me and tip toed to hug him back, memories came flooding back. Could my v****a just stop for a moment. “ Hi King” his name is just, scratch that thought. We walked together and Promise winked at me. That means I am doing great. Everyone was making conversation and I still needed to bath so I ran to my mom and told her I need to shower real fast I will be back. She said she going to be preparing food in the meantime and all the men opened football and the ladies made they way to the kitchen with my friends. Rushed back to room to look for something to wear. Took off my gown and took my bathing robes. ‘ Should I finish my dairy entry?’ Went to my study desk and there it was my diary. Where was I oh yes. Let me give you a piece of my mind, F***k Dad, F***k his wife, f***k King who should be dethroned to joker because he is a joke. But is this rage worth it I finally got what I want let me just end it on good note I love my mom, I love my friends, I love Promise and my baby brother too. I closed the book and sighed in relief. Grabbed my towels and my toiletries and went to the bathroom. I was just making my way out of my bedroom door when King pushed me back in. He shut the door behind him and locked it. “King get out” I said without any emotions. “ Liv listen to me we need to talk” I could not find my phone to call Promise, so just made my way to the door and he would not let me past it. I pushed him, but it did not work. He picked me up and pinned me down on my bed. F***k he is too strong. He whispered next to my ear “ Please just listen” his breath tickled the back of my ears. He lets me go and puts his hands in the air, I lift myself up, “ you have two minutes” . “ I am not going to apologise.” , “ because you got pride”. “ No, just let me finish” I nodded in agreement “ She was not what you think, I only went to the dance with her because it was a promise I made to her before we broke up, can you please just try to understand” . He looks and me with those puppy eyes. ‘Pitiful’ “ I understand King, but you did not need to f***k her but either we done I forgive you, you can go back to her and we will go our separate ways.”, “one more thing, please?” , I roll my eyes “ just a tiny hug” I am going to regret this “okay” we hugged for a minute or two, but long enough to awaken Mr D in his pants I let go of him and he lets me go. I make my way to the door grab my toiletries from the ground and there he was behind me, just as I had expected. He pinned me against the door and whispered “ one last time” I knew that was not a question, King always had his way with me he knew how much I loved his d***k. Turned me around, my toiletries fell out my hand and King cupped my face and kissed me. I kissed him back, he grabbed my waist and lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist and kissed passionately, while we were kissing he walked over to my bed. I will not lie I was little excited, it had been a while since I had s*x. We broke up over a three months ago after 2 years of dating he was the only guy I was ever comfortable with. He put me gently on the bed and he climbed on, on top of me, i pulled his neck closer and started licking him, I whispered in his he ear, “ I.hate.you.”, he smirked. Pulled his shirt off revealing his abs, his not an athlete but his body says otherwise. Pulled in for some more kisses, and turned over on top of him, he giggled, he will regret that. I slowly took out his belt, unbuttoned his pants, pulled out this pants leaving him with his underwear only. I kissed his bulging d**k through his black underwear, licked his abs,my tongue travelled all the way back to to his mouth. He pulled the belt of my robe revealing my naked body. He stared in awe, “ I am not like her” , and kissed him feeling hotter then ever, he pulled of the robe and threw it somewhere in my room. He grabbed my a*s , I sigh as I feel the pressure building to the max, he pinches my n*****s and I moan and he starts kissing my neck, making his way down to my n*****s, I continue to moan as my waist moves uncontrollably because of the pressure, his fingers made they was to my clits, my body clasped on the bed, lying like a doll that is going to be played with. He has a way of touching the right spots, he grabs one leg and hangs over his back as his mouth kissed my v****a, the volume of my moans increase as he devours me. Maybe it’s all the anger I had stored away in the back of my mind, grabbed his head while, tickles the spot with his tongue his fingers enter that game and “Oh God!” I shouted, it can’t be that tight, it’s been over three months only. He paces his fingers, I move uncontrollably and he uses his one arm to hold me down, my chest rises as I reach an orgasm and my toes curl. My body shudders, but he is not done. Honestly sucking his d**k is amazing, the size goes all the to the back of my throat, I gag breathlessly, he grabs my hair to keep his c***k inside my mouth, when he lets go of my head I breathe for air. Grabs my neck and puts my head down the pillow, kisses me and whispers “good girl” his ego could never let him shut up. He taps his c***k on my spot, playing around with my emotions “ just f***k me, please” I moaned, “As you wish” he responded, within a second he puts all inside of me, I screamed in pleasure and he puts his hand on my mouth. He looked me in my eyes, and f****s me slowly, tears started to roll out my eyes and he kissed me as if he his apologising for the tears. These tears were tears of relief, he doesn’t know that he was the last person who f****d me. His pace slowly started to increase, then he went beast mode, just pounding me. I continued to moan, “ yes King” as I rolled my eyes. He flips me like a pancake, lifts my a*s full inserts his c***k pounding me, in scream into the pillows, I hear him groaning in pleasure, he grabs my neck from the front and back his pulled to his chest, he was pounding me numb, I could not breath anymore, my took over. “ King stop” , “ that is not how you say it” , really now “ My Lord I surrender” he lets go of and I faint onto my bed, I feel his hot c*m on my a*s. I feel exhausted and I still need to pack. My mom bangs on the door, “ food will be ready in 5”, “I am famished” says King. I can’t even move, ‘ Get up Liv what is wrong with you, one round and you out you stronger than that’ ,I get up and grab toiletries and make a run for the bathroom. Shower for 5 minutes, run back to my room, King is gone, my bed is a mess and I can’t find my clothes, my mom walks in my to find me naked searching for something to wear, “ Liv your food will get cold” I find a pair of blue jeans and a chocolate colour hoodie and a pair of white sneakers with socks. I run down stairs and find everyone seated at the dining table waiting for me. “ Here is the Lady of the hour” says Dad as he hugs me and takes me to my chair to get seated. Promise looks at me in a devilish way, I think she noticed that king and I were gone for too long. Granny blesses the food and we start digging in. Classic 7 colours with grilled steak and chicken. How long was gone? All this food? Let shut my mouth and eat. My mom makes jokes of all my embarrassing memories and I actually start to feel sad. I did not have much because I still needed to finish packing. “ Mom I need to finish packing my flight is in 4 hours”, Promise jumped at the opportunity “I will help” , “ Thank you for the food mom”. She winked and blushed. Back in my bedroom my bed looked, “ Wow Liv yall made the most of it” said Promise looking at the bed, “ I will make the bed you pack the rest of my things” she nodded in agreement and we got busy. I cleaned the room out and we got enough time to gossip because she was done packing my stuff. “ I need to burn my diary and yes King and I f****d, it was great, my p***y has been satisfied and I am ready for the road” , “ Where are you going to burn you book?” Promise asked. . . “The grill” we rushed down to the grill area by the poolside and we find all the men standing there and King in the mist. I called him aside, “ King we need to burn this book, is the fire still lit?” , “Yes” King responded “Burn this book for me please?”, “ Okay” . He took the book and ripped the pages so it could burn faster. Only 128 entries in that book. I watched him just for precaution. When threw the cover I knew the job was done. King walked over to me “ It’s done”, “Thank you” , “for what?” Mom appeared out of nowhere “for agreeing to help her pack her luggage in the car” Promise responded “ Aww King how nice of you, royal highness” my mom giggled, I can imagine how boosted his ego is now. “ It’s no problem ma’am” he said humbly.